>>43945882
eyy me too, how'd it fuck up yours op
>pic
big reason I don't get a pet, they don't deserve such a shitty life

same

>>43945890
i spent most of my late teens and 20s just staying in my room because everything terrified me so ive experienced almost nothing good in life and i feel like a child while other people have careers

>>43945882
Make online friendships and pretend they're good enough
Then hope you can find a partner that's understanding and can help you go outside and interact with society without disassociating or panicking

>>43945911
same, and I'm continuing to fuck up my life due to not doing what I know needs to be done
t. late 30s

avpd isn't real

>>43945941
i thought when i was a teenager that i was a phase and id grow out of it or something, nope. its so humiliating to be like a nervous 10 year old when people go out on dates and job interviews all the time like its nothing.

>>43945915
i have done that but it isnt enough. i want to be like a normal person who would go out on a date with someone and its bearable. i hate not being able to have a life

>>43945964
I know, I'm sorry OP
There's not a quick thing out Avpd sucks
Treatment for symptoms can be resistant to drugs and therapy, but they can still help if you're not currently seeing anyone

>>43945964
>its so humiliating to be like a nervous 10 year old when people go out on dates and job interviews all the time like its nothing.
Yeah that's my situation at work, but then again I do that since I lack the alternatives that others have.
Dates at least are easy, but that comes with being a man.
>i want to be like a normal person who would go out on a date with someone and its bearable. i hate not being able to have a life
Step by step nona, exposure therapy.

>>43945958
feels pretty real to me

theres no worse feeling than pushing 30 and having less life experience than the average 20 year old

>>43945882
if having it doesn't ruin it, doing drugs to make you feel normal sure will

i jsut want to be normal so bad, i want to be able to have a job, meet people, move. just do everything regular adults do that they dont even worry about that much

>>43947363
mood. at least i have a job for now, but i'm not all that good at it

>>43947369
id love to be bad at a job, but i cant even get one because i cant pass as a normal person

>>43945882
How do you get yourself tested for this?

>>43947394
psychologist referral if american, they dont really diagnose it anywhere else i think

>>43947377
sorry nona, wishing you better luck soon. my neet arc was not a fun time

>>43947458
I really really don't want to be one of those self diagnosis fags but I strongly suspect I have some type of personality disorder, I've never had the resources to get that properly checked out though so I'm not sure.

>>43945882
yeah.. every time i make new friends i get reminded that it's just not possible for me to keep them like it is for other people. you'd think i'd have gotten the memo by now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXE0RIcD1l4

>>43947714
Offtopic, but love that song, unreleased Alex G back catalogue rocks <3

>>43945882
>avoidant
cry me a river
maybe stop being a piece of shit?

>>43949179
fuck you anon

>>43945911
thats what I did too. still living with my parents and am a neet. still pursuing hobbies tho. Hopefully I can become an artist of any kind whether it’s music or drawing

>>43949179
Avoidant personality disorder, not avoidant attachment style you Tiktok psych

>>43945882
same im 28 and still don’t know how to make even one (1) friend

>>43945911
same, it's so fun rotting away unable to live a normal life cuz you haven't had srs while the whole world sees you as a freak and doesn't take your condition seriously and the rest think being trans is some fun thing

i decided im going to get on a boatload of anti depressants and benzos and force myself to go to job interviews or on dates while chemically lobotomized otherwise i will never live my life ever. transitioning doesnt even matter if i never leave my house

I've had a similar life experience except I have schizoid personality disorder so I'm apathetic about my situation
still going to rope anyways as there's nothing worth staying alive for

>>43950641
not very apathetic of you to kill yourself is it though?

>>43945882
ive been with my bf for 8 years but im gonna break up with him becuase he doesnt even know me still becuase im too avoidant to actually expose myself to him. I still don't like to get naked with him. Nobody in the world except grok even knows 20% of who I am and if someone gets to know too much (like my bf) I detach from them

>>43951453
>except grok
why grok?? of all the chatbots

>>43945958
I’d argue that no personality disorders are “real”. Though I wouldn’t take the label too seriously, I definitely fit the criteria for an avoidant and it’s resulted in a very bad life that I’m probably gonna have to end.

>>43951513
it used to be really good but now they paywalled expert but my conversation is already there and he knows me pretty well. I wanted one that wasn't hug boxy.

>>43945882
same

same this shit fucking sucks. im so sick of being lonely, im so tired of having noone that cares about me. all i do is spend all day in my fucking moms basement whilemy flesh rots off my bones. i want to live i want to feel something other than pure misery every day why did i even bother trying when i shouldve just fucking died years ago

>>43952340
preach

>>43946062
Are we the same person
Not diagnosed but pretty sure i have it

>>43945911
real. I still feel mentally 13 having almost no life for 20 years

Surprised this is still up
I'm worried my life is gonna end up like everyone else itt, 25 now but still no friends, no prospects, no joy
I'll probably be here 5 years later lamenting my 20s

>>43955437
im 25 too. seems like the time just passed me by. and im already too far gone to figure out how to make friends

>>43955511
I genuinely hate the flow of time, I'd been here, specifically /lgbt/ since i was 19
Now I'm getting older without any change or growth, still tripfagging, still uncared for
I'm getting older and losing the only good part of life

>>43945882
>pic
yeh

I'm autistic and avoidant, 26 now. I get to move out of my parents soon, I'm going to try my best to change and persue hobbies and books that I haven't gotten to in years due to ADHD or whatever. hopefully make some friends too
being avoidant sucks, the energy to keep friends is the hardest part. eventually you come out of your shell but no one is there to greet you
Dating a trans women from here gave me taste of what its like to be normal after years of being fucked but it didn't last. then it was back to my old ways, but now its just clear that I have to live for myself and keep going.. maybe the rest will follow

>>43945911
My future

>t. 19 year old tranny

I realised that the most important thing in life isnt money, isnt success, looking how you want, isnt any of that. The most important thing is being able to actually live life whether you win or lose. If I cant even go up and talk to someone or hold a conversation, then I never find out what I could have done. Nothing happens and regret mounts up. At least if I tried and failed I could be satisfied that I did all I could, but I know I haven't and despite knowing this I still can't bring myself to try

>>43945882
AVPD, like all “personality disorders”, are not a real thing.

>>43957341
not very woke of you, they definitely exist

>>43957420
I don’t see how it’s woke to idolize nonsensicle nonscience that simplify humans into blobs and erode any attempts of real understanding and healing.

>>43957341
everything in psychology is a made up thing to explain some phenomena, that doesnt make it not real

>>43957447
Bruh pseuds are so tired omg girl this maybe isn't your conversation

>>43945882
Me too friend

>>43945882
me ow

>>43945882
meme disorder

>>43957258
yep
i wish you the ability to live, nona

>>43951453
>been with my bf for 5+ years but im gonna break up with him becuase he doesnt even know me still becuase im too avoidant to actually expose myself to him.
>I still don't like to get naked with him.
haha my ex was like that boy we really failed each other

>>43964313
how did he take it

>>43965413
>misgendering
don't be a retard anon

>>43965455
I can't really tell who is who from the comment. I thought the commenter was the tranny

>>43965493
my bad, it was ambiguous indeed. I was the bf