>be me.>be 19 in the year of our lord 2026.>just completed freshman year of college.>most students have left town for the summer.>meet a 27-year-old grad student still here.>allow him to intoxicate you with liquor on your first night together.>you are drawn to masculinity, desiring him wildly.>experience an inner conflict because you want to submit to him, but you cant because hes unaware youre trans.>say youre from a religious family for plausible deniability.>he grows frustrated over no sex as weeks pass.>he tells you, with no hyperbole, that youre the cutest "girl" he ever dated.>feel guilt over withholding important information while he buys expensive sake, meals, clothes, and books for you.>get exceptionally drunk one fatal night after swimming all day together.>succumb to overwhelming guilt and tell him.>become nude after he commands you to take off your clothes.>he says your body is beautiful.>youre too drunk to consent. you keep collapsing to the floor, so he carries you to bed.>he tells you he wants to be with you "for a very long time.">head over to his house the next evening.>he makes you dinner, telling you it's unnatural to date you.>he hugs you as you cry profusely; he declares you will always be his 3rd girlfriend.>you go home alone, realizing the critical mistake you made years ago when you first transitioned as a little boy.>feel impending doom as you recognize this relationship, and all those forthcoming, are over before they begin.i wish i could go back to when i was 14, before i desired romance. but ive opened pandroas box, and its impossible to return to that simpler time. it has become clear that my only options are one-night stands with chasers or pursuing a doomed romance with straight men until it inevitably ends in disaster. it hurts so much because it feels wrong to be with a woman, but i dont think i will attain marriage unless i detransition and betray myself.i think im just now realizing it. what have i done?
Date a fag
>>43935055>passoid expects empathy
thats a nice mishima pic, havent seen that one before
>>43935055>I should detrans for lovedon't do it nona
>>43935310:(
>>43936065Ain't no way that's you. Go find a husband already, a lot of men will not give a fuck. You really think you'd have it better as a non-passer? Guys will still fuck you and abuse you, because they will fuck and abuse anything. The difference is that if you are beautiful and pass, as you do, you have the option of being abused OR actually being valued as a partner.As with cis women, you have the power in your hands to ride the cock carousel or find someone that values you, it's your choice and I have no sympathy if you choose the former.
>>43936065I know you know what you're doing. I know you want me to kill myself. I'd like to let you know you're doing an excellent job.My fat disgusting self wnbaw.
>>43935445I attached it cuz my bf bought me the first volume of The Sea of Fertility and that books that’s just a stream of consciousness where he talks about being a fag and how arousing masculinity is.
Thanks, now I wanna die because I feel the same
>>43935055Of course hooking up with some random unc who didn't even know anything about you beforehand didn't end well, women are fucking retarded holy shit>>43936065You are really hot, stop being so stupid and it will be easy for you to find someone.
>>43935310Kys hag
>things dont work with 1 random moid>its overwaste of passoid skin holy shit
>I almost got raped multiple times by sometime a decade older than me who illegally got me drunk multiple times???
>>43941681>>43941863Not to mention a soft-handed unemployable sophist grad student of all things. No doubt a repper.
