Me trans man. Id been #gaming with a few coworkers and a coworkers bf. Cumulatively we have like20? 30? Hours all playing together. This coworkers bf hadn't met me, knowing me only by voice and name.A few of us hung out recently. Afterwards we hopped on to #gamer. The coworker bf was commenting on something on my avatar and said "she's bla bla". Yeah. So i kms. I am stealth and nearing 10 years hrt. I'm trying to convince myself it was a actual like brainfart. Otherwise there's no win in this situation.Did coworkers clock me? Then out me to the the bf offhandedly? Did the bf clock me upon meeting? He kinda doesn't seem to like me beforehand even, so I'm stricken that this may have been purposeful.Like I said no win. I want to claw My skin off and slit my throat. Whats the point. I genuinely want to just sob. I haven't been misgendered in years. But clearly something was enough to clock. I feel so angry and broken.
>>43884481you need to go out in nature more, maybe cloudgaze
>>43884512:( what would that do. I feel sick and so utterly fucking disgusted
>>43884518Well thinking about it won't make you feel any better will it? If you can't find happiness within yourself you must look elsewhere and there is plenty of beauty and wonder out there in the world. Have you ever watched a magpie bob and hop around or a squirrel eat nuts with thoss grubby little hands? Fresh air is nice and healthy a change of scenery is known to help you gotta find something in your life that you like and learn to stop worrying so much about things that just are, no one gets to pick and choose the perfect life but we all have to go on and it's the little joys you seek along the way that make it worthwhile
