my transition didn't work and I found out that I am not actually trans but I still wish I could be a woman. Now what.
>>43989069>Now what.Kill yourself tranny
>>43989069>my transition didn't work Wdym by this? I see a lot of peeps on this board say transition didn't work.
>>43989069>still wish I could be a womanthats called being trans retard
>>43989095I'm not a tranny I detransitioned.>>43989118That I was not comfortable and realized I don't want to transition and I would rather be a man than trans.>>43989124Not trans
>>43989296>That I was not comfortable and realized I don't want to transition and I would rather be a man than trans.also yes that I couldn't pass. yes that too
Do the detrans grift
>>43990131would never. that's dumb
pls reply to my thread
pls
>>43989069This will be me in a year
>>43989069how did you "find out" you arent trans if you still wish you could be one
>>43991574It felt like me trying to become someone else instead of being myself. At the end I also felt jealous of men and wanted to be a man again. And also being trans is just bad for dating, I don't want to be alone
>>43991812i get that. its almost like imagining being a musician, then picking up a guitar and looking like a tryhard retard deluding yourself. but you have to push through. its like with depression where routinely eating well and getting exercise and sun is all many need, but it feels wrong and forced, so they stay sad. poor kitten
>>43991876that's seems like the wrong thing to do. if I feel like stopping then my mind is probably telling me something right? plus again at the end I wanted to be a man again. at the very least then I am probably not binary trans then. I am uncomfortable transitioning
>>43991947if you took estrogen and it felt wrong, and wanted to go back, then yes, you are likely just enby or gnc male.
>>43992024didn't feel wrong just wanted to be a man after 2 years
>>43992207complicated. since you are incentivized and rewarded with a lot of power and ease of living as a man.
>>43992207You will rope, I just know
>>43992333nice trips but nuh
>>43992510No one troons out on accident, ywnbam
>>43992707I'm sure it happens
>>43989069me too bro>>43992707it happened to me
>>43989069do you feel dysphoria for your tits? for your softer skin? for your weaker arms? for the way society treats women as lesser?and is it dysphoria inherent to having tits and being soft and weak or is it just a feeling that you aren't soft and weak and fat titted enough of a cow that makes you feel bad?dont get it mixed up if it's not like that, cuz detransition will be a greater misery for you than whatever inadequacy feeling is going on now
>>43991569hopefully you'll be different.>>43994634dang sucks>>43994672I don't feel dysphoria about my chest but I wear a binder around other people because I'm afraid of them seeing. honestly feel like it would just be better to be completely flat because I am fully detransitioned now. I don't really know why I want to be a woman I just sort of do.
>>43994713>oh no they can tell I'm trans I dont want to be perceived by the general publicand>FUCK IM SO FOIDED THE WIND BLEW IN AND IT MADE MY CLOTHES HUG MY DISGUSTING FAT CHEST FUCK I WANT TO DIEare very different feelings and I need you to recognize thismen feel the latter about gyno, albeit to differing degreeswomen do not
>>43994785ok I just thought about it, and I legitimately can't tell
>>43994838so it's a very strong feeling, ambiguity is a sign that it's the former, which is not as strong a feeling; general fear that you're hatecrime bait can be nasty but it's not the same kind of self loathing about your body that dysphoria is, I think the feeling is probably distinct between the two but ultimately only you can explore them enough to tell (and I hesitate to tell you to do so because exploring self loathing isnt a fun time or good for mental health)if you do actually feel it strongly you just cant decide which part the suicidal feelings are coming from that's a much bigger mess to untangle and I dont envy you for itand just to be clear if you do have transfem dysphoria and you dont feel it strongly now that's not invalidating that's a sign that you are the MVP of disassociating from it, which is not rare in this communityit can hit really fucking hard if someone does break through your disassociation to show that actually you do feel dysphoria, which is what I'm trying to do in some senses, so I have to be careful about that
>>439890691. Just continue transitioning, hopefully down the line you stop being retardedor2. Post your body online, maybe you will makes someones dayor3. Kill yourself
i dont want tits because i look like man with tits, if i had a flat chest and was a twink id feel more feminine, i care about femininity, not being female which i cant be even if i wanted to be.
>>43995481yea this is just transfem self loathing you're a girl already your body just has to play catchup with HRT
>>43994785not op, but I unironically can't tell which one it is for me either. I can't tell how I feel about all hrt effects actually
>>43995481personally I care about being female but can never have because it's impossible
>>43995121how about none of the above
>>43995074idk seems impossible to know. I guess I can talk about it in therapy but it's been like I years of questioning at this point I don't think I will ever know
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