I was a pretty boy, why did I become a monster.I will probably die alone. I'm 3 years on HRT now. I'm a straight trans girl, I hate it. I can't take my self seriously. Even when people gender me correctly, i correct them and tell them to use male pronouns. I simply cannot believe anyone thinks my 6ft tall stature resembles the one of an actual woman. I'm 21 now and I waisted majority of my life for nothing. I still boymode, I still hate myself.No man will ever love me. No man will ever date me or want to be seen publicly with me. I am a sex toy, a fun experience, but not someones dream girl. No man will ever see me and think of me as their future wife. I hate it. I wanna die. I fucking hate it. I will never be able to give someone children. I will never have my own kids. My whole life is just a big cope. Everyone at college stares at me, they all laugh at me, ask themselves what must be wrong with me to live a life like this. They are laughing at my high voice and why I am still wearing oversized hoodies at this heat. I'm not living, I'm just surviving. It's all meaningless.
Also fuck the German healthcare system. It's been years and I'm still struggling to find a therapist cause there are either no places or they just don't want to help a tranny.
>>43880444sorry to hear it, sis.i know it sounds hard but try not to construct your self worth around a men loving u.there are different things to live for and be proud of.maybe one day u will be able to girlmode and life is gonna look brighter.t. 20y straight tgirl from Germany
Why are you so convinced that no man will ever love you?
>>43880661Let's be serious lol. Which man thinks of a 6ft tall twinkhon as his ideal dream gf? They would all immediatly leave me for a cis woman the second the got the chance. I'm also autistic and stupid.
>>43880616I'm just sad. I see all those beautiful girls with amazing boyfriends will I am stuck in this hellhole.
>>43880707feel u. sometimes i fill like im getting physically ill from envy.
>>43880444>I wasted my life>I'm 21I'm not going to say that your feelings aren't valid, but you're still basically a child. There's a lot more life here.
>>43880696tbhon there are some guys out there nona…im taller and almost certainly more honish than you but ive had bfs before
>>43880743Das Leben ist nicht fair.
>>43880783How were those bf's? Where did you meet them? I'm in college and I can tell most guys think I am a freak. I got asked out once but turned down the moment he found out I was trans. I hate it, I really do. :/
>>43880807ive met them here mostly tbhon…one of them was genuinely the most sweet, amazing, caring person ive ever methe genuinely wanted to help me live how i want to and he supported me and comforted methere really are good guys out there nona you just have to find them
