old>>43904369qott: When was the last time you made eye contact with a man you loved?
gincel psyop
I wish I were a woman!
>>43965830never...
>>43966108Do you wish it were different?
>>43966173of course
>>43966237What's stopping you?
>>43966828im ugly socially dysfunctional khhv
>>43966954just talk to people, the worst they can do is be rudea LOT of people are ugly, dare I say most
>>43966962especially ugly then, also literally how everyone i talk to irl ignores me at best or hates me
>>43966967>especially ugly then, also literally how everyone i talk to irl ignores me at best or hates mewelcome to being queer
>>43967154i know nothing about whats it like being queer, i look like a cis man nobody knows a thing
>>43967196the trick is in how you act
>>43967203i guess i act like a malebrained man, but ive been called gay as insult if it counts. it never even started
I wish there was a way to indulge in gender euphoria without also increasing gender dysphoria
i will never be barefoot and pregnant in my husband's housewhats the point
Are we seriously posting in the gincel bait thread again?
I fucked up, I just ordered a bunch of dresses from the internet. i couldn't stop myself. i'm sorry.
>>43965830take your HRT, retards
>>43968473won't do shit
>>43968473you told me this a year ago, im about to reach a year on hrt and its the biggest mistake of my life. im not really trans i cant pass and im only more miserable
>>43968516what was the alternative? do you think you can just repress it for the rest of your life?
>>43968473I can't pass, i'm 6'1" and broad shouldered
>>43968528>do you think you can just repress it for the rest of your life?Speaking on behalf of everyone here, yes.
>YOU HAVE TO TRANSITION OR YOU WILL KILL YOURSELFWhy are trannies like this?
>>43968539just be a feminine man
>>43968539you don't have to pass, perfectly or at all, for some degree of transition to improve your quality of life or start you in that direction>>43968546good luck lol>>43968552I'm not saying you will kill yourself but you will be an increasingly miserable and hollow shell of a person until you do something about ithttps://www.avitale.com/essays-details/?name=the-gender-variant-phenomenon--a-developmental-review-5repression doesn't work
>>43968577I don't have gender dysphoria. I don't want to transition.
>>43968577>repression doesn't workavitale (the author) is a gigahontransition doesn't work either
>>43968597oh, that's awesome! good for you! so... what are you doing ITT?>>43968611>transition doesn't work eithersorry, chud, facts and statistics don't care about your feelings
>>43968629>ask cult members if they love the cult>yes, they do!
>>43968629I don't know. I think I'm going crazy.
>>43968674retard>>43968677lolfrom experience, you sound like one of the sad sacks trying desperately to differentiate their dissatisfaction with the traits of their natal sex from "real" "gender dysphoria," if I had to guess... take it seriously
>>43968528i dont think that and in a way youre right, there is no alternative and i dont have it in me to repress it for the rest of my life. i just want to kill myself so much im so lonely and im clearly not trans every other trans person 1 year in would be happy would have some physical change anything im so lonely
>>43968699noted actress abigail thorn disputes that dysphoria exists at all
>>43966108yep. this
>>43968746that is, at best, a misguided rejection of unnecessary or excessive medicalization and kowtowing to cisheteronormativity to gain access to care
>>43968473i'm working on it
>>43968744>every other trans person 1 year in would be happylollmao
>>43968764So repgen is against heteronormativity? You don't think you need to be a woman to date men?
>>43969128literally what???
How are we tonight repbros?
>>43969138
>>43969138Meh pretty bad, could be worse.
>>43969137You guys are against the imposition of heterosexuality for all?
>>43969174i think you can be as gay as you want and that's great, i'm just not myself.
>>43969174I don't know, and what does that have to do with the other non-sequitur about philosophy toobs? I'm also an invader here because I'm not a repressor here anymore so I can't speak for others' beliefs but I think people should be allowed to be and fuck who and what they want if they're not hurting anyone (and repression is hurting yourself and making yourself a worse person to yourself and those around you)
>>43969203>that is, at best, a misguided rejection of unnecessary or excessive medicalization and kowtowing to cisheteronormativity to gain access to carethe concept of heteronormativity was brought up by another anon first many here are attracted to men, but feel they should be a woman before dating men, is that wrong?
>>43969227I think that's a projection or an oversimplification, but having a gender identity at odds with your lived gender role and/or physical sex traits does often hold people with some form or degree of gender dysphoria from engaging in fulfilling romantic and sexual relationships and that's probably at least a little the fault of restrictive enforcement of gendered social roles in general and cisheteronormativity (which is the thing I was suggesting toob was railing against in that heavy-handed and ultimately useless claim that dysphoria isn't "real")
>>43969264I hate gendered social roles.
why didn't you pinkpill me when i was younger
why didn't anyone groom me
>>43969112they aren't so socially isolated as me, something is wrong with me as a person transition didn't fix, I thought I would be happy by now
im really losing it MAKE ME INTO A GIRL NOW
>>43969278>>43969374you were far too ugly
>>43969510:(
>>43969510yeah
>>43965830about an hour ago>>43969374did you actively seek it?i'm very grateful to someone in /repgen/ who told me two years ago that waiting to be saved/groomed is a dead end.so i came out as a faggot and actively sought a masc man willing to dominate me and feminize me in a way that makes me want to submit to him. took over a year to find him, but eventually i did.maybe iwnbaw, but i'm more feminine and functional now than i ever been in my life. finally heading in a direction that feels right.
>>43968473HRT won't unrape me or turn everyone into an anthro woman.
>>43968577>you don't have to pass, perfectly or at all, for some degree of transition to improve your quality of life or start you in that direction$50 HRT butch flags are the same ones that keep the two minute "stuttgart 2025 femboy convention" hate threads up to mock ugly people.
>>43969138Genuinely enjoying the Digital Circus finale and fan art.
>>43968473honestly considering a trial run of a few monthsif it doesnt work out i'm roping tho
>>43969807jax is just like me (repping until i kill myself)
>>43969807You just have a humiliation fetish
please make it stop
>>43970234>What could be more humiliatingdating a dominant masc man who is determined to make me his wife. which is what i'm doing.
I'm honestly partly convinced at this point that this insane, irrepressible urge to feminize oneself has its source in a supernatural entity who enjoys toying with pathetic loser males since their psychic defenses are low. Thinking about the person who is myself transitioning and struggling with this fetish, as if it were not me, is genuinely some of the funniest comedy I could think of. I so get why a 4D motherfucker would wanna torture me for fun. Pic rel is not me but it illustrates the point
>>43970330seeing ray(chel) go full religious schizo convinced me to get on the girljuice. better to be an estrogenized fag than whatver ray has been doing.
>>43970353The jesus simping was cringe but during that phase he was dropping denialbunker-busting truthnooks every other day compared to now where he is deliriously honposting like he's on Susan's place. Catholic repper Ray was highly superior than whatever retardmode he is tuned into now.
>>43969138I want to kill myself
>>43969807jax is pretty relatable and the ending is pretty good. i know it's not intended to be read in this way, but jax roping instead of trooning out after all he's been through has been the closest i've seen someone "get" us. obviously gooseworx is pulling a "there's still time! the tv glows" or whatever, but seeing a character who also struggles with these feelings being actually fucked up and straight up failing at healing is refreshing. not everyone can make it. any other creator would just make him come back from abstraction and get his happy ending.
>>43970138>AU where Ribbit bullys Jax into abstraction before Pomni gets in the circus>"Stupid fucking rabbit, being a woman isn't a feeling a man can have">"I bet you treat girls in public restrooms like you pushed your mother">"Aww daddy didn't love you because you couldn't man up now you think it isn't a fetish you wear a dress?">"Pomni stop asking about that stupid fucking rabbit... oh you don't know what he tried to do to me in my room don't you?"
>>43970391>Catholic repper Ray was highly superior than whatever retardmode he is tuned into nowi disagree. but that's because i despise religious retards, and cucktholics in particular.the utter destruction of cucktholicism would instantly make the world a better place. catholics should be hunted for sport, lowkey.
kissing other men
>>43970834A single toenail from a retarded salt-of-the-earth christcuck is worth more than the lives of a million narcissistic autogynephilic troglodytes IMO
>>43970899neah. christcucks are straight up subhuman. just because other subhumans exist doesn't suddenly make chirstcucks tolerable.>A single toenail from a retarded salt-of-the-earth christcuck is worth more than the lives of a million narcissistic autogynephilic troglodytesbe happy you haven't been harmed by them (yet), which allows you to hold such an extremist (and factually false) belief.the most retarded psychotic agp is a lot less harmful than any christcuck no matter how harmless (s)he may appear.
the closer I get to transitioning the sadder I get
>>43970658Looking at the rest of this board transitioning is not a happy ending, they're all still shitty hate filled people who regularly wish death on others.
>>43971796To be fair I think that's more to do with the nature of this website.
>>43971810Associating feminine people with evil, humiliation, punishment, hatred is a universal thing.
>>43969138I'll be better when I get some booze in me
all i want to do is cry(but naturally the tears dont come out)
>>43971838Forget crying I feel like screaming.
>>43971886i dont have the energy to scream. i feel like im wearing a lead vest
>>43970330
>>43971886screaming sounds gross unless you can't hear yourself
my therapist told me she thinks I can pass and I really don't believe her
>>43972081Best way to do it is into a pillow with noise cancelling headphones to not hear my moided vocal cords.
Sometimes I think about my existence.So far, I have not completed anything noteworthy or memorable. The most attention I've ever gotten was getting 10 or 12 replies in a post in a previous repressor general, and no, that is not me trying to be funny. My struggles and pains will be completely forgotten, become lost knowledge (if you want to add some intrinsic value to human experiences, therefore turning them into something useful), when I breathe my last breath. When I die, from the outside, I'll just look like a miserable man and nobody in the entire world will be aware of what was tormenting me my whole life. I can hear the awkward eulogies from family members from here, calling me a "bright young man with a great future ahead of him", or something of the sort.Although I am indeed miserable and mediocre, I could've been so much more if only I had not been cursed at birth with autogynephilia. This affliction, something that has been a ball and chain locked to my ankle for as long as I remember, has been the biggest obstacle in my life, bigger than geography, family or finances. I don't go to the gym because I don't want to risk gaining any muscle, I let my family run my life because I don't know what to do with it and I want to kill myself because I have become trapped in an existence I despise. Just how many of us have lived and died like this? How many famous people were just like us, but never shared it? Why did this happen to me in specific? There's just so many questions we'll never know the answer to.What about you, anon? What are you thinking about tonight?
>>43970330you're not the first to discuss this theory
punching myself feels so good
stupid old man
>>43969138i went to a lego convention and saw 10 trannies enjoying their lives while i continue to sufferi want to die
>>43972666The few times I've seen a tranny irl I felt like I was having a mini mental breakdown afterwards, hon or passoid doesn't matter.
i want repper gf
i am a troony foid silly li'l foidy troon foid
>>43970330this is what he actually believed
>>43973110I never paid attention to the mtfrep flag before this actually goes hard
>kidnapping and forcibly transitioning reppers>making them wear disney princess dresses
>>43965830you're ruining men for me please stop
>>43973223can I get a different dress I don't like disney
It's just OCD
>>43973314>just
>>43972125Feeling no control over my own existence in a similar way. Everything forced upon me. Like none of my thoughts or feelings about anything are real or legitimate. Being a formless nonperson.
Acknowledging any aspect of my experience as not a fetish would mean I potentially wasted 30 years of my life. It's in my best interest to continue "repping" (parantheses to emphasize it's just a fetish) because the alternative that any of this is real means I fucked up bigly.
>>43973223>as drawn by rusheloc
I wasted my life
>>43973613yeah
It's such a mess that we'll never experience sex the way the opposite sex does. I believe that a large part of the desires that people call transsexuals have comes from this frustration. I always thought that sex would be better if I were a woman. But, thinking about it, the biggest inadequacy comes from the impossibility of having both.
i'm happy for the young transitioners but seeing one of them makes me want to kill myself
hi
>>43974158real
I’m fake.
>>43973210Explain
Do you jerk off?
>>43975242Yeah
>>43975313How often?
>>43975477Usually once per day, sometimes twice
>>43972700>passoid>i could've been that>hon>that's all i could ever be
>>43975242No I hate my dick.>>43975745It's more being reminded that they actually exist in real life, but that too.
I want to disappear
>>439754774 - 5 times a day.
I'm starting a new movement, the Snup! movement. Snupism includes 1) caring for others, 2) caring for yourself, and 3) disregarding any abnormal gender feelings when you experience them.Stop rotting, start living, start Snuping!
>>4397547712 times a day
>>43977558dayuuuuuum
>>43977533This, but without being a limpwristed attentionwhore
>>43977533But I hate myself.
>>43975242Haven't in years. No more erections.t. vibrator enjoyer
>>43978041yikes
Have you ever told a therapist about your tranny thoughts? Did they try and get you to train?
>>43980233>trainTrain how? Gym maxxing?
>>43980233What if you told your therapist your tranny thoughts and they told you to just accept being gay and physically handed you a stack of books about gay coming out stories?
>>43980233I've told my therapist about it, including Blanchard's typology and wanting to inject my balls with 190 proof everclear.
>>43980269fuck. train was supposed to be troon
>>43980389How did that go?
>>43980441He didn't react poorly, but I think he's at a loss for what to do with me at this point. Originally he tried to get me to "accept myself" but that was a dead end.
>>43980480Just let 4chan be you're therapis, we know what we'are doing here. Experts.
>>43980559I can help anyone here accept themselves as gay and be free of gender delusions, but of course you don't want that. You see how women lead cushy easy lives with far less homophobia, and the jealousy melted your brain.
kys gincel
>>43979814what? it's lovely actually. no more strong troon thoughts, i learned to live as an estrogenized faggot and life has simply gotten better.
>>43980743>i just nuke my sex drive with chemicals and now im a robot i love being a stepford wifeBEEP
I need a drink, being conscious sucks.
>>43981000i need a gun, being conscious sucks
Whenever it comes back, my main way of coping is by losing weight and doing skincare.
>>43980295I wish I was gay
>>43981057real
>>43981175Is someone stopping you from dating other men?
>>43981701his husband
>>43981701I'd still want to be a girl
oh how i wish humans were examples of the right
>>43981789tell yourself you are a girl, while dating men, without taking estrogen
>>43981923but I like women too. what do men have to do with it
I wish I was a gay woman
I wish I was a straight woman
I wish I was a bi woman
why didn't you make me into a woman
I wish we could all be gay men, together.
>>43981880that just means the females have ways of identifying males without relying on sight, perhaps smell say
>>43981880that would take away some of beauty to it, wouldnt it
why be a troon when you can just be aesthetic
>>43982839not if we all looked like women, male or female :^)
>>43984030It would take away from the meta attraction aspect.
>>43983853
>>43984030People who think like this unironically have worse taste than gay men. We get it, you're a porn addict and never had positive male role models. Stop acting like your clearly diseased mindset has any bearing on reality
>>43984112would repression have saved him?
>>43983853i don't want to be aesthetic i want to be a girl
>>43980761>nuke my sex drivelol no. it did come back. i just trained myself against erections. better for me and my bf.
>>43968473i may yet
>>43984112Would've passed if he wasn't allergic to razors and showers
gay sex with other men
straight sex with other men
gay sex with other reppers
Starting to feel like all the tranny thoughts are a self perpetuated psyop.
i want and deserve a vagina
>>43970658this guy gets it
see i know it must be some agp shit causing this for me, because while i don't literally fantasize about having sex as a woman, this is the kind of woman that gives me the most intense jealousy about not being one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUsDqzqQqmg
Hunger strike as a punitive measure against myself to appease god enough to make me a girl or at least not hate myself as much.
>>43975242No because touching my genitals grosses me out. I just finger myself or grind against the bed fully clothed every once in a while when I feel the need.
>>43980233>talking to TheRapist
It is over
>>43985820they are
I will never have the beautiful life I spend all day dreaming about
Its getting hard to hide that im not a feminist in front of my liberal family
Sometimes I wonder if I could have estrogen as an emergency drug for really bad dysphoria days. That way I get through the worst of it but I don't transition.
>>43987482Been contemplating something like this. Or ill only take it on days i feel I deserve to
never taking estrogen and not thinking about it either
>>43965830>qottmy boyfriend, before we went long-distance. i hugged him and cried in his arms after having a stressful day moving out. we're seeing each other again next month
>>43986896Well it succeeded
>>43988843next step: self psyop into trooning and become a good boiwife.
I wish transitioning was just some boring shit you do and nobody cared.
>>43987482Wish I could do this and remain content just existing but It would never be enough. If I allow myself any HRT I'd want laser, if I allow myself laser I'd want FFS, if I allow myself FFS I'd want SRS, if I allow myself SRS I'd want VFS, clavicle reduction, ribcage remodeling, etc. All for what, to still just remain some 3rd gender nonpassing freak.>>43989081Don't temp me anon.
if someone bought me hrt I'd probably take it. I just have to save all my income right now for various bullshit.
My mom just showed me a picture of some kid I vaguely knew back in school who trooned out into a complete luckshit. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK AHHHHHHHHHHH!Using this as an excuse to get drunk again.
>>43989713>Don't temp me anonlife is short, anon. and hard repping is a never ending hell.>if I allow myself FFS I'd want SRSi'm going the other way around. getting srs later this year. ffs maybe never or maybe in a few years.sure, iwnbaw, but i can be a good boiwife.
>>43990274why did she do that
>>43990589I'm basically being forcerepped and have already given up on life mostly.>>43991110Hopefully not because she knows I'm a repping tranny faggot. She was probably showing me because she thought I'd find it funny.
STOP beaming horny agp thoughts into my head this is humiliating
>>43992370I thought everyone here is HSTS?
>>43992618no I'm one of the agp transbian autistic ogrerapehon lateshit etc types
>>43992618Yeah we're all totally hsts trutrans over here nona.
>>43992676Well, I only like men. Don't you?
>>43992618No im only 50 percent trutrans
>>43984518from one bob to another, there really is no point in repressing unless you're literally going to lose your home or life over it
>>43992618I like men 10% more than women
why is everyone so mean to late transitionersit's not my fault
>>43992680Not him but I only like men while im a woman. Nothing else.I wish I could be gay sometimes
>>43993051maybe you are underestimating because you view liking women as more normative
>>43992680I'm pretty much functionally asexual and most of my attraction towards men is meta attraction.
someone misgendered me todayi felt happy
im dying
>>43993139>ok i like men but ummmmm>ummmmmm
>>43965830Qott. 2 years ago when i went to stay with him. I miss him so much it hurts..at least we still talk everyday
>>43993969wtf have you been doing over the last 2 years that you haven't figured out a way to live together?i swear you people are your own worst enemies. baka....
Why do dumb faggots who dont understand paraphilias come into our thread to groom us into becoming sodomites? Dont they have enough fem bottoms already?
>>43994001>Dont they have enough fem bottoms already?I actually want a masc top :3Reppers should in fact pursue fem bottoms.
i should stop repping so i don't get groomed by gay men
never troon
>>43994059Who do you want a masc top who secretly gets off to being a submissive woman?
it's ok to be gay
I wish I was gay, but I want a vagina
>>43994092because he'd appreciate it the most when I affirm and encourage his masculinity.he also gets to feminize me and offload his fantasies on me. we both win.>>43994206real.but i'm actually getting one.
>>43994206pretend your anus is a vagina
why are gay men so evil
Well I tried detransing and I got a fleshlight during an episode but I'm actually not into it! So I think I'll consider shooting myself instead or something fun and free
>>43994343Yea, no thanks. I don't think anyone here would like your used up, aids-ridden shithole or, worse, a pus-filled bleeding woundhole when all they truly want is a woman.
>>43994423>crab in the bucketI don't think you speak for most, let alone all people here.
this nonsense is what happens when you all keep responding to the gincel bait threadnow if you'll excuse me, the only post here worth looking at:>>43994074waow
>>43994448Thinking a community of people who wish they were either straight women or lesbians would seriously wanna dom a flamboyant gay man is ambitious at best, insultingly stupid at worst.
>>43993988He's in grad school and stays with his mom cause she has problems and needs care. Similar situation on my end but im not in school and dont make enough to move yet..shit happens..
are we a community?
>>43994869more like a leper colony
gay men are the exact opposite of evil
Had a bad day so I relapsed into spending 4 hours masturbating to gentlefem chatbot
a repper colony, heh
>book flight to repper colony island>finally, people like me>get there>get off the plane>its 100% just flamboyant gay men>also, the runway explodes after you get off the plane so there's no way out and the nearby sea is filled with huge rocks, big waves, and orcas that know how to flip over boatswwat do
next time can we get a non-gincel thread
>>43995129>flamboyant gay menyou'll find more sad bottom than flamboyant imo>>43995140qott: what medieval torture device is gincel most deserving of?
Would you support the creation of a repper ethnostate, anon?
