How do I get over the fact that I'll never be a male?I'll never have a penis. I'll never have male secondary sex characteristics. I'll never have a male bone structure. I'll never have a male brain. I'll never have the male socialization I should have grown up having. I'll never be taller than 5 feet. I'll never really look like a male. I'd do anything to be born as a male and behave like a male and think like a male and be a male, but I never will. Even if I stop being a repper and start HRT and transition, I'll never truly be male.Pic related, when I was a kid I wanted to look like him so bad, and I still do. Why couldn't I have straight legs like that? Why couldn't my face be as angular as his? Why couldn't I have the ability to grow a nice mustache? Hate my life.
Become a nice handsome chaser’s boiwife.
If you'd been born for it, you would've had the physiognomy of a butch, and you'd know how to fix a broken lawnmower, and you wouldn't make stupid posts like this. But here you are, wanting things you weren't destined for.
>>43954496She should become butch.
>>43954482You'll never be a chad*You can be male if you lock in because most males look like shit
>>43954555This is the problem with alot of FTMS, their transitioning goals are just not realistic.
>>43954555That's actually pretty uplifting. Thank you.>>43954522I'd love to just be butch. I wish I could be content just being butch. That would make everything so much easier.>>43954490I'd settle for that if he'd let me top.
>>43954588You're right.
>>43954482Do you have anything going on in your life besides obsessing over mustaches, chins and legs?
>>43954588...as opposed to skirt-spinny trans women?
>>43954650Who is that beautiful young woman? Shockingly gorgeous!
>>43954588The average successful MTF transition looks indistinguishable from a cis woman. The average successful FTM transition always has something uncannily female about them. It's not unrealistic to want to pass to yourself as well
>>43954660>>43954666>make one post where i don’t mention mtfsstill get bombarded with stupid anons talking about mtfs
>>43954650Yeah. I'm not as chronically online as I was, I'm volunteering at multiple places between semesters, I'm meeting up with new people and making friends, and I'm way more active in my local community. I was interviewed for the local news the other day. I'm just wicked depressed right now.
>>43954688How old are you?
>>43954482Just understand that everything you have is designed to attract a man like that to enter you for the purpose of reproduction
>>4395470624 now. Been repping for over a decade.
>>43954733Why not just do it? Who gaf?
>>43954707Such is true. We kinda just exist to breed, if you really think about it.
>>43954745Lots of reasons. My parents wouldn't allow me to transition young (so I couldn't even if I wanted to), I was terrified of the social and financial costs of transitioning once I became an adult, and more recently I've been in a relationship with a guy for 3+ years who didn't want me to transition and I loved him so I chose him instead. Which really fucking sucks now because we're on the cusp of a break up over shit neither of us can really control.I think I will once we do end it, actually.
>>43954688>I'm not as chronically online as I was, I'm volunteering at multiple places between semesters, I'm meeting up with new people and making friends, and I'm way more active in my local community. I was interviewed for the local news the other day.Well, that's great, no? Hope you enjoy the stuff you do.>I'm just wicked depressed right now.Weird, with the sun and all you should be less depressed in this time of year.Have you done your routine check ups? Do you sleep well, eat your veggies, stay hydrated, etc.?
>>43954751That's how I cope I get the man I desire to use me and in return we combine essences as one body during every thrust. That's how I transition
>>43954782Beautiful gay
>>43954777>once we DO end itUhhh??? So you know you’re probably gonna end it eventually??? Why not just start now and that can be your excuse???
>>43954779It is good, but I think the dysphoria is just kicking my ass which is why I'm so depressed, I guess. Plus my man and I are on the cusp of breaking up, which doesn't help.I do sleep well, but I could be doing better nutrition-wise. I see my doc at the end of the month. Probably should start working out again, that might help.>>43954806We're probably gonna end it this week or next, when we see each other next. Irreconcilable differences even without the repping. You're right, I could also have that be my excuse. Hell, it probably will be. He knows that I'm a repper, so it's not like it's out of left field for him. I just want to break up in a way that doesn't hurt him as much and doesn't make me feel like a massive asshole since I know he's gonna cry really really hard.
>>43954841Why are you ruining your relationship to look like a teenage boy with a paedo stache?
>>43954841Oh my god, don’t listen to his cries pls! Be strong! I believe in you!
>>43954859I'm not ruining my relationship over that. The relationship is already failing since the both of us feel we've hit a brick wall and can't move forward due to personal differences.He's 21 years older than me. There's generational and age differences that we can't reconcile, aside from a few other things that have nothing to do with my repping.
>>43954890>21 years older then meWhy tf are u dating an old man? And you would have only been like 21 when he was well into his 40s when u got together?
>>43954890Do you bring up zoomer memes to him and he just doesn't get it?
>>43954896We clicked when we met and we fell in love. Similar pasts, similar interests, similar worldviews, similar approaches to spirituality, and we got along really, really well on top of it. Not much else to it, really, aside from that.
>>43954909Lmao, sometimes. I wish that was out main point of contention.
>>43954777>I've been in a relationship with a guy for 3+ years who didn't want me to transition and I loved him so I chose him insteadfoid socialization and privilege, wew>>43954841>I just want to break up in a way that doesn't hurt him as much and doesn't make me feel like a massive asshole since I know he's gonna cry really really hard.otoh foid caring for the feelings of someone elseyou're gonna be a pretty morally-decent dude when you transition, anon>>43954890>21 years olderok now I feel less bad about my concerningly big age gap relationship. how old were you when you two met?
>>43954922what would you say is the biggest issue? You seem similar to him in pretty much everything
>>43954890be honest is the dick good?
>>43954928>you're gonna be a pretty morally-decent dude when you transition, anonThank you, I appreciate that. I hope so.We met when I was 20 and he was 41.
>>43954969Are u American?
>>43954918I'm so jealous now I need a man like this. Problem is how to get one as a pooner?
>>43955019steal his heat before you masc up
>>43954961>>43954941Our biggest issue is that a combined social life is very important for him and his relationships. I try to jive with the people he hangs out with, and I'm friends with a good chunk of 'em, but they're just not the type of people I chill with regularly. Meanwhile, he doesn't really jive with the type of people I do. I'm friends with people who are generally more alt, more geeky, more self-admitted weirdos (not degens, though, really), which he's not really into. The problem comes in since we can't really mix the friend groups, since they're different kinds of people. The only fix I can see if one of us (probably me, lmao) seeing one friend group less in favor of the other friend group so we can do more things together and have a shared social life.Another thing that he brought up is that he's more of an outside person and I'm more of an inside person. Not that this was that bad in the first few years, but a lot of the time I'm inside and working on my art or writing, while he wants to be outside hiking, chopping wood, etc. It's become a bigger point of contention as time goes on, really.My main problem is is that he expects me to do all the changing to accommodate him in terms of what our problems are. If we "fix" the social issue, it's my friend group that's going to fall to the wayside. If we "fix" the inside v. outside activity debacle, it's my hobbies that I'm going to have to engage less in. I've already done similar for him, not going to groups or events or hanging out with people because he'd rather me not, and he's straight-up said on occasion that he's too old to change now.>>43954961We've never had sex. He's part of a Third Order, so he's taken a vow of chastity.>>43954981Yes.>>43955019Pure luck, plain and simple. Even more so as a pooner. Good luck, my friend.
>>43955072Perhaps you can stay friends but I feel like you should definitely transition
>>43955072have you seen his dick? I bet he's hot being so rugged, outdoorsy and all that
>>43955087I hope we can stay friends, but I think it might hurt the both of us too much. At least in the beginning. Maybe once the pain has died down we can reconnect, but I don't know if it'd feel weird for him to stay friends with an ex who's transitioning.>>43955099Yes, and he's hot as hell. We just haven't fucked yet.
>>43955072you mentioned that you have similar approaches to spirituality, are you also going to join the monks after your balls drop?
>>43955173Nah. I'll still fuck heavy with the Franciscans, though.
>>43955072>If we "fix" the social issue, it's my friend group that's going to fall to the wayside. If we "fix" the inside v. outside activity debacle, it's my hobbies that I'm going to have to engage less in.I know this isn't really the topic of the thread but honestly this does sound like something he can learn to accept. I think he'd rather have you over chopping wood
>>43955157has he seen you naked? sorry im goon brained
I’m sorry, what kinda future does this man think you and him will have? Or ever thought? >cohabitates with you but won’t put a ring on it?>vow of “chastity” yet lives with an AFAB>21 years older
>>43954482Your gender is not your body, socialization, or fashion. You don't have to give up anything that is innate to you. I'm sorry there's a lot of cis people in the world who don't understand but you need to take responsibility for yourself and live a good life with the means you have.
>>43955306He thought we'd get married at some point and have a kid or two, as did I.He let me live with him because the college I attend is right down the street, but he didn't want to get married while I'm in college because he'd been married before and it happened while HE was in college, and it went really badly. So he didn't want a repeat of that.I thought we'd have a nice, cozy future with an apartment and a cat and a kid. But I think I was just being young and stupid and in love. Both in thinking it would work and we'd get that AND that the dysphoria would eventually go away so I could have that.>>43955333You're right.
