Have you ever been to the psych ward as a queer person? Got anything to say about it?I'll go first.I was there last winter and I remember vividly sitting down after being forcefully injected with a sedative and a 60 yo man started talking about how big and sexy my legs were to a young man, saying I had to be a woman due to their size. During the same trip an older trans woman talked about how she could tell my cock was bigger than hers.
>>43947588my therapist is cool as hell and doesnt care abt the rules much so ive never been in a psych hospital
>>43947588Yeah, I've been to one two different timesOne for a bum therapist for reporting me and then another time after an actual attemptThey weren't used to trannies so I got my own room and didn't have to share with anybodyReally sucked having to strip down so they can mark down any injuries or cuts on my body, else wise they were mostly chillOne place denied me my hrt though, luckily I had monotherapy and did an injection the night of the attempt and was only there for like 5 days I think
>>43947613and this is why therapy is fake asf and the entire field is a pseudoscience therapists care more about being le heckin' good guy (socially constructed, they'd be nazis in 1947) than helping their mentally ill patients
>>43947911idk talking to a professional abt my problems every 2 weeks does feel nice. i know its not helping me in the grand scheme of things though dont worry lol. but also throwing me in a psychiatric hospital wouldnt do anything for me really. my therapist told me that my desire to kill myself is a drive that neither she or other doctors could stop if they tried. im also stable enough to be trusted with that
>>43947588I was the only tranny on the floor so I got my own room that was better than the other ones and I just stayed in my room and read the whole time, it actually kind of fucked(well aside from the frequent blood tests and having to get naked in front of a nurse so she could check my body for self harm scars)
>>43947588First time I went in, I was getting eyed by a 300 pound reddit looking guy at 3am inside my room, it was scary as shit. Literally got no sleep and had to pretend to be sane to get the fuck out of there in the morning. I thought I was gonna get molested.2nd and 3rd times were pretty uneventful, I wanted to escape during the 2nd but managed to stay calm. 3rd was just a fake out to get back on my meds since the dumbass psychatrist was on vacation and couldn't refill me. Overall I wouldn't recommend. There's nothing solid about going to the ward. If you are fake schizo I really would tell you to avoid it at all costs.
>sent to psych ward for wanting to kill myself>get asked if I wished I was a girl and say yes out of honesty>they list me as female on my armband to make me feel better I guess>put me in the female ward>got beat up and raped by psychotic girls for two weeksAnd if I complain about it people say its a made up story that I jerk off to. I hate existence
>>43948340if they were lenient enough to let you be a girl why didnt you just ask for help
>>43948411I wanted to die
>>43948544cant argue with that
I had a psychotic episode and I thought the feds were closing in on me and my family because I thought we were a powerful crime family (we're not) and I also thought we were royalty (we're not) and I thought we were running a brothel on US soil (we don't) and that was a problem because it would be an international incident 'cause royals probably shouldn't run clandestine brothels on foreign soil. Anyway, I thought the psych ward was a secret route across the border to Canada. Also I believed sissy porn was a psyop to turn trans girls into prostitutes and I was convinced a bunch of it was produced locally. But yeah. When I made it out of CPEP into the psych ward proper, it was like, I thought Sam Hyde had access to the cameras and was livestreaming them hoping to catch me slipping up and revealing incriminating things and also acting crazy so I feigned composure and I also took my meds like I was told so the staff wouldn't suspect anything. I had my own room but eventually I had to share it with another trans woman.
>>43947588my first visit was pretty chill, the second visit they roomed me with a hpd cis bitch for some reason (even though they knew i was a tranny) and she screamed at me after she found out i was a guy, i remember crying and apologizing for being a tranny, that place really sucked,,,
>>43948650what
>>43948650perfectly reasonable statement hidden in the depths of this mess. sissy hypno is a psyop
>>43947588>talking about how big and sexy my legs were to a young man, saying I had to be a woman due to their size
>>43947911I also know how to open up about my problems so it feels like I'm spending money just for someone to sit there and listen to me rant. I guess it's nice to not have to put that on my friends, but it's an absolute luxury expense for me
>>43947588Yeah I was in the ward bc I tried to kill myself bc im incel Doctors ignored me I was institutionalized for 2 weeks. It was a prisonHowever an angel came to me. She was a blonde young 21yr girl. She asked me who I was I told her everything how I fear females and how all I wish was to be happyWe talked about religion and GodShe had been institutionalized because she just had a baby a week ago. Her bf was abusive. She was having a existential crisis.We were both on the sofa watching tv and she put her hand over mine, tears in her eyes, she said>I want you...It broke me. But fixed me. I could never have her - her body is already claimed by chads cock. But it proved i am valued. Thats all us men ever want. But we are denied such things by the gynocentric hypergamy the west has built
>>43948971volcel
>>43948740I love sissy hypno
>>43948650absolute fucking gem of a post
>>43948039do they put ftms and mtfs in the same room that'd be so fucking funnyalso why do they even have shared rooms.
>>43949230Probably because it's cheaper to have shared rooms
>>43948971>i can't breed because the west has fallenchujjak..... no............... please............ it can't end like this............................
>>43949251yeah duh but it's still fucking stupidcapitalism is too busy being the best system available to provide more than 1 slight step above chattel slavery sleeping chambers in the modern fucking era ig. it's a psych ward literally just far better to give people their own rooms unless ur an assimilationist>>43947911massive massive trvke but its one of those problems where you can never convince people of the correct answer because the only way you can understand it is not to engage with the original premise and that excludes compromise
>>43948650Oh yeah also one of the nurses wrote something on the whiteboard that was a rephrasing of "Work will set you free"
>>43949230Saves space and if you're on a ward where theyre worried you might sudoku it acts as a deterrent to have a roommate. I've been the only tranny every time ive been committed so idk how that shakes out, I usually get put in a room with a gay guy.
>>43949254This is why men are killing people like youSaint Elliot isn't going to show you mercy
>>43948861Verbal sexual harassment isn't very fun
>>43950155I'm sorry that happened to you but you sound hot
>>43949230>>43949251>>43949726I'm here from /pol/ but yeah, they have shared rooms because it's not about helping you it's about getting insurance money/money from your relatives.The whole system is fucked. Like you guys in the psychwards are the lowest on the totem pole in terms of rampant corruption. The government does not give a fuck about you.
>>43947588>in america if you admit to social worker that you want an hero they put you in rape chamber for two weeks
>>43950324Yeah I assumed after visiting the ward twice, once as a child and the latest as an adult. Both were so ungodly boring and you just have to get intimidated by overweight women and act like a good little subhuman. I've never heard someone say they thought they improved after a visit, just that they escape. The environment induces suicidality more than it soothes.
>>43950190Its not hard to get large legs. Take E, gain some weight, and do squats. It'll make your legs massive in a few months time.
>>43947588Sometimes I get FOMO from never being sent to the psych ward. If I could I would accept a one month stay over the summer while I am not busy with uni.
>>43950449This has been a very enlightening thread to create. Trust me, you're not missing out. You just get mentally raped by mental health workers pretending to care about you and the most stimulating activity you can waste your time with is coloring papers.
>>43950481But what if I meet my future husband on the psych war.
>>43950410I love all iterations of this retarded meme, kek>In America, if you are caught riding bike they immediately execute you with Ford 150
>>43950487All the attractive men that would realistically land themselves inside a psych ward AND be willing to date a tranny have already manned up and killed themselves.
>>43950190>>43950433I'm a manly man, and I've got giant legs due to the way I've been masturbating for like the last 16 years or soFriends are impressed with my leg strength, I'm solid as fuck, but I can never tell anyone my routine kek
>>43950512?????? Please tell. We r anonny mus..
I was sectioned for 5 days a few years back, it was really difficult at first and I didn't handle it well at all but somehow it actually helpedThere was this guy(?) who I guess was non-binary but used a male chosen name (his actual name was hard to pronounce) and he/him but the label he used was queer / lesbian? But anyway he was kept asking me if I was a "he-she" or "she-he" and I have no idea which is meant to be which so I was like idk? He also assumed I had both parts and kept grabbing my boobs which I actually didn;t really mind (I said he could the first time) until he did it front of other people. He also asked me to go into the bathroom with him saying he wanted to suck on my nipples and I actually considered it but didn't want to get in trouble. Kinda wish I had nowThere was also this girl who was really nice to me and not weird like everybody else, she said she thought I was pretty and was cool to hang out with in the art room. We met again a few times, in respite and then DBT group. She graduated DBT like 3 months after I joined but then a few months later they told us she died so that suckedI think in there was the first time I was only around people who didn't know & use my deadname so it was kinda cool feeling like I could just be myselfThe ward wasn't that bad, we were allowed phones and I got hrt. I took one dose of lithium to keep the psychiatrist happy but I was released after that and immediately stopped it. I decided on the third day to just act like I was fine, stay in common areas as much as possible, and get out asap and it actually worked
>>43950503Then where am I supposed to meet my future husband? It's not fair ://, ok but what if I do need psychological health but I hate psychologists, then landing myself on the ward sounds reasonable.
>>43950496bro dont laugh they rly push the train q.q
>>43950503i could easily land myself in one but there is not a single tranny that could make me overcome my fear of being placed into one of these hellholes
>>43950531Usually I start jerking off while on my knees, then get lower until the tops of my feet are on the floor and my knees are spread farther than what is normal. Then I keep straining, and it feels great, and I beat off like normal. Sometimes I support my weight with one hand, sometimes not. Once I'm done I need to slowly get back up because of how much it hurts. It wasn't uncommon for me to have bruised my feet doing this. Now after doing that for like most of my adult life I feel like I weigh nothing when I'm walking, and the tone of my legs is just disgusting, lmao.My favorite compliment I ever got was from a dominatrix. She was massaging me, and while feeling up my thighs she said "Oh my God, you're solid."Ironically, I love women with huge legs. Anyways, I guess masturbation can be a form of exercise.
>>43950597Call that the "plank crank". Why/when did you start doing that?
>>43950597If I wasn't a married woman I'd love to see a video of this. I see why a dominatrix would take interest in you.
>>43950597>Sometimes I support my weight with one hand, sometimes notexplain further. How do you hold yourself up, if not jerking it with one hand and holding yourself up with the other?
>>43947588when i was 15 i was in the weird stage of trooning out but not yet on hrt. i got put in a boys ward in Louisiana and got asked out by one of the guys lol. another one of the guys gave me a drawing of an emo girl that he drew in there. i wish id kept it.
>>43950637I'm not sure. When I first started jerking off a lot as a teen, I'd sort of hold on to my desk and support my weight with my legs (a different isometric exercise, kek), and so I guess my brain just kind of associates leg strain with orgasm. As I got older I adopted sleeping on the floor for health reasons, and therefore did not have a desk to dry hump. So at some point I just settled on doing it on my knees, which naturally lead to me straining them because it felt good.And for real I enjoy bragging about it. I have a great body, and also a great butt. I really love it when women feel me up, lol.
>>43950663>How do you hold yourself up, if not jerking it with one hand and holding yourself up with the other?All 225 pounds of weight supported by my spread legs and balls on the ground, basically. I'm strong as fuck lmao
>>43950433>>43950512I already have huge fuck off legs. Grew up on a farm so throwing bails of hay/straw was basically my squat routine
>>43950637>>43950646>>43950663also I'm glad you guys are interested because I've literally never told anyone about itthere was a story I read once about someone who knew a woman with shredded arms that would masturbate by holding herself up on a door frame and hump the corner of itshe got those shredded arms by just doing that ever since she was a teenagerI read that awhile back and thought "huh, yeah I guess it's sort of like that for me too"
>>43950704sometimes I wish I could have been a farmer just for the fucking gainz I'm pretty sure I can't match the strength of an Amish man and it bothers me
>>43950696This makes even less sense, unless you mean your legs are simply in front of you and you're just sitting down normally(???). You need to draw it for me to understand.
>>43950730get on your knees and put the tops of your feet on the floor, then spread your knees and sink farther down until your balls touch the floor, then just keep spreading your knees while you support your weight with your thighsmasturbation is optional for this exercise
>>43950719I wish I was a farmer so I could've had a lowkey gay romance with the boy next door.. alas..
>>43947588im an actual schizo tranny like hearing voices and mass delusions etc its not fun to hear crashing metal and women screaming directly in your ears while being convinced for years that your family is trying to kill you with the microwave. no i dont do drugs either this is all homegrown. anyway when things really started getting horrible i tried going for psych help. i was slowly warming up to it but when i learned that any goober with a social work cert can decide to detain you indefinitely without any habeas corpus based entirely on the vibe of what your saying where uncaring nurses will inject you with mysterious substances against your will like are you fucking kidding me? i walked right out of the psych followups because i just couldn't handle that kind of risk. so many people spill the beans because they inheritely trust the very scientific sounding professional to help them and end up more traumatized than they already were because the treatment system is so fucking punitive. rotten to its core. its not even an america thing, its the same in europe too. go straight to jail do not pass do not collect 200. stay forever until you learn how to fake being sane again, what a sick joke.somehow got lucid a year or two ago but it never really goes away. i cant ever see one of those psych people again though, once you realize the power they hold over you it sinks into the entire interaction. if you dont have a garden variety normie depression/anxiety problem you may as well be in a police interrogation. im sorry you had to get harassed op, im glad you're out.
>>43950781I lived on that farm for 18y and never knew our neighbors I could tell you who owns each plot of land around my parents farm but not the name of the guy who owns the next closest house
Don't fucking go to psych wards, don't let them notice you and put you in there. It's just a torture panopticon for neurotypical people to punish them for mental health issues with extra hell for trans people. Stay out
>>43950780Ok I understand, you're doing something like this? I was imagine the legs somehow being straight the whole time.
>>43950799Are you saying your schizophrenia more or less left you? Did you change your diet at all? Some people say probiotics help, but I'm just a guy who jerks off weird so I wouldn't know.You're right about psychiatrists, they will just throw you to the wolves and a lot of them are not good people, many of them are crazy bitches themselves and like to hurt others
>>43950799Likewise, stay strong. The injections are so terrifying, my last stay I got two because the same woman kept intimidating me to have an excuse to sedate me because she's a psychopath and decided she hated me. My greatest fear is being put inside an insane asylum. My dad would tell me over and over how my behavior would end me up in one, so I've had a fear of health professionals ever since.
>>43950860yeah like that but less gay sometimes I'm more forward, real feralI also like to hump women's legs when they let me just saying
>>43950597>>43950687>>43950881okey anon, we believe you that you aren't gay
>>43947588no but i wish. for some reason i feel like ive been being groomed for some kind of psych ward torture experiment my whole life. but they never take me away. i just got really really good at masking and hiding what i think and feel
I played cards with a middle aged bipolar woman the whole time and waited 5 days until they let me out while telling me the whole time that I wasn't really going to kill myself anyway. It sucked but cards were fun.
>>43947588yeah they had me in there for drugs and self harm. dont do lsd nona, rough shit, and if ur gonna cut, dont do it on parts of your body you wanna show off, and if the cops have to remind you that ur human, u probably fucked up
>>43950865>Are you saying your schizophrenia more or less left you?unfortunately no. it always feels right around the corner, like sometimes ill hear little whispers again or start connecting dots that go no where or feel burning sticky matter all over my skin when it is literally impossible and its such a feeling of dread, like it can all start happening again on a dime if i dont take steps to keep myself in check.>Did you change your diet at all?kinda, i mostly just started eating more because i used to be really underwieght and still have an eating problem. i dont really buy the probiotic stuff. makes me sick but i think thats just me. getting to a healthy weight probably took some load off my body and lessened some paranoias i have around food. something that i think helped though was EXTREME self interrogation and establishing a rigid personal discipline. why are you doing what you're doing? what events in your life have led up to this moment? why did events happen that way? what do you like? WHY do you like what you like? go over everything about your life, rundown every step down to the minute detail disect everything. its not going to fix voices or delusions obv but it atleast gives you some kind of concrete knowledge to abide by, like a code. as far as im concerned you are the only one who is ever going to know yourself. >>43950880>My dad would tell me over and over how my behavior would end me up in onegod fucking same, im sorry to hear. he would scream at me that he'd send me to a psych ward upstate for fucked up kids where id never be seen again if i didnt behave while i was sobbing my eyes out on the floor. the world is cruel to outsiders.
>>43950986they dont want you to know you have what it takes to unlock the key to it all. sisters. you have to dive in deeper. YOU are the only one who can break it
trans or not, psych ward/mental hospital/etc stays are always so interesting to read about, even though it's usually a negative experienceanyone know what the name of the subreddit for this is? accidentally ran into it once and didnt bookmark it
>>43950986I did it nona. I did it. I did it. I did it. I did it. I did it.
i only got put in for 4 days for what they called severe life threatening self harm, it just sucked and i spent the whole time crying in my room so i didnt interact with other patients. there were only private rooms but shared bathrooms. im trans but dont pass and they put me in the mens ward and it was humiliating having to strip for the nurses, but they were kinda nice though. one of them sat with me when i was crying and reassured me about things. i did my injection the day before so it turned out ok but they wouldnt have let me have hrt and they barely even let me have my prescribed meds which shocked me i had to beg for them and just gave up and went without in the end
>>43950799this is to real. i feel like i cant get help because any sort of diagnosis i risk recieving functions like a blank check for mental health professionals to section me on a whim. i want to belive its just paranoia telling me that but ive seen how they look at you when you have anything going on psychologically beyond being sad over a breakup or normie bs like that and i know if there was some official record labeling me a schizo tehy could do whatever they want to me and i couldnt do a thing about it. ive honestly considering ordering antipsychotics from the internet but i worry people might find out. it seems to come and go in waves though and right now its been a few months since ive had anything especially crazy happen
my distrust of bureaucracy and healthcare has been confirmed
I've been to the psych ward five times, for a total of probably 8 months (years if you count partial). if this thread is still around tomorrow I'll try to answer
>>43947588Im in one right now lol. I got brought here cause i tried to kms and theyre releasing me today. Yesterday i told them that it wasnt safe to let me go because i would go back and try again, but they didnt take it seriously. Theyre fuckigb alien shit heads that dont care about helping anyone. They just want tk get you out kf there as soo nas possible. Unless you WANT to leave, kf course, then they lock you up. No help, nothing. Theres some guy in here and they broight him to my room and mad eme give him my number without my express consent. Now hes begging me to come spend time with him all hours of the day. I hope they all fucking dje.
>>43949022i love getting psyoped
>>43948971incels are so fucking retarded omgg
>>43948971If this isn't ragebait then i hope your next attempt succeeds
>>43950566it will decrease your psychological health tho. just talk to a super stable friend or something
I remember the only things outing me were my paperwork and my genitals. The strip search was awful the female nurse who did it was fine, but the male tech watching oogled me and my breasts, and he made a retching expression when the nurse removed my panties. All of this was of course out of her sight, but I don't even know why he was even there, other than that I was "Male" on paper... I am 165cm with 21bmi. I remember at least one or two of the women swearing at me over my looks when she found out I was trans, and another asking if I was a female bodybuilder, so...
>>43954059>just talk to a super stable friend
>>43951121wut
>>43948544and how does getting beat up and raped in the psych ward help?
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>>43953641That's the spirit!
I have a few from my visit as a child. First was that my roommate was a giga rapehon (fat, ugly, lesbian, trans) with an insanely loud snore so I could never sleep and had nightmares of her touching me. The second was a girl in a wheelchair coming up to me and saying I was the most beautiful person she's ever seen. I don't think I'll ever forget that.
>>43947588Yeah, for five weeks. It was fine.
>>43947968>throwing me in a psychiatric hospital wouldnt do anything for meIt wouldn't be for you
>>43955097dont do drugs, kids!
I work in a psych ward 40 hours a week. Seen a few trannies in my time here, although most never talk to me. Got a couple semi-interesting patients in over my tenure here. First one was some fatass balding poon with a basedbeard who raged at me a couple times over literally nothing. Another one was a cis woman who got locked in the padded cell and shit all over the walls and pissed on the floor. Actually fucking miserable experience having to take care of the aftermath of this. She would also scream about her masturbation habits and Charlie Kirk every now and then. Called a couple people niggers, eventually got transferred into police custody for attacking a security officer. Another one is a cis man who is a super autistic retard who cries every single day and screams and tries to attack people, so he tends to spend a lot of time in the padded cell. He's also the reason we don't have a landline in the unit anymore, he smashed the receiver to pieces about 5 times and the ward decided to stop paying to keep replacing it.There's also been some nice patients who weren't totally fucked in the head too. I recall one old ass man who I sat down with for a while and chatted with every day. We'd crack jokes and he drew me a picture which I still have in my workstation. Another was a religious zealot that would talk to me whenever we crossed paths, she'd always have some crackpot tiktok conspiracy theory she wanted to talk with me about, I also helped her find some faith based rehab services as well. Most recently there was this repper who talked with me and asked me to get him in touch with some queer services in the area. There was also an old lady a few months back that I helped with cleaning her room out and then she and I started talking every day about styling hair and the like, it was nice.It still fucking sucks working in one of these shitholes, but at least at the end of the day I get to go home and sleep peacefully at night without some actual schizo ruining it.
FTM and I've been a few times because I'm unironically a schizo. Almost everyone else on the floor would get a roommate except me and they told me it was because I was trans that they gave me a single room. Honestly blessed.
>>43960180did you jerk off there
>>43960200I was having psychotic episodes and I'm very much not horny during them, so nah. Kinda woulda been hot though
>Have you ever been to the psych ward as a queer person? Got anything to say about it?I mean it sucked. I went pre-HRT and surgery and then after.Casual abuse and neglect everyone was subject to:>dehumanization in language and physical contact>ridiculing patients to their face>strip searches>sexual harassment>staff escalating as fast as possible when patients are in crisis and screaming at, assaulting, restraining, confining, and drugging patients unnecessarily>misdiagnosis>overmedicating (or under/wrongly medicating)>piss-poor care coordination>petty withholding of basic necessities like soap or toothpaste, habitable conditions, phone access, over minor slights and annoyances>allowing patients to assault or harass each other without interference unless it bothered staff personally>thin blue line situation where staff never prioritize a patient over a coworker, no matter what they didI was genuinely shocked when I read about the legal rights of psych patients years later. They were blatantly breaking the law more or less constantly, including simply informing people OF their rights. Even asking to actually read the paperwork with your rights as you signed it, before they whipped it away, would immediately get you labeled a problem patient and the shitty treatment would begin.anyway, being queer on top of that made it worse--more comments from staff, including while they were searching you, more likelihood that another patient might have a problem with you which they wouldn't do anything about. having Pronouns would annoy them. They'd brush off or ridicule queer-related factors in the crisis you came in with. the approach to "therapy" they have there (group sharing, handouts), which barely helped anyone, would usually be ill-fitting or totally irrelevant to you.
>>43947588I ended up in a mixed ward and I was stealth aside from like 3 of the nurses who knew caues they had to give me my meds. They ended up giving me my own room so I wouldn't be outed thank god. I remember on the first day this rly hot mexican dude who called himself scarecrow started flirting with me and tried to invite me to his room. I mostly hung out with him this 19 year old cis girl who was there for od'ing because everyone else was genuinely insane and I was afraid of them lmao. This one guy was pretty cool though and kept drawing me, pic is one of them. It was really scary and uncomfortable but luckily the worst thing that happened was being groped by a crazy woman.On the last day I was talking with a few people and the mexican guy and he told us that he hated "men who pretend to be women" which was scary but he was flirting with a tranny who he called hot for 3 days and didn't even know it LOL.
