I can't help but feel like an fake woman. I would feel disgusted using my tranny name in public. Social dysphoria makes it difficult yet I perservere. It hurts knowing I'll always be seen as a man but I push those thoughts away
Nona needs boyremoval
Age + time on hrt
>>4398297820 5 years
>>43983000Oh fuck off. You probably pass.I’m a true man moder, 22, 3 months
>>43983000kys
>>43980941I still boymode because I really dont pass, the biggest mistake was changing my legal gender and name, as it's free in my country I jumped at it, but now having to use my documents make me feel terrible because as soon as I give them, they always give me a disgusting look, I feel like shit and wish I never changed it, at least they wouldnt treat me as a freak tranny.
>>43983000Wtf? I didn't make this>>43982978Age: Early 19Started at: Early 18
I started at 17 still boy/man modding at 24. OP is stolen valor.
>>43980941We're all fake women. That's the deal. Take HRT and get SRS, and if you pass well enough then you get to be a fake woman.
>>43983221How to get SRS without doing the RLE humiliation ritual?
>>43983227Are they making you do RLE without HRT?
>>43983259No I’ve been on HRT 7 years, DIY though so probably can’t get documentation of it. To get SRS they want RLE. I just wear androgynous clothes though I don’t want to look like a clown.
>>43983010Oh pleaseI'm the TRUE perma manmoder, starting at 30 and 6 months in. My topheavy body is a prison that turns estradiol valerate into sobbing sensitive man tears.
Can yall niggas stop saying you’re a perma anything when you’ve been on HRT for less than a year? Like I’ve been on for 7 this is true perma plasdenmoder not 6 months!!!!
>>43983275If you've been on HRT for seven years and you're still manmoding then what are you even doing.Some people used to present female only for appointments at the gender clinic and present male the rest of the time to get through the gatekeeping. But that was people who were expected to do RLE without HRT, or RLE while only just having started HRT.
>>43983306depression steals years of your life
>>43983324At this point why even bother continuing to take HRT?
>>43983352HRT improves mental health, even if you present as male.
>>43983306I don’t know honestly, I’m trying to fix it now. I just basically repped happy with having a boyfriend and being on HRT and that was enough for me, so I never did anything. Like last month it felt like I woke up after sleeping for years so I’m trying to fix my mistake and wasted years.
>>43983306what do you want us to do if we dont pass after 7 years hrt? manmoding is the only option lol
>>43983367It does not seem to have improved OP's mental health.>>43983369If you had a boyfriend then why did you need HRT?
>>43983352because being on the wrong hormones causes me pain and distress?
>>43983377>what do you want us to doShit or get off the pot.
>>43983381I got my bf like 2 years on HRT. I’ve been trying to save up for FFS since and finally am actually making good progress
>>43983383Are you not distressed now?
>>43983395I'm not gonna dress like a clown, girlmoding is impossible for me, but hrt at least alleviates a little bit of dysphoria
>>43983402I honestly can't fathom this mindset. If I'd been able to get a man to stick around then I'd never have transitioned.
>>43983404are you retarded?
>>43983424Why do you think I haven’t done anything else after getting him? I just was content with having a man but then recently he was like I love you but want you to get SRS and girlmode and stuff so now I’m trying to figure all that out
>>43983417Why not just dress up, have a wank, then realize in post-nut clarity that you're just a man who likes to be a crossie every now and then?
>>43983457because I dont get off by dressing as a woman? its not arousing, I do prefer wearing feminine things, but that would just get me to be beat up in the streets.
>>43983487What you're chasing is the post-nut clarity and the realization that you should just go be a man.
>>43983527nah, I cant be a man.
