i feel as most reppers don't distinguish that their "confusing" thoughts are us just conflating cis priviledge with male identityanyone likes being a man in so far as the priviledge it offers: power, honor, respect, being a dude.YOU liking THOSE things does not mean, "oh, well maybe I'm just a cis male."but what seperates the tranny from the cissoid is whether they actually ARE that sex. and if you take away all of that cis priviledge, would I still "want" to be a dude? no. I don't. if I were to take away all the societal bullshit, I'd be more "me" if I was a woman.and even though women are treated like shit, are always so haggardy and tired from a whole lifetime of being treated like cattle and struggle in ways foreign to the average man, I still feel more seen when I am called "her." DESPITE the cis shittery of "being a woman." (even though I'd be subhuman hahahaha).Reppers don't have as much gender dysphoria as someone who has transitioned which explains our muck around in crossing the rubicon. they don't feel disgusted or shake uncontrollably when called a "dude" and if they do, those are strong reppers. for the most part, the ONLY like being called a guy, dude, male in so far as they feel comfort in the priviledges of being male but they conflate that comfort and mask it over the deeper internal feelings which are that they are female or enby. so, yes, a repper reps but its deeper than just repression: its conflation, purposeful cognitive dissonance. precisely understanding this will make it easier for you trannies to bully us.
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>>43943966illiterate FUCK.
>>43943933Not to sound like a sexist retard but male privelege is significantly less impactful when you're a mentally ill troon
>>43943933>Reppers don't have as much gender dysphoria as someone who has transitioned which explains our muck around in crossing the rubicon. Have you heard of our dear friend and fiend dissociation?t. former femboy turned repper, now schizo twinkhon
>>43944273Not op, but how do I know whether I really am dissociating or not? Where is the line supposed to be drawn? Does one need to be fully absent, or can I still be functional and conscious, albeit just so detached that nothing matters?I've asked this question before, but nobody ever answered it
>>43944401>just so detached that nothing mattersmy coping approach since pre-K
>>43943933Male privilege is a meme, it’s nothing compared to cis privilegeThink of it this wayMale > female >>>>>>>> non-passing tranny
>>43944401you can be functional
>>43943933>if you take away all of that cis priviledge, would I still "want" to be a dudeoof>Reppers don't have as much gender dysphoriaidk if you meant it this way but when i repped i could just not shave. now not shaving fucks me up for until i do
>>43944401i have no idea since its so subjective and for me crossed with other issues. the strongest it feels like color is drained from the world and the edges of your vision are blurry. like not really but it FEELS that way. you dont feel like you are really in your body. like have you ever seen the anti-disso exercise where you look around the room for colors of the rainbow in order to ground yourself? or squeezing your hands or feet against the ground to reestablish physicality? its the opposite of that. like your all in your head like you are piloting a mech through a little periscope looking out into the world like a emotional tunnel vision. and massive anhedonia. not bad feeling just no feeling and like grey tv static filter over everything. when you are in the middle of an episode starting its feels kinda like going cold in your extremities, maybe a bit of anxiety/dread, losing physical sensation, color draining from your face, like you can feel your face getting cold and the warmth falling away. its like you are sliding away from being front/present in experience into a chair in a dark room with a little window looking out at reality. its kinda like that scene in get out where he falls in the hole, the sunken place? but again, emotionally rather than so starkly visual or physical. you can be totally functional its just like you are going through the motions on autopilot. like you can have full conversations but you wont even consider what you are gonna say it just comes out like its happening to you or you are watching someone else. like you are watching a movie of someone elses life.
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>>43943933im confused op why dont you just begin the transition process if you are conscious of all of this? idk bout yall but i didnt associate with trans stuff at all until i like foudn out more and let myself once i realised - so im curious how you can like be aware youre repping and still not transition into a happier life?
>>43948495ive already accepted ill never be happy, no matter what i do in life, so why would i burden my family even more than i already do
>>43948495>into a happier life?Not OP, but a repper. Society like hates trannies usually? I dont want to risk job security and I think my chances of passing or looking in any war reasonable are like zero. I dont get to be a woman I get to be an awkward clocky hon at best while upsetting all my friends and family in the process.
>>43947255To me, disassociation is constantly spacing out, its when my heart-rate speeds up and I feel like what I'm seeing, thinking and smelling is not real, its constantly being surprised by your mirror reflection
