like, i showed little feminine behaviors as a child, am very malebrained today (have autism, severe "boy adhd" as a friend put it, drink like I have 2 livers, my room is a fucking mess all the time) and still i ended up with a wierd psychiatric disorder that makes me have to go thru a clavicular style looksmaxxing thingy to be happy in my skingod i really hope this is me having ocd or something that'd be so much easier to deal with... but i get a bit too much euphoria when i take my e shot i feel...
its so weird. sure there were some signs as a kid but why did it take so long for the dysphoria to surface and become unbearable? it feels like i have to be faking it sometimes
>>43894969for me i was always uncomfortable but i couldnt pin it on anything because I wasnt aware? like i thought i might be intersex as a kid but then i learnt what gay was and assumed i was just gay for years and years as it ticked most of the boxes.
>>43894593i dont have gd, im just making it up and i cant admit to myself i dont have it because ive been doing it for years and its become part of a meta identity where i think if i become a trans woman ill finally belong and be happy. but the truth is its not natural for me and im forcing it
