>be me>suicidal boymoder>get into the habit of jerking off when im sad>my suicidal thoughts start getting horny>all my horny thoughts start involving deathlater>be me>visiting a rural friend for a few days>he owns guns>ask if i can shoot them>maybe>he shows me out back>he has like a little backyard shooting range>he goes over safety stuff like 20 times>he shows me an sks and a shitty .22 rifle even though i asked to see the shotgun>the whole time thinking about him shooting me or taking the gun and shooting myself>genuinely shaking watching him shoot>ask if i can try>he says he will let me shoot the sks>he puts it in my hands>feel like im about to blow my brains out>the urge is so strong i feel like im genuinely forcing my arms to stay still while someone is trying to move them against my will>he's hovering over me>feel myself leaking>turn off the safety>hands actually shaking>he says something >try to respond >my voice does the horniest fucking voice crack>he pretends not to notice>he is way too close to me>my body feels like its burning>i genuinely think im about blow my brains out and say i'll have to try it tomorrow>he smiles at me and says its okay>we go back inside>i go to the bathroom>my face is red and my underwear are wet>lie down on the floor for like 10 minuteslater>while we are cooking dinner together we start talking about sex>he tells me some of his fetishes>he's into piss which is funny>"do you have a gunplay fetish, nona?">tfw>change the topic flawlesslyi slept on his couch. it took me a long time to get to sleep. i kept thinking about him shooting me.i posted this to /hornygen/ but then more stuff happened, so i will continue.WARNING: he asked me not to write about some things>next day>we are going to go on a hike>eat breakfast, watch a movie together, start making some stuff for lunch together(1/2)
>not really thinking about the stuff from yesterday>he asks me if i want to try shooting again before we leave>really thinking about the stuff from yesterday>tell him that i'd rather do it after we get back>get in the car, sitting in the passenger seat>don't put my hand on his thigh>thinking about sucking his dick on the trail>thinking about him stabbing me and leaving me to bleed out>thinking about him pushing me over the ledge at the summit>thinking about him kicking me until he breaks my ribs and then leaving me off the side of the trail to die of exposure>left my phone back at the house on purpose>everyone who would notice my absence thinks i am suicidal>get to start of the trail>blah blah blah we walk the trail it's really beautiful and we're talking the whole time>he is fitter and more experienced than me, so he has to slow down a bit for me>start getting near the summit>there's sort of a split off path>he says that if we go down the way that doesn't lead to the summit there's a little bench and rest area with a really beautiful view>talking about guns and shooting>ask why he got into shooting>most of the guns he got from his grandfather>he found it fun and liked them>"do you have a gunplay fetish, nona?">"you avoided the question when i asked yesterday">...>say i mean i guess sort of i guess>he says he kind of gets it>he says he has imagined putting a gun to someones head while they suck his dick>COMPOSURE [Trivial: Failure]>would->REACTION SPEED [Trivial: Failure]>would you let me suck your dick>he exhales like he is amused and then looks at me and smirks>he puts his hand on my head and ruffles my hair without saying anything for 10 seconds>"sure">...>we get to the bench>[removed]>back at the start of the trail>really exhausted, looking forward to going home>get in the car, sitting in the passenger seat>put my hand on his thigh :)when we got back home we didn't do anything involving guns. and i am still a virgin. 2/2
way way WAY too fucking long, give me the short version not your life story
Oh, it's you again. Go fuck him already, I'm a bit jealous, so don't fumble it
fuck, i forgot my flag >>43894098sorry. here you go:>be me>snuff kink>want to die>friend has guns>get really horny watching him shoot>try shooting but pussy out at the last moment>later he asks if i have a gunplay kink>change the topic>later we go on a hike>really horny for him now>he asks me if i have a gunplay kink again>say yes this time>he says he kind of does>ask if i can suck his dick>suck his dick>life is goodit looks really boring and uninteresting now.>>43894110i have. it was really good. he is really nice. he is more fucked up than me, which i didn't expect.
sigh…giwtwm
>>43894160there we go. nice job nona, give it time to see if he regrets it, if he asks you out again say yes cuz he def wants to fuck
>>43894086>[removed]fuck you nona
>>43894237i hope this can be you sometime, too.>>43894255thank you. we have fucked already. i'm going to stay with him an extra day from what we planned, but i'm not sure i'll be able to see him for a while after i leave.>>43894408he asked me not to write about any of the sex we had in any detail. sorry. i sucked his dick and then asked him to stab me and choke me, and he said no. he punched me in the belly a bunch and then we ate lunch and walked the rest of the trail.the trail was absolutely beautiful, and the walk was very pleasant.
>>43894523>he punched me in the belly a bunchguh i am so fucking jealous. happy for you.
>>43894523my greatest dream in life is literally this </3 one day twbm
That's so unbelievably cringe lmao that guy is so nice for not just straight up laughing at you and telling everyone how much of a subhuman insectoid faggot you are jfc
>>43894529thank you nona. it was really nice, but it made eating and the rest of the walk kind of difficult>>43894699i believe in you!>>43894743i don't know which part of this you are calling cringe but he said basically the same thing to me himself after we got back on the trail. he said he was holding back laughter when he was patting my head. and he did sort of say i was subhuman. i am very grateful to him for being so nice to me.
>>43894160You're so lucky!! I've been awake for 5 minutes and I'm already jealous of someone Xp
>>43894160>he is more fucked up than me, which i didn't expect.what exactly does that entail
>>43894068GIWTWM
>>43894068>>43894086happy for u, nona
>>43894068fake and gay no cis man acts that way toward trannies>>43894743>straight up laughing at you and telling everyone how much of a subhuman insectoid faggot you arecanonical ending
>>43894098>The wild zoomer remains incapable of reading anything longer than a few sentencesAbsolutely fucking grim state of affairs in this deeply unserious world we live in.
>>43895815i do feel pretty lucky... i literally just woke up next to him. i am sorry i made you jealous.>>43896224i want to elaborate but he told me not to say any more, sorry nona.>>43896673thank you>>43896677if it makes you feel better he is 5'5 and covered in self harm scars so he is an honorary pooner>>43896696i did make it way longer than necessary, i think they had a point.he says hi to everyone
>>43896751has he considered putting a pistol up against your neck where you can feel your pulse against the cold metal barrel? his finger circling the trigger whilst he inches closer and closer to you and whispers something inaudible into your ear? his hand laid gently on your breast and his warm breath against your neck as he slowly traces your supple curves with his fingers?
>>43896751You don't have to apologize, lmao. I'm just lonely and need roughed up. Tell him I said hi, too :p
>>43896751I think it's fine. The details made it more delicious to read. I also just enjoy pissing off zoomers who have zero attention span. Say Hi to him from me. :3c
>>43894068cute and hot. be safe nona! but like mayb only a little
>>43896751>i want to elaborate but he told me not to say any more, sorry nonai'll just assume that he's a necrophile
Im sorry but he sounds like fucking loser and a repperthen again you also sound like in urgent need of a psych evaluation as well, so
>>43894098go fucking ask chat gpt to summarize or go back to vr porn sucka
>>43896785/~\ he has, in fact, considered this...>>43896940i'll make sure to stay dangerous just for you nona!>>43897122fair enough. probably not even wrong>>43897155we are both losers. but i really don't think he is a repper. what makes you think he is a repper?
>>43896830i hope you find someone for you.>>43896863i wish he'd let me talk about some of the other stuff.he thought it was cute you both used emoticon after saying hi.>>43896224>>43897122i won't be say any more but think like, "crushes live rats to get off" level>>43897470it was very fun. he has kept all the guns locked in safes since i told him the truth when we were on the trail. he has honestly been kind of annoying about it.
>>43897637What other stuff? I'd wager that, since you talked about this stuff already, you're probably good to go to talk about anything.
>>43897876he specifically told me not to talk about any of the sex we had in any detail, or any of the specifics of his life or anything specific to him. i don't think he really understands 4chan.
>>43897637Well, I hope you make a good rat for him, lmao
>>43894068if this is CIA propaganda to turn me into a killer, it's definetly working
>>43897920Aaah, you meant talking to us about it. I mean, that's your call. It's not like anyone here will know who and where you are, just like he won't know if you share it.
why is this so hotare you giving me a gun fetish
>>43897966hii please blow my brains out while you stare into my eyes lovingly
>>43897960he doesn't crush live rats, just to be clear. it's just like. at that level. he has told me i'm being very good for him. today has been, difficult, he made us do some stuff that was very hard. it was challenging. i didn't expect it. my body is very sore>>43897966just stay out of jail!>>43898113i think he would know, he's probably going to check this thread to make sure i've been good.>>43899038sorry nona... i think death is terrifying and fear is very close to arousal. and guns are like a stitch in the fabric of the world where the distance between life and death suddenly narrows all around them.>>43900567i hope you find your murderer!
>>43901352>probably going to check this thread to make sure i've been goodYou have the perfect oppurtunity to be a brat and get punsihed, girly! Was what you did earlier so hard that you don't want some more?
>>43901523i really, do not, want to know what he would do to punish me. he wants me to be good for him so i will be good for him.i don't really want to do more of what we did earlier. it really hurt. he said we might do something that's easier later, because i was so good. we're watching a movie together now! we just paused it for him to make some popcorn. he has been cuddling me while we watch, it's very nice.
>>43901669Is it urethra play
>>43894068how tall are you
>>43901669Cute! Okay, didn't mean to push boundaries, just wanted to put ideas in your head, but it sounds like they were bad ideas, lmao. Just look forward to whatever reward he has planned, then
>>43901691we did a lot of different things. i really really really didn't like that one.>>43901709i'm 5'7... he doesn't like that i'm taller than him.>>43901763it's okay. i appreciate it. i am looking forward to it but i am really tired. watching the movie has been super nice. he has been patting my head and cuddling me
bump for gunplay
>>43902169i don't want to leave him... he fucked me and hurt me and i cut myself and it was the best i have ever felt in my life and i wish that he could kill me and i think he almost did and he is making me breakfast and he is so so beautiful and i wish that he could kill me
>>43905473Very jealous. I desperately want someone that I would let kill me
kinda feels like im reading true crime.
