I am too emotionally insecure to have sex with women and too socially insecure to have relationships with men
>>43910581I'm just ugly and retarded and have had my life ruined to make sure I don't pass on those genes but you have things you can work on about yourself. Count your blessings.
Same. Dysphoria has cucked me so hard.
>>43910628blechahahhahchchchh maybe one day I'll be less resentful of the world but right now that looks like an extremely long process and I'm almost 30. I wish there was a perfect spot that I could still a hole into my brain so I can feel comfortable opening up and being intimate with the people that I love
>>43910647I feel like my insecurities created my dysphoria. Lack of emotional support from my parents made me a self hating masochist with 0 connection to feeling sexual or romantic with other people, so I made up for it by internalizing all those feelings and making myself into a pathetic bitter mess of a person
>>43910878Yeah as much as i hate to admit it that prolly is why im “dysphoric” to cope. That’s also why i havent transitioned prolly im just so lost as a person ngl
>>43910900I am just as lost. But I did transition for 2 years and constantly fight myself on weather i want to go back on it or not. Hard to know if I'm not doing it because I'm self hating, or if I did it in the first place because I'm self hating. Like whats even the right path
>>43910913Well do you socially enjoy being perceived as female and feeling female? (Guessing you were/are mtf).
>>43910913I've never felt that way myself and it's tough to not be invalidating when the classic everyone doubts meme. I've never been so sure in my life about something. For you, it's tough for me to relate so all I can offer is the classic bullshit. Take it in stride or baby step across that line of content. There is no shame in detransition if that's what you want for yourself.
>>43910935Mtf yes. And I don't enjoy being assumed as anything, I feel extreme frustrated when people assign labels to me and limit me to those labels. I never socially transitioned, I just took hrt because I'm extremely envious of women and think men are awful and socially undesirable
>>43910949I just have no idea what I want for myself and I repeatedly go back and forth because my feelings seem genuine from both sides. It's like I'm free falling and just taking desperate measures to make sure I get put down gently.
>>43910959I've never been envious of gender myself but I have discovered most pretty people just want compliments from other pretty people regardless of gender. I've met tons of ogres who act like their so hard done by from being snubbed by attractive people but will turn their nose up at you if you don't match their looks standards
>>43910959My apologies.
>>43911025For what? I wasn't saying that directed at you, I was saying that those are the feelings I have when I think about whether I feel more comfortable as a boy or girl. All I know is that I don't like being confined to one thing
>>43910982Can't really relate to that either. I'm just poor and being a woman means more than how beautiful you can be or what optics you can bring. Could that be called a cope? Sure. Who doesn't act holier than thou when they are masking being an antisocial shithead.
being around men produces and distills ethereal happenis for the all to consume repeatedly without decay (usually) tho so just stop verbalizing speech towards women and imitate men and youll be fine
>>43911087I don't really understand what you mean. I feel extremely extremely resentful of women when I have to play the male role and coddle them. I only talk and act like a male towards male and act and talk like a female towards females because I'm insecure and trying to protect myself in any way that I can
>>43911114youre not a naturally producing man (men produce happenis that sates other non mens unhappenis)
>>43911114Don’t let society constrain you, be yourself
>>43911132What the hell does "natural producing men" mean lmfao>>43911134All I know how to do is make myself agreeable for other people. I don't really understand what I want for myself because Ive repressed any of my personal feelings or interest from an extremely young age. Ive been trying to fix that about myself for the last 4 years and I don't feel any closer to understanding myself
