Repper-chaser (not to be confused with repchaser) edition>QOTT: Do repper-chasers exist? Have you ever encountered one?old: >>43876652
This is fucking CAT AIDS, when does it stop? It cant just keep going on like this forever?
>>43904389>It cant just keep going on like this forever?oh but it can
>>43904369>QOTT: Do repper-chasers exist? Have you ever encountered one?yup, was a tranny from this board who had a kink for force fem, they wanted to dress me up like a sissy and do stupid BDSM shit.
>>43904369can short, bald(ing), obese defomed anon be allowed to have autogynephelia or date an autogynepheliac?
im just an incel im not trans, i have these thoughts because im ugly and i want to escape it. im a loser.
Why not just be effeminately gay without taking cross sex hormones, instead of pretending to be a woman?
>>43904546>Why not just be effeminately gayI'm already this and its not working. And its not pretending to be a woman my subconscious brain is female i think and its telling me my body is wrong.
>>43904389no. one day you will die.
>>43904369>>43904440There was also that guy from the other day. Really handsome 7/10 guy. Sharp jawline, nice well-kempt short hair, stocky well-built muscly body. Looks like he ran a gym.>I like fucking trannies>I get aroused by the thought of becoming one but I would never ever ever ever actually do it.>But theoretically would I pass if I did?Cute kigger by the way, anybody /kcs/ come by here?
If you're already a loser why repress? I get it if you're a millionaire businessman or married with kids but really 21 year olds with no life repressing...???
>>43904790im hrtrepping... not everyone is as lucky as you
>>43904571not working how?>my body is wrong.that's internalized homophobiaits a voice saying "you must have a female body to like men"
never troon
>>43904879need
>>43904864>that's internalized homophobiaits a physical feeling. Id rather be a gay guy, but I feel like i need female anatomy to be comfortable in my skin.>>43904879would fuck, as a woman.
>>43904879Is that you, anon? If so, well done.
>>43904905ye. i post in hornygen and chasergen>>43904903come fuck me
>>43904903you can often somaticize emotionsyour skin is corrupted by the beliefs of others who don't approve of you being gay neurotransmitters cause physical sensations
>>43904919>come fuck meCountry?
>>43904937france
>>43904919Send ab routines pls, boss
>>43904923umm well.. you have an interesting theory but i respectfully think you're wrong. I dont think repressing transgenderism is just internalised homophobia sorry. :/
>>43904944i do nothing for abs, not training upper body at all. i go bouldering few times in a month, that's allhttps://litter.catbox.moe/nk3zdv.jpg
>>43904943Workable. I hate Parisians tho. You're not Parisian right?
>>43904954Holy shit bro i'm drooling
>>43904956I live close to Paris because that's all the jobs are but I'm not a parisian, I hate them too. my disc is say_you_love_me if u wanna chat
>>43904954I gotta start bouldering. Everybody that boulders has this physique. How about diet?
>>43904833I'm hrtrepping too..
>>43904981low carb diet, no starchy food. But I've always looked like this since I'm 14
>>43904971>if u wanna chatI do but desu you're too good looking and frankly I'm just too anxious and intimidated to continue.
>>43905004okay, I'm a fucking retard anyways. Good luck
>>43904996Damn bro lucky genes I guess. Go use them as god intended, king.
Me and my gf on the way to her friends birthday party.
>>43905008aww.. good luck too tho you will find a hottie i'm sure.
>>43904440Mine was like that too, I honestly can't imagine someone chasing reppers for any other reason than to get off to ugly old forcefem sissies
>>43904986aw.,sorry <3 you deserve better
>>43904543regular incels don't think like that ngl transmaxers are unironically valid
It's weird that some days I don't even care about transition and the whole issue feels alien to me.Then it comes back.
My Mum came and saw my new apartment and asked why I hadn't put my anime figures up and asked if I wanted help unpacking them.
Ive spent like 10 hours this weekend adding and removing various women's clothes from online shopping baskets. I feel like I'm going mad.
What a cursed existence
>>43904833>>43904986GET THE FUCK OUT
>>43904790my social safety net is extremely fragile and I have no faith at all that the "community" can step up for me when I have always felt unwelcome around other troons
>>43905983NO i wont because theres a difference between ""hrtrepping"" twinkhons to me whos never malefailed. in what am i different to you in the eyes of others
>>43904543literally me. I don't have dysphoria, I just hate everything about my appearance and being a man. Male socialization is fucking awful too and I wish I didn't have to deal with that either
>>43906122You take estrogen.
>>43906141and i dont pass! to anyone!!! nobody thinks im not a cis man
>HRTRepping[Generic picture of a cat with the caption "You are not one of us"
>>43906166how not,..
>>43906175if you take hrt you are not repressing. repressors dont take hrt. we dont take hrt and we never will until we transition but then we're not repressors anymore. ergo therefore QED you are not a repressor but a fakepressor scum
>>43904790I don't even let people know I'm a faggot let alone a tranny faggot. Because if I'm a loser I don't want to be a tranny faggot loser. Also it wouldn't make me feminine nor a woman so its all pointless. Basically the entire world is a fuck.
>>43906132yeah i hate the way men are socialized and they all act in that way so i cant fit in among men, only nerdy incel men and its like i want to be attractive so my only choice is to troon out.
>>43906189im a repper im not listening tothat you can come hrtrep with me :)
>>43906192trooning out won't make us attractive, that's why we rep
>>43906220don't you guys have the manmoder thread for that
>>43906303im an hrtrepper i guess manmoder is true too but everybodys there is a boymoder, inflation nowadays
>>43905053We all do <3 but until I can get real security for myself that's impossibleI decided to stop self pitying and try small improvements though.
>>43906303Not him but I dont think theres a manmoder thread right now, and usually those discussions are just as if not more self pity inducing than these
>>43906391mmg is a lot more focused on certain people and like everyone knows everyone like recurring characters, i dont like it
>>43906397ur not a repper so pipe down. reppers are speaking.
>>43906697im shutting up listening and learning, speak
>>43904369>has to use his back to princess carryembarrassing
>>43904369take your HRT, retards
>>43907463it's in the sopping cart but i'm not entirely convinced
>>43907463MAKE ME! (please)
>>43907463i hate you i hate you i hate you
I had like £200 worth of clothes in my basket from h&m, I managed to delete my basket and just buy a cheap sports bra from ebay to satisfy the urge hopefully. If I'm gonna look like a stupid retard anyway there is no point me spending £200.
>>43904790The coping mechanisms I've used to rep and avoid pain are also what have made me a completely dysfunctional person. I'm a coward and wouldn't be able to deal with the hurdles of transitioning. Also I can't put my parents through that, they already have a loser neet son, imagine how awful it would be if that son then started trooning out.
>>43907463never troon
>turning 30 soon >spent almost all of my 20s sitting in my room researching trans topics, scientific journals and rabbitholes to see if I was "really" trans or AGP >ended up running in circles with no questions answered, still in the same spot I was when I was 20Well. That was a fucking waste. Impulse troon as a teen, or immediately put a lock on all this garbage and throw away the key. That's what I have to say.
>>43904369probably because they get off at our misery
>>43908079C'mon lass. You must know you're trans after a couple years of that? Like I know I'm trans i'm just refusing to act on it.
>>43907463how dare you come to me now when i am this
>>43908620I didn't knownobody came to tell me, either
>>43904369I should start repper-repchasing reppers or femreppers
>>43908639this movie is so good (shameful characters are such gems)
>>43908639it's too late for meit's over
man i really need to stop drinking>>43907463no <3>>43904954waow
>>43908181Strangely I'm actually more confident I'm cis than I was a couple years ago. I really should leave this board but I'm a huge retard with an autistic fixation I guess
>>43910222nta but i kinda relate, except i stuck on hrt. so in the end i got the best of both worlds: cuter looks but also more confidence in just being a feminine dude.except nowadays that's booed on the board. oh welp
maybe i will cry again
every day feels like i'm dying and all i know how to do is panic and complain
>>43907463nobody likes me even when I pass as a troon online
>>43907463why? if i troon out i'd lose my friends & family. i wouldnt pass nor be happy
>>43904833>>43904986>>43906220>hrtrepperhttps://www.youtube.com/shorts/lvTQHZev_QY
I'll never be a girl. I'll never be what I want. I'll never be happy.
>>43912605made me laugh, but im not that
>>43910086not drinking is overrated, I need to start doing it more regularly again
i want to kms but my honor requires I do picrel first but thats too scary so im stuck here
i go full schizo and unleash my hatred towards humanity when i drink so i try not to>>43914186i mean it's pretty easy to make a bomb vest if you don't really care if you die in the process
>>43914515no way that sounds painful
>>43904954wtf so you're just naturally that muscular and ripped? blessed genes
I can't even bait for pity properly
>>43914186CEO hate is mega reddit.
>>43915096one of the few things they get right
>>43915165sure it is anon. would you like to read a book or look at a graph to form a real political/economic opinion?
>>43904369hi, so i have rogd i think.now i have a bunch of tranny friendsive tried to keep away from them cus their sheer existance, seeing what could have been, seing them happy makes it way harder to dissociatebut theyre still my friends, i cant just cut em outwhat do i do
>>43915307>read a bookalready have, but you probably wouldn't like it
>>43915463rogd is real gd. it doesn't go away
repping makes me wanna kmshonning out would make me wanna kmsI guess the first option means I don't have to have actually do anything so that's the winner, I suppose
>>43904369what is the correlation between autism and gender dysphoria?
>>43916041Autism makes you dysphoric because the autism particles in your brain build up over time until you freak out and become AGP(or AAP). Trust me, I didn't make this up
>>43916041Autism gives you greater spiritual awareness by weakening the barrier between this world and the supernatural, allowing the succubus to infect your mind with the tranny curse.
>>43915096way to miss the point, which isn't killing any CEO just because they're a CEO, but rather CERTAIN CEOs of SPECIFIC companies to (ideally) make the world a better place
>>43915096So true my brother! Dengism has prevailed!!!
>>43916041Being even a little autistic as a man makes you a social pariah no matter how attractive you are. Meanwhile in the dating marking signs of autism in females is rewarded
>>43916201>>43916164both valid anwsers
How can I as a big broad shouldered American man look like this??
If I quit drinking for an appreciable amount of time, do you think I'd be more or less likely to finally troon out?
>>43916726if you tried pushing #notAllbillionaires I wonder how fast plebbit would ban you.
>>43918189Ymmv, drinking keeps me in a constant haze of inaction and coping.
>>43918232probably pretty quickly either way, because threatening violence against anyone is against their rules, let alone specific CEOs (and let alone all of them)
>>43918189i would guess more>>43918289>>43913804yea i feel like i just waste so much of my own time drinking. tell myself i'll drink a normal amount and then drink all of what i buy instead, then spend the next day hungover in bed. wastes most of a weekendpart of me wants to grab some edibles to sate the desire to get obliterated without it feeling as residually bad
my doc said I don't get hrt because I don't want my cock cut off. It's scary. Do I not count as trans if I don't want to get a terrifying surgery? I can't figure out if I'm not trans, repressing or if I should DIY. I just want to feel okay about myself. This can't continue.
>>43918481>tell myself i'll drink a normal amount and then drink all of what i buyI know that feel, I haven't been drinking as much lately but last time I had a binge I went through 2 bottles of vodka in 3 days despite telling myself I'd take it easy. Edibles are nice too, but they don't scratch that same itch that alcohol does.
>>43918596do DIY. at least you'll get some answers.
>>43918614part of the problem is when i'm out with people i can drink normally, so i know it can be a pleasant experience and then choose not to for some reason>they don't scratch that same itch that alcohol doesfair, i've just never really had success being totally sober and prefer how i act stoned to drunk
>>43918596>my doc saidDoctors aren't always right and if they're not a specialist especially in trans stuff they're probably wrong.
I just wanna stop being so fucking sad all the time I could have started the day I was 18 and I did and I let my family take my fucking estrogen like a retard and now I feel too stuck and too lazy and scared to do anything I hate repping but I don’t know what the alternative is>T.probably a cism
should I just start wearing womens clothes at home. U think it helps or no?
>>43918289>>43918481Drinking definitely keeps me in a haze, and I definitely tell myself I'll drink a normal amount "this time."I wish I could do edibles. It does seem like it would be better for my body, but it never feels right.I guess I figured I'd either feel better about myself and my chances of trooning well, or I'd feel better about myself and stop obsessing over trooning. When I put it that way, I think the odds would go up.Of course, the worst would be if I just went a drunken, unhappy coward to a sober, unhappy coward...
>>43918614Usually I drink alone but if I do drink with people I can moderate myself fairly well, it's when I'm alone with my thoughts that I get impulsive and self destructive.>>43918596>trusting doctorsanon I...
>>43918757Meant to respond to >>43918664I'm stupid
So far my new therapist is amazing
>>43904369Total kigger death
>>43918736Its been working for me pretty well, but I can pull it off>>43918746For me lately it seems to make it worse
I opened up my therapy with writing some shit in the email about gender issues and now since I got a direct question about it they know about my faggot thoughts and now something that I've never told anyone, someone else knows. kms
>>43919755Yeah telling other people even in confidence puts can cause unsealable cracks
>>43920867ever since I talked to a therapist about being trans I've been crying almost every day about wasting so much time and missing my chance
>>43918929choose love
where does an agp repper get an aap femrepper boyfriend
I hate trannies lol
>>43921278I hate reppers even more
>>43922087reppers are the worst
>>43922111reppers should be killed
>>43921270That's probably something we'd all like to know...
>>43922119I agree
>>43922125no that sounds pretty horrible actually, I'd rather rep in solitude
minimum two weeks before i can get hrti want out of the repper pit now right now immediately now let me out
int main(){int age = 20;char over = 'y';if (over = 'y' && age >= 20){printf("HRT at %d?\n%s\n%s\n", age, complaint, whining);}else{printf("stop lying to me.\n");}return 0;}
>>43922273>age = 20;you are a baby
>>43918736I haven't worn woman's clothing since I was like 8
>>43918746>I wish I could do edibles.my tolerance is so high they do nothing. i just eat them like regular candy and maintain a buzz. i just need to get really drunk and have someone use me however they wanti just need someone to want to use me
