I wanted to grow up as a teenage girl and wear a bra. I regret my male life constantly. I'm 34
>>43921982youre objectively better off continuing to rep than you are trooning out now. wait til theres an admin shift and stuff starts swinging blue again, then you can become John, 40 if you want
Your 20s would have been during the peak of progressive politics (for trannys) in the US and many other places. You should have transitioned then. What stopped you?You won’t be able to repress your way out of this one. It’s either transition or continue to let it get worse until it boils over and you transition anyway or commit suicide. Transitioning at 34 is certainly less than ideal but even that is much better than transitioning at 50 as a boomerhon. Also if you plan to keep repping do not have children
I am just manmoding and i started at 36
>>43921982Not too sound too reddit right now but the best time to transition is yesterday, but today will do. While starting might seem like the hard part, the hard part is gonna be the 5/10 year journey it takes before you actually get to live as a woman. Unfortunately things are shit right now for trans people but if things do get better trust me you will be very thankful for having the earliest cringiest phase behind you so that you can focus on stuff like FFS etc.
>>43922329btw I'm not anything close to boymoding as I put in my memeflag in my original post. I'm just an inattentive fucking dumbass
if your GD started as a teenager you are trutrans. A trutrans boomerhon is more valid than a twinkshit who "figured it out" after college.
>>43922298>What stopped you?Too self conscious. Way too self conscious. I would feel crushing shame and stared at even going to an inoffensive place like a bar and even passing. I don't identify with gay bars at all anyway. I doubt being in a more accepting location would make a difference in my crippling existential shame. I want to transition and crossdress for a fetish ffs. I always feel stared at and judged even not being a tranny. I was never not going to be a neurotic disgrace in my own skin
>>43921982take estrogen faggot
>>43922464You can always just take HRT and not socially transition. I’ve been on HRT for 5 years with pretty ok results, but I share many of the same concerns so I haven’t really come out to anyone or present feminine in public (besides stuff I can get away with via plausible deniability). If nothing else it will at least stop you from becoming more masculine as you age which provides immense relief.As for the “fetish” talk see pic related (sorry for the wall of text image). I think their are definitely people who fetishize being a woman, just look at boomer sissies. But unless you have an extreme AGP feelings you’re probably just have like cis levels of AGP.When you fantasize about being a woman or cross dressing what do you do in those fantasies? Like is it exclusively about getting fucked or is it more mundane? Even if getting fucked is part of those fantasies, normal woman also have such fantasies since they are also normal adults with a sex drive.Point is you should definitely consider transitioning (with or without the social aspects) since repping is just a dead end. You can’t rep forever so its better to end up as John 32 than John 50 or even John Suicide
never reptake your HRT, retard
>>43922801>besides stuff I can get away with via plausible deniabilitylike what
>>43923099nta, but I like nail polish for example, so I justify it with being a metalhead as I wear metal shirts and camo pants all the time. Dark colors mostly, usually black.
>>43922464>I want to transition and crossdress for a fetish ffsnta but there's nothing wrong with that, loli trooned for the fetish all the way to srs and now live as a straight woman (started at 31, now i'm 37).all of these labels and philosophies exist to justify repping. you only got one life and it's short anyway. might as well enjoy it.John50 is not inevitable until you are 50. You're not 50 yet so you can still avoid that.
>>43922801>When you fantasize about being a woman or cross dressing what do you do in those fantasies? >Like is it exclusively about getting fucked or is it more mundane?Both. I immensely enjoyed the few times in my life when I got to go out with friends or do social things subtly crossdressed in ways that I could get away with. But then at the end of the day I wished I had a bf to come back to who would treat me and fuck me like a girl.>>43922298More on what stopped me from transitioning. I never had a prayer of hiding anything like that. I would have to move and change my identity to hide from the shame from people who know me.In addition I didn't really have any coherent thoughts about anything in my late teens I was in a sort of developmentally stunted haze until I started gaining some sentience, so no, I would never have had the agency to transition. I would have been pretty happy getting to crossdress daily or as much as possible in a place that was more accepting but there are no places on earth that are accepting enough for my sensitive easily traumatized self.
>>43922801The AGP fetish talk is overwhelmingly due to misandry and men being forced to defend themselves from being painted as perverts. You don't see it with transmen even when they outright state that they got their penis envy from watching porn.
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>>43924615Okay NTA but I really am an AGP fetishist no matter what fancy talk you put around it
>>43921982just rep. i fell for the hrtrepping meme at 30 and now have to hide gyno 24/7
