nowadays if one is nice to me i'm hesitant to even refer to them with a name at all, i actively try to avoid doing it. because even their preferred name shouldn't be desecrated by my mouth uttering it, regardless of context.
>>43911148>tfw no man to date me as penance and i can take care of him and love him dearly
>>43911148You need to do more to actually reconcile your sins.
you will never feel fully absolved unnless you do more than just hate yourself for doing that. treat the ones who try to befriend you well and advocate politically if youre able. posting vague anonymous "i feel bad" shit on 4chan means nothing.
god itd be so nice to torture you for like a week. id probably get tired after that though and let you go. anyway i suggest trooning out so you can suffer a truly equal fate
>>43911148there was this post by patricia taxxon on tumblr b4 she left and it went something like >if you've been an abuser or a bigot>the bottom line is nobody is entitled to forgive you>but you are entitled to forgiveness from yourselfshe went on to hopepill and whatnot and talk about how guilt is immaterial and if you act like this too much you can freak victims / marginalized out potentially harming them more than you realize.anyway. just be normal, op. move on. and uhh stop using the word "trannies" pretty please i know its 4chan and this might as well be a bait thread but on the off chance you're genuine
>>43911217don't be silly, you wouldn't want that.>>43911461i understand. unfortunately i have become far too reliant on the fallback of "well, i'm neutralized now". truth is, i'm more of an outcast than most people here could imagine being.not like my opinions matter if i'm the type to walk out of a college class and drive home while sobbing, all because i was forced to work with people. >>43911477this is reasonable, and i appreciate your blunt honesty. to be clear... i, i don't even know where i'd begin. i'm just kinda checked out on politics entirely now, because it's a coordinated circus show (permanently on rails) to rile the population up for.. i don't even know. keeps the cogs turning? nothing ever happens.that's not an excuse, of course. it just seems like there's no way to rationally enter most spaces anymore.>>43911486i think it really hit hard after i realized that my fucking "waifu" probably weighs more than i do (last recorded at 109 pounds, XY male)>>43911533that is why i simply stay quiet when i can. if i am not forced to do something, i likely will not engage in it (socially).it's funny that you mentioned "trannies"... there's a point there, but i will say, some girl from here laughed at me a few months ago after i was like "may i say the f-slur"? i'm, i don't like to put myself on a pedestal, but i can blend in/adapt better than most people, even if out of fear.
>>43911148It’s okay OP. I forgive you. DESU I doubt you did anything wrong a lot of trannies are really cruel and evil people sadly. Spending time in trans communities and seeing how many trannies behave when they think they’re around others like them has blackpilled me on this so much. Also a lot have very gross or illegal sexual preferences. Hell keep doing it if you stick to pdf freaks.
>>43911595how do you know i wouldnt want that nonnyit has an appeal to me..
>>43911595Holy crap OP go bulk some. 4real get off of here and go drink some milk and eat some protein rich fatty foods.Also don’t spent time here ppl will be weird and try to abuse you or make you be a troon.
>>43911595>109 poundsi would say eat something bc you dont deserve to suffer like that but i suppose thats what youre going for lol. anyway don't punish yourself for too long nona. i mean anon. set a reminder for a year from now at most and then forgive yourself
>>43911148i have the dreams of people like you raping me in my sleep then apologizing to me profusely and i calm you down and cuddle with you and tell you its ok and i forgive you and you can stay with me if you want and i know what its like to feel guilty like that and mwah mwah mwah i love you :3 (i love other trannies more though tbf)
>>43911607Moron. Psychopaths looking for the lowest reaching fruit to take out their violent urges on because someone looked at some drawings or is into age play between consenting adults to cope with their own trauma. If you really cared you'd be helping out kids with charity work or voting pass better laws such as early sex education and puberty blockers.
>>43911595political advocacy doesnt have mean being an annoying twitter SJW or going to protests and shit. can be as simple as not laughing at your annoying chud irl's transphobic remark and voting with gnc population in mind. just engage less with chud shit in general its a good first step
>>43911595>i think it really hit hard after i realized that my fucking "waifu" probably weighs more than i do (last recorded at 109 pounds, XY male)you are ruining yourself for no reason. i swear white/cishet/etc guilt is like making yourself john 50 except theres no solution. move on. get a hobby. donate to some homeless girl idfk
i still do it and its the funniest shit evert. 1 year hrt
>>43911733the duality of (wö)man
>>43911703I’m against puberty blockers or official HRT before 18 desu. Too many cis kids would get put on it for temporary issues that come up during puberty. If a kid is actually trans enough they’ll either wait and be kinda okay I guess or DIY. It just isn’t worth the loss of cis guys though.
>>43911748Waow very based desu same, but like 4 years instead
>>43911733imagine getting doxxed by a babytrans
>>43911763jealous lateshit lelel
>>43911786Is 16 lateshit now? I thought I was midshit :.(
>>43911793yes nona, sorry but honflation has made u a lateshit now
>>43911763I'm slow. I'm an idiot. I'm a genetic dead end. And even with all that I can tell you're a fucking moron.
>>43911793early/lateshit inflation is at an all time high anything later than 15 and u might as well give up in current year
>>43911816I remember when under 17 was considered youngshit and early 20s was midshit. I think youngshit being pre puberty, midshit being mid puberty, and lateshit being fully post puberty makes the most sense though.
i copletely agree with you though i think prepuberty hrt is exceptionaly rare irl to the point where we could bump everything over just a bit desu
>>43911703someone felt called out?
>>43911613because you don't know who i am. probably for the best.in fact, my libido has essentially been destroyed... it still tenously exists, but it's kept at a very low level. i didn't even start cooming until 16, and people think it's weird how i refuse to use pornography (usually my imagination, at worst images which could be softcore). masturbation is a mindless chore, much like eating.>>43911629it'll be fine. if i cannot contribute to the world, i might as well leech off of the people in my life as little as possible. wouldn't want to hurt their ROI, and i'm serious.>>43911661yeah i was considering trooning out just after high school (am now 20)truth is, that's a luxury. i'm not saying people here don't have problems (they do, and i sincerely wish them the best), but i've been running on emergency dynamos for years. what was once a bright young mind has faded into a dull, red glow.>>43911680i can't rape. i don't want to.let me put this into simple terms to make it easier:>if the CIA handed me an AR-10 at a crowded concert and told me to have fun, i would simply walk on the stage and shoot myself with it. to set an example, and clear my debts.>>43911710fair, sorry i don't have the best perspective. used the sharty starting from 2022, it's not in my life now. just too tired. and it sucks!>>43911712have you ever heard that lovely phrase:>work sets you free?it's horrible to most people, but i interpret it as "work" being labor (as usual), and the "sets you free" as dying without guilt. maybe working to death in a steel mill. it's honorable.
>>43911934dw nonny idc if u have a low libido, and ill cook you food to eat so you wont have to worry about that chore eitheri can tell you have embers of a soul that are worth kindling
>>43911763yeah let's torture the transgender teenager just in case they're actually a poor innocent cisgender who got tricked. who cares if they're miserable and spend their youth in a dissociative haze or constantly wanting to kill themself, they could actually be cis!!!1!! let's protect the hypothetical cis version of them that could exist in the future rather than the trans version of them that exists now!!1!1!if people regret transitioning they can just detransition and worse case scenario they just have SOME of the struggles that a trans person has, ie characteristics they have to work to remove or add out of dysphoria
>>43911997the embers are there but they need to put a little effort into kindling them by themselves first instead of just wallowing in selfharm or waiting for some angel to do it for them
>>43911148how do you plan to make it up for us trannies? do you have what it takes?
>>43912094i think its possible to grow with the support of another, not everything has to be done alone
>>43911997i hope so. you are a kind soul. sorry about all of this.>>43912094at this point my life is no longer the typical "turn the tide of a shitshow with hard work" most people have. any, any attempt to fix it (even if marginally successful and/or sustained) would mostly just be, delaying things. i guess.like, well>"you want to attack without oil – good, we'll see what happens when you attempt that."uttered by someone who you may know, when his little situation was well past "falling apart". bleh>>43912111tbhdesu i'd probably pay them for being nice to me, but that's a poor idea... stuff of that nature is now considered a sexual fetish, findom i think? fucking disgusting to me. and unlike those types, i'd simply go radio silent after the payment was made. but i don't have much money anyway lol, and i still need some food>>43912116i know you're very likely not interested in this (and i understand if so, it's fine) but if you would like to have a discussion, my dc is:>azurebridgethat's all. sorry
>>43912214i sent u a request nonny
>>43912214>i'd probably pay them for being nice to meyou don't want redemption, you want a prostitute
>>43912281thanks>>43912325i apologize, have i spat out word salad over this thread that badly? i thought i made it quite clear that i do not like having a libido, in fact i used to take ritalin (bad idea) to weaken it, which worked for a while.i'm not "ace" or anything because i still have sexual desires, but i do not like having them. to me, they are akin to the intel management engine present in the very PC i'm typing this on... that is, a low-level piece of hardware which bypasses all higher-level components, cannot effectively be turned off, and any attempts at tampering/trying to disable it... will not succeed. intel gives people a 30-minute grace period to reflash the firmware once the ME's integrity fails, and the PC simply shuts off after that window. much like myself, since every time i think my sexual urges are "gone", they surge back when i least expect it.i don't have anything against you, but is this really how most people operate? automatically assuming i desire something i've considered elite (equivalent to what billionaires are to normal people)? it, it makes me a bit upset. sorry
>>43912214you would MELT if you saw a tranny cosplaying ryo
>>43911148Donate to homebrewers to make up for it
>>43912440i think that's a bit of an understatement. in my everyday life, i am not treated poorly... in fact, i'm basically nothing more to the people around me than, like, a literal physical obstacle (if i get distracted and block a path)it's not fun when your brain runs at 8,000 RPM continuously after leaving home.>>43912531i might, that's a good idea. i have an xbox series s (with a dev mode license, so i can run retroarch/various other emulators via UWP sideloading)they probably work harder in one day than i will everand for basically nothing, too
>>43911763Rape 99 transgenders to potentially save one cisgenderLmfao no
>>43911148wwyd if a tranny dressed up as ryo yamada and lap danced on youon an unrelated not would buy a tranny a ryo yamada cosplay
>>43911148how tall r u. r u a tranny now?
>>43913551i would cry probablylikeid take out the emergency $20 bill in my wallet (that i keep just in case, for a ride or something) and hand it overso hopefully that would prevent her from reporting me to the policebecause, i do think, if someone tried to do something moderately lewd with me, they were either insane or drugged>>43913556likefuck my lifethis is the issue5'10? idk no im not, even if i wanted to, im 20that ship has sailed i think
>>43913588youre insecure about 5'10"??? do you wanna be shorter or taller because if youre actually cis this is, like, totally average dude height?
