I am a cis male who thought he was transgender for a while but really just felt lonely due to me being exclusively being into bondage and finding no woman attractive or worth talking to unless they are hogtied, at my feet, squirming and begging for mercy ... and I extrapolated that into thinking, "well, I could be more approachable if I was a woman?" Maybe I'd hate these urges and desires to dominate and conquer women through bondage by BEING a woman.Ever since I was a child, I've always felt guilt about this desire and I thought by taking estrogen, being called she/her, etc. I could erase this guilt if I embrace this other "person." But I'm not her. And after I realized that, the guilt went away. However, after learning more about transgender women, I concluded that submissive transgender women are just better than submissive cis women. So, I can only date subby trans women in a bondage context (which is not hard to find desu) however as a dominant cis male, how can I explain to the trans women I date that I once identified as transgender without them 1) ruthless mocking me and not taking me seriously as a man 2) not taking me seriously as a dom 3) not start thinking I'm some degen repper.I want a trans woman to feel utterly dominated and conquered and she can't thinking that the man tying her up into a pretzel is a repper, or feminine, or weak ... is this a toxic thought, I just want my wife to feel thoroughly dominated, conquered and helpless when I give her pleasure?
>>43886570Top tip: you dont need to share every detail of your sordid past with bottoms
>>43886585Maybe for a fuck, ofc. I don't trauma-dump to FetLife hook-ups.But for a long-lasting relationship, I can't keep this a secret.
>>43886604You could learn to forget and move on. Are you still going to think it's important to talk about decades from now when you are an old man? Probably not right?
>>43886570cant you explain it the same way you just did in this post?
>>43886633If I start a relationship and think I want her by my death-bed, I want her to feel comfortable with every single part of me - I'd rather chase a gem like that because if they aren't repulsed or disgusted by not a single part of my 100%, that is greatest love a human can ever feel. I'd rather die chasing that and never having it than die "loving" someone who loves essentially a fake version of someone.
>>43886638Yes. I will. Posting because I want to know what 4tranners think if their man admitted to this - I think some might be repulsed, others might not gaf and a weird minority may kinda be into it ...
>>43886696i wouldnt mind it personally
>>43886717I appreciate it Nona.
>>43886570Can I be tied up
>>43891082I just digitally hogtied you and left you on the kitchen floor. I give you water laced with E on a puppy bowl. I eat cereal on the table as I flail around trying to lap up the water in the bowl. I watch you and chuckle to myself. I finish my cereal and crouch down beside your face-down posture. You got your hair all wet ... you stop and look up at me. I carress your neck. I lightly grab it and bend your head down to the water. You lick up the water as you are thirsty. You've been in that hogtie for 3 hours. After you licked up enough, you nod. I release you from my grip. I then give you my empty cereal bowl. "Lick it clean whore." I kick the water bowl. You clean my dishes. I watch you as I jerk it. After you lick my dish cleanly and bend over and whisper in your ear, "Good girl." I untie you and as you rub your redden wrists and ankles, I slowly press you up against the fridge and make-out with you and kiss you up down from your neck to your lips and twist your pathetic baby nipples. I stick my thumb down your mouth so that your little moan is not too loud. And then we stop for a second as I hold you close to me with your back shivering because its still on that close ass refridgerator. I look into your eyes and I just carress your back a back so you're not too chilly, I carress my fingertips against your neck and your cheek and we hold each other for a minute looking at each other in the eyes ... and I know I'd never have a woman look me back in the eyes wanting this because no eyes from a woman's mind ever wants to be victimized so thoroughly by a man like me. I imagine for a second someone, something being happy being seen me, me being their everything and I just think that person is making a mistake, that they're something fucked up in their mind for me to be their endgame. But I don't care. Because I'm a sick fuck worming its way just for me to get off. This is who I am. Yes you can be tied up.
>>43886570i only put up with men cause they're more likely to have dominant urges but if i knew you had the choice to become a transbian in front of you and gave it up to stay as a hairy man i'd ghost you out of sheer principle
>>43892760>Muh fetish>Trans is a choiceFunny how those micro aggressions slip out. Either way. Hairy transbians are hot
>>43892760One of the things that made me realize I'm not trans was how so many trans people talk about the horrors of growing old as a male and how being a hairy man is so dysphoric and off-putting. Yes, I don't want to be a wrinkly old man (who would?) but I never felt off-put being a "hair moid." Ofc if you a woman, that shit gonna be dysphoric but I'm not. I didn't give up anything. I don't feel dysphoric in the slightest over being le hairy moid.>>43892804>Hairy transbians are hotWhy not hairy straight trans women?
>>43892804what are you even talking about? obviously this is a thread about fetishes and obviously repping is a choice2bh i don't mind a bit of pit hair or pubic hair but estrogenised hair has a very different texture. and you still have to shave everywhere else. come on
>>43892854>Hairy straight trans womenMyths
>>43886570I'd kill myself if my bf ever had tranny desires
>>43893004case in point. Exactly. This is what I'm saying! But, its very funny how instead of not being hurt by the variance of the human mind in being very complex and diverse, we get so hurt over thoughts, ideas and desires of other people because when you realize that a person is more complex than whatever vision they have of you, it breaks your projection of them. And sometimes, having a bf that never had "tranny thoughts" hurts someone. I get it, but at the same time, I find this conundrum really funny from an existential point of view. Then what is a self-aware person supposed to do? Not question anything, not do anything at fear that it may hurt other people at whichever direction their minds takes them? Every thought, conceptualization and form of identity comes with a risk apparently and humans, despite being infinitely filled with complexity and nuance and malleable human beings, see each other in a finite lens and see each other in strict contexts instead of fluidly. I hate this reality of compounding ourselves to digestible textures for other people to consume me better, for people to understand me better.I need to jack off to forget how I feel an existential hole in my heart for no matter how much I lust for companionship of my fucked up desires, this seems to be a never-ended curse as another person's attachment to me will be contingent on if the exposure of my deeper complexities will "break them." And given how strange complexity there is in my soul, I am doomed to forever be alone and to never acutely and 100% satisfy my need to be loved 100%. No-one will ever want to intimately hold me knowing the 100% of me.I wish all the normies who never experience this acute loneliness get genocided, murdered and tortured till eternity ceases by the explosion of the sun. Nona, if my gf kills herself, is it my fault for being such a beautiful complex faggot?
>>43886570Is this bitch anglefrauding?
>>43886633i feel like most trans women would accept that you consider yourself to be male in personality due to your dominant nature, and that you like being the man in sex, relationships, and your everday life. after all most trans women consider their submissive nature to be feminine. the both of you are wrong, of course, but its not a difficult assertion to make.its possible to see these things as cope without thinking that makes you feminine and weak. you are objectively neither of those things, while its true that trans women suffer more than you as someone who enjoys being a man (do you?), withstanding greater suffering doesn't make someone stronger. that's just protestantism.you should abandon the concepts of "strong" and "weak" when they do not serve you. there are contexts in which they do, but to say someone or something is *fundamentally* one thing or the other is incorrect.>>43886685you can let go and leave it as an unimportant part of your past that doesn't matter to you (except as an experience that affirmed your *desire* to be male). i know desisters like this, afaik they have no trouble with getting trans women.
>>43886570OP image is hawt
>>43893469Its Lex Walton. Actress, singer-songwriter and visual artist. >>43893313Yes she is, kinda. Yes, she's angle-frauding but she is stunning in person even if online videos prove otherwise.
>>43886604Just tell them. My ex told me and it didn't change my opinion of him at all. Questioning yourself is totally normal.
