>had stoner parents>I got groomed online a lot from the age of like 11 or 12 (like as bad as it can get online, which obviously is nowhere near as bad as irl)>in highschool I would get exclusively guy crushes etc.>i ended up doing a lot of gay shit online and even almost getting in a relationship with a guy at my school at one point and then backing out>i was never publicly gay but still got heavily bullied and barely socialised for all of high school>i suppressed all that and tried to be like a 'based' normal person for years>still just constantly had weird shit thoughts>have a gf now who struggled with similar stuff and she just lets me act and look however, and accepts me or wtv>even lets me like crossdress i guess, wants me to >i still get the worst ever shame and disgust when I think of who I am, even if she knowsam i always gonna have those thoughts for my whole life?
You're gonna regret larping as a straightoid when you're older.Lose the gf and get a bf.
i mean maybe but just own it at this point . you fucked up and made Urself gay Because Ur Retarded and There's No cure . You're going to die Soon make the most of It & Do whatever your perverted Gay little brain wants while you Can and Quit being a slave Idiot
>>43876901How old are you now? You said u cross dress but what kind of porn do u jerk off to
>>43876901You have severely internalized homophobia. Get a good therapy asap
