>be me, 18>conservative dad and lib mom, now divorced>dad is a conspiracy theorist and has had my life planned out from the start>authoritarian, is obsessed with being in control>"when you're 40 fucking years old, you're still gonna report to me because I'm your father!">yeahsure.jpeg>mom is Cafeteria Christian, dad believes in bullshit like the Firmament >dad is bigoted in almost every way, hates jews>mother is at the very least not homophobic but has zero knowledge of anything queer>dads side of family is lower middle class and traditional>moms side is middle class and hardcore christians>mom recently had me start therapy and hooked me up with a "male-centered therapist">pretty good ig but he keeps talking about me coming into my own as a young man and choosing the right women>mfw when my last(first) relationship was with an enby who would insist on calling me babygirl and shit and would get mad when I would call myself a guy >not exactly the paragon of masculinity>ffw to today>dad calls me into his man cave or whatever to talk about the divorce and how women are dumb and have the emotional maturity of children, warns me about women who think like men>Realize he might genuinely kill me if I come out to himIm fucked arent I? He doesnt want me to go away to college either
>>43898815get into college at all costs
>dont know where things went wrong>every guy in my family is either average height or 6ft+>dad is 6'1 220 pds>I ended up being 5'4 120 pds with a soft face and fag vibes>ex clocked me as being in the closet within a week of us talking>unfortunately bisexual to top it all of, was an extremely sensitive child>genuine runt of the littersomething strange happened in the womb
Escape, OP. Sounds like a shit situation, but just make a plan, save some money, and get somewhere else
>>43898863yeah my mom is pushing for me to go away to college so I think ill be ok
bump
>>43898815any extended family you can stay with if not mom?
>>43898815stay with mom yeag
>>43898815if you lied and youre not 18 you could bait him into some shit and call cps