I kind of regret transitioning. not because I’m “not trans” or I don’t want to be a girl. there’s nothing I want more. I hate everything about maleness and masculinity. but it’s been four years of HRT, hundreds of dollars of laser, 130lbs lost, a full wardrobe change and the light never came to my eyes. life never became worth living. it just all got a lot harder. I still dissociate through each moment of my life. I still hate my repulsive male body. I still feel like I’d be better off dead. I feel like all the other trannies are playing some cruel joke on me.
trooning is just the foundation for all the other stuff you can do to make existence worth doing
>>43922738it's not a magical cure, it gives you back your agency but you still have to make your own happiness nonafwiw I'm fully transitioned and ppl keep telling me I'm unclockable (I disagree) and I'm still a depressed mess so I should listen to my own advice but like still, suffering consciously is preferable to suffering completely numb like before
>>43923056>suffering consciously is preferable to suffering completely numb like beforeTRVE
>>43923056numb felt better
>>43923056idk how the fuck I’m gonna do thatthings were really bad with my parents and I moved away about a year ago and finally started girlmoding. I haven’t been able to keep a job for more than 3 months since and keep getting fired without explanation. how am I supposed to have an income and survive? how am I supposed to find happiness if I’m struggling just to not be homeless?
