give me your letters your life story and a vent post and I’ll prescribe a blue person which describes your essence
>>43893229Off-trip for this but my typing will probably be a dead giveaway.I'm MtF, currently in uni and i feel like I'm only now learning to live while everyone around me has already been having much richer and fuller lives than me for years. My transition (at the moment) isn't really a big part of my life, I'm a fairly genetically blessed young-shit so my full boy mode is just androgynous at this point since I've been on E for a few years atp. So now i'm just reaping the rewards of actually being confident enough to even be in public, OP says to make a vent post but at this moment i can't really say I'm feeling particularly pressed about anything.My life has been nothing but fear of the judgement of others, but now that I'm In uni I can finally experience the beatuy and joy of being a person free to make friends and experience relationships. I've been cheated on and wronged, made enemies and became rivals with a few classmates, all within the span of a year, and although these are all typically 'negative' feelings, I can't help but look back on them with a certain giddiness as I never really thought I would have an opportunity in my life to experience such social-sensation.For what little effort I have put into my transition, It has bettered my life by an immersurable amount, and I can't put into words the gratitude I hold for the people in my life, and even on this board, that put me on the path to transition and access hormones when I did.This place really isn't all that bad when you actually look for the good in the people.Bless my tranny life.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GwSSrwryxN0
>>43893395This is really lovely anon. I’m happy to know how you have come into your own. Many people on this board ( me included) yearn for what you have but I don’t think they would be happy if they passed as you do. It’s because you have gratitude and love for those around you and the opportunity you’ve been given in this life. I think we need more hope posting WGMI around here so I give you supernova star blue woman. I like how she seems confidant and true to her self and hold the beauty of the world close to her like you. This edition has the beginning of genesis in the back round. I would have preferred it to be in Hebrew because I think your story is one of Old hope rather than new hope. But this will do. It’s beautiful the world you in anon stay blue
>>43893229I started hrt at 16 I thought I was going to be an hrt femboy, but someone called me she on a discord and my egg cracked. I came out and my mom disowned me. she called the cops and tried to get my hrt taken away. I havent spoken to her since (im 26 now)I got a bf a few months later but he was 7 years older than me and that relationship really messed with me. I still can't enjoy sex.I was diagnosed with autism around this time and it really kinda made everything fall into place. I had never been good at making friends and had behaverial issues as a kid, but I always got straight As so my parents never really thought anything was wrong. even when I was in middle school they would talk to other parents to organize play dates for me. Nobody ever thought to tell ME that I was different. I always thought I was just unlikeable until my diagnosis (now I know im unlikeable but it's because im bitter and mean). I started cutting and abusing dxm around this time. I only did it for a year, but my thighs are still deeply marked with ~50 cuts through the epidermis. they put me on psych meds but it only made things worse. I finally quit cold turkey when I was 20. I started girlmoding at school and got vfs when I was 18 but the surgery didnt work and I was such a cringey baby trans that I went back to boymoding almost immediately and ive been boymoding the past 8 years. I got ffs and srs.COVID was really good for me since I could go to online school and never interact with anybody. My social skills are really bad for someone my age. I just shut down in any social situation and become a "wallflower." AVPD is severe. I do better in discord etc.I was fired from my last two jobs becuase someone didnt like me. I don't know how to fix this. I still have bad dysphoria. im hoping a second round of ffs, rib surgery, and FemLar will fix me. I feel like I was never made complete, I am missing a lot of the things that make people people. in a burnout phase rn too
>>43893471by the way what are blue girls and what does each one mean?
>>43893556We have kind of a very unsure origin story nona maybe In a different world. I think you’re really brave for standing up to your mom and protecting your future it’s good to value things like that. I gave up my meds to easily and so I rep to my family which is not very cool. I feel as if your strong though it takes a certain amount of self love and neuroticism to survive what you have in a way I’m conflicted on what to give you. I think soldier would be appropriate but I like how exposed my blue person holding her self is. It’s difficult to be human it’s difficult to have autism and to be trans even if it’s a meme sort of. I really see this blue person for you she means a lot to me I always self id with her when I feel anxsty and that I can rep anymore. Still you have made it through so much stay blue nona!>>43893568>by the way what are blue girls and what does each one mean?Blue is my favorite color and I kind of am a confusedfag so I set my Home Screen to a blue person depending on my emotions. A friend of mine makes them for me I think it she kind of gets me really bad and channels that into the drawing. I’m very appreciative of the Blue people i have I love them all so dearly.
>>43893658>I think soldier would be appropriatethats actually kinda funny because I spent 2 years trying to join the military and get a waiver for my issues. MEPS still shot me down tho. would've been a waste of time tho just for trump to fire me lol, but I ended up working in the security industry so. but also lately i've been hugging myself in the fetal position for 1-2 hours a day while listening to music so both work. its nice ur friend draws u art ive never had friends not trying to like make u feel sorry I just don't know what its like. they seem high production qualityu should really get back on hrt if ur not. you can manmode, boymode, hrtrep, whatever. but the thoughts arent going away so u might as well stop more t damage from occurring. also I think e makes u happier
