Has anyone else just sorta given up on living anything other than a completely marginal life due to being LGBT?
>>43924443For reference I'm nonpassing mtf, and I am basically a hikikomori shut in voluntarily.
>>43924443No, I still do stuff and go places. Laying next to my sleeping bf right now while we are on vacation. Why would I give up just because I'm trans/gay? It's not even that bad.
>>43924443what's a marginal life how can life be marginal
>>43924447she just like me...
>>43924450you know just like, not going outside, not doing anything, not talking with anyone, taking up literally 0 space everywhere as much as possible and never bothering anyone with having to notice your existence kinda stuff.
>>43924455oh do you mean>pathetic
>>43924449It's pretty bad. Idk about your situation but from my perspective it feels like everyone is transphobic openly and don't care that they are that way either. Hell they'd probably yell at me just for me calling them transphobic because they just believe in "reality" or something like that.I don't want to make people feel disgusted because they think I'm gross and I don't wanna be made fun of just for going about my business so I hide away from others as much as possible.
Ive accepted I'll never be loved or have sex
>>43924447>>43924455This is what I need to save.
>>43924461I didn't come up with the term marginal life d00dbut yeah sick burn you got me
>>43924471:))
>>43924464Wtf what country is this
>>43924468sex isn't worth it imoyou basically just let a guy masturbate with your body until he's done because that's what you "signed up for."Masturbating is better because at least you keep a semblance of self-respect. That being said, all sexual activity is gross.
>>43924481I'm from USA just a more rural area in a red state.
>>43924464>>43924486move out of your state and go to either Texas, Michigan, Oregon, Washington, DC, California, NY, or Pennsylvania
>>43924482I disagree, sex is an expression of love.Its an intimate. I very much would like a husband and i would like for us to have sex.Masterbation doesnt meet my need, which isnt sexual relief but a need for intimacy. Ive accepted I'll never find what i need
>>43924482>you basically just let a guy masturbate with your bodysis you're supposed to get off, too
>>43924486Fucking hell, the USA is a scary place
That's really only a tranny problem, and then only if you're ugly.
>>43924443Yeah I've given up on having any sort of meaning or fulfilling life long ago. I live to cope and cope to live.
Kinda? I'm still trying to make a living, hoping to one day get the skills necessary to get out of my financial hole. But I'm not gonna kid myself and say I believe I will ever be able to own anything of my own. I'm a permanent wageslave and will probably either become a sugar baby for a rich queer person or start sleeping under highway bridges.Do I sound pessimistic? Because I am.
>>43924443yeah except due to non lgbt reasons. but it's one of the big reasons I'm on tttt as my only social outlet
>>43924482trukecuddling is how you truly express love
>>43924468Sex is mid and I've never enjoyed it. Being loved is another matter, I still feel empty despite being loved but honestly it isn't out of reach for you. I am a neverpassing fridgehon, when I cry whales respond thinking I'm in their pod, and yet I still have ladies who want to get with me. There's like infinite people in the world, someone out there is for you
>>43927191Nah i like in the uk, not gonna happen for me
>>43924443Yes but in an elite reclusive aristocrat way.
>>43924443i go out once or twice a year to a social event and spend the rest of the year as a shut in. im jealous of these people where the socializing is constant but its not really in the cards for me
>>43924443yeah my life is just alone in apt -> work where i keep to myself -> grocery shopping alone -> alone in apt. don't think it'll ever change.
>>43929726im 25. I went to my first party/con/meetup 3 weeks ago. It was fun but im clearly socially stunted. I just sorta watched people and tried to take notes (mentally) on how to act
>>43924482BASED!! sex is never worth it for troons
>>43929738I always enjoy my weekly grocery store trip
>>43924443I had resigned myself to a marginal life long before I ever came out as trans. Now that I'm out and in transition for 3 years it actually feels like my prospects in life are much more openI have friends. There's a cool guy I flirt with. I'm comfortable with myself and far more open to others than I ever was in repression
>>43924443>>43924455Yeah tho not cuz im (maybe, kinda) a tranny. I think for me it started around 14yo or so when i got diagnosed with autism.I think part of me just went "well ok ig ill never have a normal/ok/happy life then". Maybe in part also cuz i got bullied at school and didnt have any/many friends.So ig part of me just went "oh well ok ig it will always be like this".Tho currently the cope is kinda falling apart lol. The things i used to distract myself for a decade are not fun anymore, and a desperate & misguided attempt at trooning out to mayb fix myself just made me feel even worse and more confused lol.
>>43924443Work wiseProbably yeah I'm a building maintenance worker and somehow I'm making double what I made working multiple departments in a coffee factory so this feels like the best I'll do. I didnt have much work moving up as a quirky bi male so moving on life up as a tranny is probably not happening.On a personal level I already abandoned a lot of normie spaces and mostly just hang where art, music subculture and other queer people hang out. Honestly sometimes I'd prefer to live in a world where everyone was like this.Family wise?Nope I'm a mom and wife, married a bi childhood friend that knew i wasnt straight from the get go. Came out as trans and offered to anull the wedding (came our right after) she decided to stick it out do couples counseling and now we are here 6 years later after planning a hail Mary pregnancy attempt and my transition together
>>43933537 Continued I lost most of my high school friends in my mid/late 20s and had to start over again. Made some IRL friends through discord, a popular dolls night and then just normal socializing. So is it over?NoIs it a major speed bump?YesCan you live a normal life?Mostly
shut in pretrans and shut in post trans, turns out injecting hormones that makes you visibly odd doesnt make you live your best life.
>>43933537>>43933551awww that's so adorable, nona!I'm glad you have that and that you stuck together, though it's kinda weird to me that you two considered splitting up just because you're trans if she's bi.
