How am I supposed to not feel delusional about firmly believing that I am a woman, if I can't even understand why I do believe it so deeply?
>>43933345I'm sorry if the question comes off as transphobic. I'm genuinely struggling with this immensely
>>43933345Well, you're supposed to change your body, presentation etc to match your firm belief that you're a woman, and approach the way other women look and act, and eventually it'll start to feel congruent.
i'm seeing a nietzsche paraphrase, i'm seeing a "soul mining" reference: is this your OC, OP? i enjoyed looking at it
>>43933345https://rentry.org/mtfgbrain
>>43933591I'm working on it, or at least I'm trying to, but I won't lie that feeling like a malicious imposter and not even understanding why I'm doing any of this doesn't help
>>43933345is this repper-kun? literally one of the only ppl that complain abt this type of stuff
>>43935987No. I guess I'm proof that they're not the only one who has such an issue, but I still don't understand how other trans women don't struggle with this. It doesn't help that this issue reinforces itself, since it makes me feel like merely having such anxieties is proof that I just can't be a woman
>>43933602This isn't mine, and I unfortunately don't know the source
>>43936063oh lol i totally struggle with this.I just figured 7 years of repping was enough after finally feeling real gender euphoria for the first fime and said fuck it, yolo, i hate myself anyway. Worst case scenario u detrans and have some sick lore so long as you dont become a grifter. And if you do grift you'll probably be miserably lonely and aeen as no better than a "former gay" but hey at least you'll have the bag.
>>43935969you're doing this because your brain developed with a neurology that expects your body to be that of a woman and your place in society to be that of a woman, and becomes distressed when they do not match that.some people speculate this is due to exposure to a lot of estrogen in the womb, I don't know if that's true or not, but the fact remains.
>>43936596i hope we get more research on this cause rn its just so... hypothetical. like its a nice idea but like trans research is so non existent istg
>>43936596That's the only explanation why actually sounds sane, but it's still almost impossible for me to reconcile it with myself. I still feel and fear that something else might be profoundly wrong with me and that I don't actually have a tranny brain
>>43937259The discussions as to the why are ultimately... academic. It doesn't matter whether you "have a tranny brain". Some people who call themselves femboys, not even trans women choose to medically transition and even get SRS, and they don't consider themselves to "have a tranny brain", but they still feel that it made them happier.I think being evaluated by a sexologist would help put these concerns at ease. It definitely reassured me to have several experts certify that I was a real trans woman and didn't just have something else that was making me feel that way.
>>43937554I would genuinely love to have the reassurance of being evaluated by a sexologist, but I've been procrastinating it because I'm too afraid that it'll be immediately obvious that I really just am out of my mind
>>43937593If you were out of your mind, wouldn't you want a solution?
I don't think you are out of your mind. I think the sexologist will tell you that you are indeed a trans woman. But on the small off-chance that you were, surely it would be a good thing to get a solution! It's a win-win.
splitting ourselves into social groups based on sex was evolutionary advantageous. as such, there is a mechanism of sex differentiation in the brain that tells you what sex you're supposed to be and what sex-based social group you're supposed to be a member of. sometimes, that mechanism fails, and a male's brain differentiates as that of a female or vice versa. you are your brain, so despite the organism you inhabit being of the male sex you have an awareness that you yourself, the brain, have an opposite neurosex.
>>43939323I largely agree with this, other than the first sentence, but surely, under this framework, in which you are the brain and the brain says you are female, it is not "a male's brain", this term must be wrong.
>>43939336the organism is of the male sex, but the brain's structure, which defines its operation, is like that of a female. that is why i use the term neurosex. to me transsexuality is an intersex disorder for that reason.
>>43936596this is such complete cope and i cant believe this shit has still survived to the current era. its not 2011 anymore this born in the wrong body shit is stale
>>43939442you have contributed literally nothing to this conversation but bitching and moaning and can't even articulate what's wrong with that anon's perspective beyond the words "cope" and "stale"
>>43939517whats wrong with it is that its stated in a matter of fact way without any real justification, just because it sounds like something scientific. almost no research has been done into gender so it annoys me when people put it in such simplistic terms like we already know all there is to know
>>43939543it's the best theory we have tbhon. it perfectly explains transsexuality as we observe it, perfectly explains cases like david reimer's, and perfectly explains why humans socially differentiate based on sex in the first place. no we don't have all the science to fully understand the neurological inner workings of it, brains are really complicated, but it's a popular theory because it's a good theory. there's empirical evidence of a genetic factor, of identical twins being especially likely to share trans/cis status, and of the hormones in the womb thing.
>>43939274It feels more like a lose-lose, since I'll either find out that I'm trans (being trans sucks), or genuinely insane
>>43941905Not finding out you're trans doesn't make you not trans. Being diagnosed is not what makes you trans, it's what let's you give a name to the thing that's been causing you suffering and what empowers you to look for ways to improve it, to seek medical help with transition.
>>43943426How do I know that my suffering is really caused by it?
>>43936298Kinda unrelated to the OP, and u might mean sth completely different with this: But wtf u sound exactly like me kinda.> 7 years of repping/gender questioning> finally break and try hrt> wait fuck why do i sometimes like what i look like now> wait fuck why am i sometimes super happy about breast growth making me have some curvesIm also still super fukin scared its a mistake, esp breast growth, and im just crazy/its sth else instead. But idk ig u are right, if i detrans at least its sth special about me lol. And yeah i also hate myself so maybe i should just keep saying fuck it and keep at it.>>43937593Same. Tho i dont even have the energy to look for someone like that prob. But id be scared too they just tell me i was a fucking idiot for the last decade or so and am clearly not trans but sth else :/.>>43941905This too. Being trans sucks. But finding out i wrongly believed i might be trans, and made a bunch of steps in that direction. And then being told "yeah no u are wrong and an idiot for thinking that, why didnt u consider X or Y and why didnt Z stop you?" just feels so fucking humiliating lol.Like, literally being one of the meek slightly fem guys that got groomed into transitioning and irreversibly damaging their body that transphobes like to imagine exist in droves :/. And then like having to take the responsibility (and perhaps blame and shame) for such a monumental fuck up.
>>43944883It might not be the only thing causing you suffering. If it is one of the things, then reversing it should bring you relief and possibly a bit of happiness.
>>43933345I had the same worries about being delusional. Turns out I was.There's probably a reason you feel that way. I doubt actual trans people ever do.
>>43947107We do.
>>43936298The sick lore is not sick and is just embarrassing and sad and literally makes me less of a man
