I wanna do something creative with my life, but all of my creative endeavors have led to frustration. Mainly music. I see artists like Black Dresses turn their trauma into art that connects with me on an extremely deep level (and also art that's just really fun), and it makes me want to do the same. Music seems really simple initially. Understand basic music theory for chords and melodies, throw some cool sounds together, write some lyrics, and there's a song. But in practice it feels impossible to make anything that I'd actually listen to, and the feeling of ineptitude that it brings is extremely depressing. And it's not as if I just started learning how to make music, I've been playing instruments and messing around with DAWs since I was 13. Like, I've felt so much pain in my life, I feel like it's weighing me down, and trying to express it in a medium that I have a lot of passion for feels like trying to learn another language. And then I see all these other people with that same pain knowing exactly how to express it, and it makes me feel envious. Does anyone else have this experience?
>>43950397the only creative endeavor you'll ever actively pursue is one that is a compulsion and it fucking sucks to hear but its the truth. if there isnt a suicidal urge for you to make music in the face of anything else then you need to find some other method of self expression. that or keep practicing. i know its trite to say but keep making songs no one will listen to, by sheer hours put into the method you'll learn how to properly express yourself through the medium. and if thats too frustrating to keep up then find something else that does work. i write short stories that are read by 1-2 people maximum but usually by zero. ive been writing my whole life, the book im writing right now i dont expect anyone to read except maybe family and friends. ive also been drawing+playing music my whole life but none are as compulsive as writing is. im jealous of musicians too, every song ive ever made feels so limited in its expression but time is limited and unfortunately you need to pick a lane. also pain does nothing constructive. create with the joy of creation driven by your heart, surviving horrific circumstances doesnt make us creatively driven people it just makes us scared.
>>43950397>wanna do something creative with my life, but all of my creative endeavors have led to frustration. Mainly music. I see artists like Black Dresses turn their trauma into art that connects with me on an extremely deep level (and also art that's just really fun), and it makes me want to do the samefelt this so badly. but for me it’s drawing and writing
Same but it feels impossible lol. Idk why maybe its cuz im a boomer at heart but i always wanted to be in a band
>>43950397>>43950626Knowing im not alone in this helps, music will never be automatic for me but its nice when I get blessed with an idea and it flows even if the outcome is junk. I wish I was good enough to make something beautiful even if its short
>>43950763What do u use mainly for making music? Is it mainly daw or instruments?
>>43950772I use ableton rn i was on logic for a bit
>>43950397making your own music is pretty hard to learn and hard to get to a point where you make stuff that's actually good an enjoyable. And a lot of it is just luck and talent rather than practiceI think drawing is a much better outlet because it's easier to learn how to draw, and it's easier to get other people to appreciate your work. You can have fun drawing and make interesting art even if you aren't very good, which isn't so true about music
>>43950783Have u ever used fl studio or nah and are those things free cause i dont wanna pay for fl studio kek
I am all in art because autism doesn't let me do anything else and it makes me no money. I will probably kill myself once my funds run out
>>43950731>>43950763Can we make a group chat where we make and share and possibly collaborate with each other on our shit? could be fun
>>43950763keep at it nona, to create is to play and humans will be creatures of play for all of time.
>>43950397I want to make so much. I feel like something creative is calling to me. I feel like I could make something really great that people would like. But my passion has been buried by anguish and miserable circumstances. I don't feel like myself and I never really have. My transition regimen is good and I'm making progress but it's slow and I'm going to have to wait much longer before I start to begin to feel comfortable in my body at all. I feel really similar to you. I want to be known by something good that I made but I don't know how to uncover what the real purpose of my life is. I've just been a sex object ever since I was a kid
i lost my creativity somewhere along the way
>>43950821That would be cool if youd be down to share dc
if you’re not creating you’re dead
I've lost my urge to create, and I truly feel like I'm rotting. Can't get motivated enough when I'm painfully mediocre at every hobby. Only thing I still do is go thrifting sometimes because I want to look interesting to compensate for the fact that I feel like I don't have much else.
>>43951010sure! mine is crayonwaxx
https://soundcloud.com/dollthingvr/iforgotthenameofthesongJannies pls no ban
>>43951183This is fucking amazing holy fuck?
>>43950397>then I see all these other people with that same pain knowing exactly how to express it, and it makes me feel envious. >>Does anyone else have this experience?yeah all the time but i have a new perspective on it. like im too lazy to even watch tv these days let alone read i just scroll because i crave human interaction. but if i did an art it would be for myself. like as self therapy expression. and it would be total trash, unskilled and ugly, but totally unique to me. i kinda want a guitar and to draw again. i even had a tablet and used to deviantart. i kinda wanna just collect pedals and make cool noises. thats still art right? is skateboarding an art? you dont have to be good at it to have fun expressing yourself.
>>43951183youve got a real talent here
>>43950898that and my dreams
>>43950626>the only creative endeavor you'll ever actively pursue is one that is a compulsion and it fucking sucks to hear but its the truth. if there isnt a suicidal urge for you to make music in the face of anything else then you need to find some other method of self expression. that or keep practicing. i know its trite to say but keep making songs no one will listen to, by sheer hours put into the method you'll learn how to properly express yourself through the medium. and if thats too frustrating to keep up then find something else that does work.this is abysmal dogshit advice and wrong don't do this OP
>>43950397why, why in the world would music ever seem simple? even remotely. literally why!?!??!??learn proper music theory, study harmony, actually get decent at an instrument, study improvisation. GET A REAL SENSE OF RHYTHM!!! STOP BEING A DIME A DOZEN LAPTOP PRODUCER!!! and stop flagellating yourself over stupid shit the idea that pushing yourself to work makes you work harder is objectively wrong it only ever fucks you up more trust me>t.classical pianistyour problem is you have been acclimated to the postmodernist american ideal that is specifically designed to destroy art by presenting it as a wholly intangible form that cannot be attacked with true effort and has to come 'from da soul' immediately. thusly noone else in the thread is likely to understand how it works and this is guaranteed to be the most white trash thread on the planet>>43950626im sorry but this advice couldnt have been worse
Art is just work. Put in the toil and you'll get results. Nothing else to it
>>43953605so did i successfully convince nona that she can write? yippee
>>43953605So when's that book coming out?
>>43953948>>43953854Never because i'm uniquely unskilled unlike OP who is very good at what she does.
>>43953961i'm going to inject you with pure talent enanthate and you will be able to write all the books and songs you want, come here. ignore the label on the vial it's jewish propaganda
>>43953512>t. two-bit intellectual who can't rock & roll
>>43954157fuck.............. no... that's..... not fucking trve........................... i can play parallel 5ths i swear,,,..... please,,,,,,,,,,,,.............
