optics nuke thoughtcrime edition
>>43940296pulling out the 5g tower signal jammer at panel 3 so i can be like the swirl duo nutella spreads
Sometimes when I remember getting raped my dick twitches a little and I hate it a lot. Literally does nothing mentally for me and it was a horrible experience but it twitches a little
I take HRT as a biological male. I present as the “male” gender, accept being identifying as the “male” gender, but I don’t feel like as a “male”. My autism I think has lobotomized the area of my brain that is for gender. I don’t know what to do.
>>43940296whats the difference between 4 and 5?
>>43940296the only thing that gets me off is extreme torture porn of other trannies or cannibalism, or cutting myself, or pointing guns at myself, or *CANT SAY*
sometimes i fantasize about doing the full “predatory older tranny” to a helpless boymoder from this boardlike, i let them come live w me to escape their fucked up family… then theyre mine. Best case a 16-17 yr old about 4 months into hrt, so i can really take advantage of the sexy budding phase… and idk just like, completely isolate her from friends and family. No internet no nothing. just completely devoted to me 24/7.and the way the cute vulnerable tgirls of this board are, it would be braindead easy. so desperate for any shred of validation. i would listen to her autistic rants about mishima or whatever and then make her fuck me…. God i want a young skinny hung boymoder slave so bad…but im nice irl its just a fantasy… hehe
>>43940353you should groom someone, you pred
>>43940353>no internet no nothinghow would you even achieve this mistress
>>43940320>what to dohang out with autistic bi people
>>43940357haha no…. Like i said im very nice….>>43940377cameras and conditioning her… but im sure she will (i mean would) be a very good girl and obey my commands…
I want to forcebreed a tboy but I'm definitely a straight man
>>43940391you can be nice and still be a pred, trust. You should act on this.
>>43940407But anon… it would be so unethical right???then again i really would love somebody to do my chores….
>>43940323gust of wind>>43940353see now you've given the game away. if u invite me over im bringing a knife + pepper spray and turning the tables on you. t. 18 lonely skinny not quite hung boymoder who thinks about such things
>>43940420who cares about ethics idiot, everyone else is doing it, why dont you?
I think watching my boyfriend have sex with a cis woman would be ridiculously hot and I will never tell him
>>43940401Fggt
>>43940386Where do I find autistic people?
>>43940422oh… turn the tables on me like… @/////@
>>43940452omg you fold that easily. pathetic ^_^also if you think im going to do your chores you are out of your mind. idk about when you were younger but i can barely do my own chores as is.i think we're *both* miserable lonely and vulnerable people nona
>>43940444this isnt tiktok you can use vowels. unless you're like. trying to like say it through gritted teeth or something. fggt.. grr...
>>43940485hehe yeah i was just being silly. but i would love for u to come over and fuck me! u sound v cute….
I'm straight and have only ever fucked foids but I'm regularly thinking about trannies, I don't even watch porn. The idea of forcing someone to abandon their manhood to submit to me is extremely hot. At the same time, I know I would most likely abandon the idea if I ever met a tranny irl since most don't pass and regular fags often anger me.
>>43940561may you find a cute huss to prod one day
>>43940505sorry no thx im chillin hehe. i dont think you're malicious tbdesu. i just think i should wait a little before i get into that kind of a situation lol. if you drop your discord i'll save it for later. if not no worries(i will say it does get me hard thinking about you enslaving me)
I kinda think the twinkhon vocaroo degrading bully poster sounds kind of hot and want to be bullied like that IRL.
>>43940561>regular fags often anger me.i wonder if this makes you more or less likely to be repressing bisexual... im not a huss so its not my game to worry about but still curious
I have constant violent dreams and fantasies.They're not fun or enjoyable just constant intrusive thoughts of hurting the people around me and it makes me so paranoid and scared all the time it feels like everything I take melatonin gummies to actually get to sleep I'm suddenly covered in blood and sobbing and it's so mentally exhausting and triggering all the time being terrified that I would hurt my girlfriend but I hate that she clearly has some kind of slight masochism or something and it makes me so uncomfortable and feel bad I secretly threw away a bdsm zapper thing she bought because it made me so uncomfortableI'd tldr I constantly have extremely violent intrusive thoughts and dreams I can't stop and I'm scared I'll hurt someone or want to
>>43940566Thanks, good luck to you as well>>43940591I've had multiple gay men hit on me throughout the years and it always disgusted me on a primal level. If I was a repper I would have had many opportunities to not be one. I only thought of trannies in the first place because of passoids, each time it was posted on /fit/ it made me more curious if that actually existed irl.
>>43940580>discordi mean we are in confessgen so i suppose you wouldn't want that out there. goes so show, i thought i was too smart to get groomed, but really im stupid.
some people give me a hard time for posting here like oh my gawd she's talkin' to the fbi! those glowies? they're my real friends. the king of red lion's must've really fucked up if hyrule's that deep under water. leave it. let it go so that we might find a new peace.
i call myself a cis man on hrt but in reality i’m just a self-hating tranny who can’t see herself as anything but male
>>43940726me when im>be me>dark angel of vermin and flies>a ripe transvestite...>what thoughts shall i infest them with for tomorrow to chew on?>and what infestation shall i put upon their thoughts swallowed yesterday?>heheehee...>i know....genderfluid and won't admit it to myself
>>43940726aww sweetie… sorry u feel so down on urself…
>>43940726Same
it's literally: do you have a peepee or do you have a vagina. every thing else is sex based stereotypes that falls in line with discrimination. you're not gender fluid. you're just a bigot.
>>43940296as a skinny neet incompetent boymoder, i think older trans women including ugly hons as well as chasers (including the ugly ones) should be able to use me freely and trap me in a situation where i am financially dependent on them. but i would NEVER NEVER EVER act on this
>>43940999where do u live sweetie? i was just talking about doing something like this upthread :)
>>43940726Anti cis man on hrt psyop
>>43941061north ga. but as i said, im not going to act on it. somebody'd have come get me themselves instead of being a coward
>>43941061also im the same moder from upthread i was just thinking about it still.i will say dear, i have bad brainworms and moral ocd and while i've never been in your position i'd imagine you're going to get out of this state eventually and feel really bad about this. i forgive you bc you havent done anything but i would encourage you to stop ok...
>>43941183you do indeed have moral ocd… im just fucking around i wouldnt act in it. too crazy and risky. also board girls are 75% of the time genuinely awful company :/
>>43941061nona you need to groom someone younger than yhou please
PLEASSEEE someone groom me. please. I need anyone ill take anything
I was groomed as a kid and it ruined the next 20 years of my life
>>43940296i may kill myself if i fucked my ochem exam
>>43940296I'm so obsessed with anal in straight porn because I don't have a pussy and I need to imagine something that I can feelAlso I watch porn, yes.
sometimes i have gay thoughts
i like when guys sexually harass me as a boymoder. it makes me feel desirable in some way and almost like a woman to them, even if they just do it to get a reaction or make fun of me for being a feminine moid.
>>43940296i stopped coming here since 2023 and got my shit and mental health together (i didnt even know the captcha system changed since then)i also had sex sucking on a pacifier yesterday but thats some basic shit
I assume most white lgbt are racist if they arent woke. Just saves myself the disappointment.
>>43942640it's usually a reflection of whether you're being a nig about the mayos
Sometimes i larp as a butch lesbian because it’s genuinely one of the only ways i can get pussy
>>43940296I've turned into an angry bitter chud and I don't know how to reverse it
>>43940296When I was younger I once downloaded like every cosmetic mod for sims 4 to the point that my characters weren't stylized and cartoony anymore and just looked like makeup ads. then tried to make a female character. It was one of the few times in my life when I came without touching my dick.
>>43943480Sex mods on the sims always makes me coom
>>43940296I’m in a relationship with the man I used to regularly fantasize about being. It feels a little creepy, but we’re very happy together. One anon told me I “unlocked the good ending,” and that’s how I’m going to choose to look at it.
>>43943492Not even sex mods. Just purely cosmetic mods like makeup. Now that I think about it it was pretty much just makeup and clothing and nothing else. Just playing dress up with a realistic woman in normal clothes was enough to make me cum harder than porn ever did.
95% of the trannies i've engaged with over the years could clearly be classified as sexual predators. even after SRS. this is much higher than cis or gay males. they will never escape being male rapebrained
>>43944306>Moid projects so he feels less bad about being a rapistwhat else is new
tfw no sexy srsoid predator gf
>>43944328he's right though
>>43940323acceptance
>>43940296I highk trooned out to stop being myself and also avoid family and corporate and national obligationsI have no idea what it means to be a woman let alone a trans woman lolIm just winging it waiting to see if anyone calls me out for my regurgitated bull crap and lack of any effort.Very few care
>>43944379Are you a bootlicker troon or a retarded fag? Can't tell
>>43940296sometimes i do wish i was a black/poc trans woman and not a white trans woman bc i feel like white trannies are stinky/unwashed/ugly/less real. i recognize that this is probably a byproduct of me spending a lot of time in online lefty spaces where people do performative ytpeople hate and having basically no experience of the actual racism that stuff grows up in response to... but anyways, it just means i cant rlly respect white trannies generally... Im glad transracialism isnt real cause if it was I rlly mightve lmao
>>43944458Normies don't have different opinions on different colored trannies. Just opinions on different colored people in general and trannies in general. They would treat you either exactly the same or strictly worse.
>>43940320hang out with me because im the same way
>>43940296sometimes i b8 men into doing sex crimes on me, both bc i want to prove that im a victim not a perpetrator (mtf, if you havent guessed), and bc theres some part of me that wants to prove that its "not that bad"... that sexual violence isnt some noumenal incomprehensible experience that only a real womyn could understand... usually after a man assaults/harasses me I'll make a show of being unbothered or even a little amused... but i recognize deep down that this sense of emptiness about who i am and what i deserve wont be resolved by getting raped a lot
>>43944483it isnt about how normies would treat me. i know black trans women have it worse than me. its about my sense of who the real women are. i think theyre the real women and not me.
>>43944555You should be aware that this is the most brainwormed thing i've read today (and I've been sitting on this board all day)You should learn to love yourself white guilt is fucking stupid
>>43944569thanks I know.
>>43944528this is a good example of exactly what i mean about trannies being sexual predators
>>43940586can you link to it I really wanna listen to that >///<
AGPs make better partners than hussies
>>43944612you should go back to fucking ciswomen we dont want ur nasty ass
>>43944668i'm actually pretty asexual/celibate, thank you. naturally, this frustrates the sexual predator tranny when you are tall and hot and treat them like shit
>>43944685genuinely dont care... as long as youre not talking like this while actively seeking trannycock, whatever desu
>>43944697i can tell the demon inside you gets very upset at a person like me
>>43944743nah whatever, desu at this point im more curious than anything. i know what i said was bad, but explain how its sexually predatory
>>43944733Your voice sounds very pretty how long did your voicetraining take? And how often did yout voicetrain
>>43944794oh sorry i posted it in the wrong thread! also thank you, i didn't really voice train so this is a hard question to answer. it was a few years of adjusting to passing visually but my voice clocking me, in which my voice just sort of adapted to those pressures i suppose
im a 30 year old man watching and enjoying tadc
My feminist upbringing has innoculated my desire to dominate cis women, but I am subconsciously transphobic, so I have a strong desire to sexually dominate trans women. I want a trans gf to be my property.
>>43944528get good bf and get sex crimed by him only
I think that if I would be a cis girl looser neet in even more dire situation then I am now I would be happier then I am now
>>43945160hai
>>43940296happy birthdayi'd send you flowers if i could
>>43945160understandable
