>Be me; cis straight guy.>Meet girl through work, she's pretty cool from the get-go. We share a few hobbies.>Moving to a new apartment in some weeks.>Mention to her a week before moving, that I'll have to order some movers to help>She offers to help instead, for free>Waow, take her up on the offer>During the day of the move, I start realizing how kind and cute she is>Constantly pushing me to do more, in a healthy way. Made sure we got everything done in one day so I wouldn't have to do anything alone later.>Always smart ideas on how to do something, when I was super stressed and couldn't think straight.>One of our longer breaks, we sat on my bed and watched some clips from my friend group's chats. Think she's into our humour.>End of the day, she treats me to a meal. Almost all of our interactions, she's treated me to things.>Think to myself that I might've pulled one of the sickest chicks ever.>Few days pass>We've been chatting a lot more, I'm actively excited to message her every day>Find myself at her place, I've already been a couple times at this point>Watching some random bullshit on her TV, eventually land on some Veritasium video about routing>While watching, she keeps guessing what he'll say next, explaining things before the video's got to that point.>Tell her that it's a genuinely attractive trait, & realize myself that I've fallen for her.>She kicks up the explaining to 11, and brings me to her set-up to explain more stuff.>By the end, I ask her if she's interested in men. Tell her I'm interested.>"...I've never dated a guy?">Fuck. I knew she's a lesbian, she's obsessed with Hoyoverse and has anime girl merch everywhere.>What's with the non-answer though?>Keep chatting, the non-answer lives rent free in my head.>Every time I bring up the subject, she ignores the question and talks about something else>Finally, "I don't think it's right to assume I'm a lesbian.">Holy shit.jpeg
>A while later, end up at her place again.>Somehow end up with her head in my lap as she was showing me F1 memes>Playing with her hair as she drifts off to relax>Remembering how amazing it feels to give someone affection>Run my fingers through her hair, over her arm, eventually put my fingers in hers for a while and relax my own body on her couch.>Notice her fingers never moved while I wanted to hold her hand>Eek, probably an overstep. Back off and call it there for the night.>As we say our goodbyes, she asks for a big hug>Life is awesome>Overall, it's probably been a week or two since the move.>I'm taking things fast, but I've also had a busy life the past few months.>In the chance things don't work out, I want it over quick so it doesn't hurt so bad.>Texting her one day, out of nowhere get absolutely dead responses.>Slow texts back, not pushing the conversation>Not interested in my day, doesn't want to talk about hers.>Maybe she's going through stuff, I don't want to pry since she's not giving me an easy in to talk about it.>Decide it's my turn to do something for her, since she's been so helpful and nice to me.
>Next day, busy work day but I've got a few hours to kill.>Decide that while I'm out getting stuff for my new place, I'll drop by the nearby flower shop and get her some milk tea she's been obsessed with recently cause gacha stuff.>Local flower shop, the ladies there are so kind in helping me pick out options. I decided on a white/purple/pink bouquet that's pretty tall to help stand out but also accent her extremely pink room.>Call her to ask if she's home, expected an easy yes since she's pretty indoorsy.>No answer.>Boba store, sat there for like ten minutes cause I didn't realize the workers wouldn't come to the front counter and expected me to use the touch screen off to the side.>Pretty solid haul, ready to start walking over to her apartment>Send a text asking if she's around>"i am yeah">Could you get the elevator?>"i... would prefer if you would ask before coming over">Fuck. Really not the reaction I wanted to hear.>Try to save face. 'That's fair, I just wanted to drop them off'>Already know what's coming as I walk in.>Get told the flowers are nice, but she doesn't think it's going to work out.>She can't find attraction towards me.>I can't be that surprised, right? We both could tell before I confessed.>picrelIt's been almost a week. I'm not going to stop talking to her, I think we'll continue to get along great as friends, but it's pretty painful right now. I'm hoping that my feelings will go away quickly. The small doses of hope though... it's brutal. For now at least, I'm not seeing her in person, and easing up on how much I message.>Tell lots of individual friends and different friend groups this story to try and get over it>Get told to transition, again. For the tenth year in a row.How do I cope with being a straight guy when all the women I fall for are lesbians. I'm never going to find love. I wanna rope.
i dont get it is she trans
>>43982952She is, yeah
>>43982926desu this all sounds really sweet, ik it feels terrible rn but being friends who are affectionate toward each other in platonic ways sounds like a pretty nice way to live. I think you will be A ok, the highs come with the lows always!
