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pre transition I got a tailored suit for ~$600 bucks. it no longer fits me with my big fat tits and hangs in my closet sadlysince then I literally only shop at thrift stores but I'm in the market for a truly perfect leather jacket and I'd drop dosh on that, but that's gotta be "the one" you know
uhh yullo
>>43991899you sound like a faggot
>>43991982Do you know what board youre on?
>>43991982irredeemably so
>>43992002Not that anon, but this is the cool board where non faggy fags that aren’t queer or faggy or committing some sort of gender fuckery hang out right? I don’t want to be associated with any of that because I’m not even the least bit faggy and don’t know what I would even say if I were in that sort of place.
>>43991782fursuit for 2k i guessive been feeling like shit the past day and a half, on the verge of crying constantly. im scared i underdosed my hrt last week and im getting fucked now. injection day tomorrow so ill know if this is it but fuck i feel horrible and disgusting
>>43992078I’m going to try not to be judgmental but that’s the appeal of the whole fursuit thing?
>>43992078>fursuit for 2k i guesslmao look at the furry everyone make fun of her hahahaha furry what kinda fursuit though
>>43992102its escapismi can pretend for just a bit that im not me, its fun. kinda like people who play dnd or do military larp or whatever>>43992124partial of my pink fox fursona. head paws stompers and tail.
>>43992145>its escapism>i can pretend for just a bit that im not meso realI used to be deep into furry shit and transitioning basically ended the interest since I didn't hate looking at myself anymore >partial of my pink fox fursonacute, my gf has a really nice head. red panda
she's just like me frfr
>>43992002Are you retarded? What does being lgbt have anything to do with someone being a faggot? You sound like an even stupider faggot
>>43992360so to be clear I sound like a faggot because I like leather coats and not because I'm a tranny cock addict
kigurumi > fursuits
>>43992360Are we talking about motorbike gangs now? Is this Southpark?
>>43992438that's not kigurumi, that's just a jap fursuitbut yeah everything the japs do is better
should i get bangs tho
>>43992551only if they're asymmetrical
>>43992551Can you get a phone app to simulate it?
>>43992069im sorry but you are still a faggot anon, its time to just accept it.>>43992360>What does being lgbt have anything to do with someone being a faggotThats basically the definition of what a faggot is lol>>43992551depends on what your face shape is like
>>43992551yes
>>43992569hmm..>>43992587i've tried to get gpt to do a mockup but i still cant pick its TOO scary>>43992600have you not seen my face? it looks like a man's >>43992603concise answer ty anon
>QOTT I can't recall, but I think I spent a little under 600 on a dress from Angelic Pretty one time, or it was a bit cheaper than that at around 400. I'm actually surprised now that I think about it, I have some really nice things.>>43992078I know you're worried about hrt and I am curious about your regimen (such as valerate vs enanthate, and what else you take), but I hope you're doing okay aside from that. Has anything unpleasant happened to you recently?>>43992471It's a "kigurumi style fursuit" and I don't know the maker of that one in particular, but they're known for being Chinese.
https://voca.ro/15b0cz0ijNxy
>>43992742oh well the chinese are pretty good at this stuff tooI thought kigurumi was a specific term though would it not just be fursuit-east?
>>43992665>have you not seen my face? it looks like a man'sThats what everyone on here says. I have not seen your face so i cannot accurately say if it would look good with bangs or not.
>>43992742im doing fine i guess. its just rough being a tranner especially these days. visiting my parents with my spouse for the first time since i started hrt, im anxious. but thanks for looking out for me, it means alot. i hope you're doing fine too.im doing enanthate injection monotherapy for now, 5-ish mg per week. i also gorge on food. i've been on hrt for just over 7 months, i intend on starting progesterone in a few months, but have to find a source for eu first. i've been looking into other supplements but im not really convinced any of it does much of anything.
>>43992783
>>43992847gross + comical amount of cakeface
>>43992866all iv got on there is eyeliner mascara and goofy eyeshadow wdym
>>43992847think about the way your hair is swept and consider that same movement with bangs if you willpersonally I don't know if it does much for you your forehead isn't a weakness
>>43992777Nice trips.kigurumi literally translates to "toy-costumed performer" or "mascot" and refers to a wide variety of things, calling the suit itself a kigu is technically wrong but weebs have been referring to things as kigus incorrectly for a long time now. Before like, a couple years ago, everyone called the animal-themed-pajamas kigus primarily, but newgens have shifted the meaning yet again.
>>43992895>animal-themed-pajamas kigus primarilyok that's what I thought it meant I guess this is not unlike the eternal drift of what exactly hentai or ecchi mean to english speaking weebs
>>43992894i think if i was gonna do it it'd have to be side swept everything else looks weird to mebut i think that might be because im used to parting my hair there already
>>43992982looking at the app model, don't do it. even the sideswept ages you. your forehead isn't neanderthal and you don't have wrinkles there so stick to that
>>43992838You could take pills on top of that to stabilize your levels and have less stress during trough. I've been using topical e nightly in addition to my injections and it's made me really happy.>I've been looking into supplementsYou won't get any benefit out of micronutrients your body already has which is probably going to be most of them. What's more it's better to get these things from food sources rather than supplements. If you can afford to, or you can get insurance to cover it, you should get a nutritional panel and check for levels like iron, vitamin d, and magnesium. I seem to know about that sort of thing, if you want help.>>43992847Are you anemic?>>43992866leave her alone, it's good that she's here.
>>43993012hmm..i do want to hide my brow bone tho>>43993050lol no why
>>43993078You're extremely pale. Paler than me, and I have an iron deficiency.
>>43993096idk i take my vitamins etc, occasionally eat a green thingam just pale i think
>>43993115do you eat red things also? get a lot of iron from those
>>43993175got steaks in the fridge to make this week ya
>>43993115Metabolism is complicated, sometimes you can be deficient in enzymes that absorb the nutrients. though maybe I'm just projecting.Anyways I think you should try bangs and see if you like them. I recently got bangs and was uncertain about them, but I believe you actually were encouraging about it and i look better now, I think.
>>43993200i dont bruise unusually or anything, are there any other telltale symptoms besides being pale as a ghost kek>you should try bangsim super worried im gonna regret it lmaobut ig i cant really get any more clocky so whatever
try bangs worst case you grow them outbetter to know if suits either way than worry for years and years
>>43993244low blood pressure, lethargy, fatigue, and dizziness when you stand up or do suddenly strenuous activities. It can also complexify balding in a way that the usual treatments don't account for.Bangs probably won't make you *more* clocky, and it will only be a few months that you have them anyway. From your image, I think wispy or full bangs look the best on you.
when i get bad bdd i put pics of myself into chatbots and ask what biological sex they think i amive asked grok gemini and chatgpt and they all say biological female with high certainty.does this happen to everyone or just passoids? is there like a setting they have where they just detect trans women and hugbox them?
I think we should get together every month and give an award to the poster w/ the lowest confirmed bmifeelin fucking obese at 140 rn I need some thinspo
>>43993447im ngl w you this is on the board of the most pathetic things ive read all calendar year
>>43993447It doesn't happen to just anyone but they don't really know what "biological female" means, they're not capable of imagining your features underneath clothes, they're not really capable of imagining what your body looks like from a different camera angle.>>43993459Numbers like that tell you nothing.
>>43993332maybe next blood test ill have them check for iron deficiency iv been pretty calorie restricted recently so iv chalked low blood pressure up to thathavent had any issues with hair loss or fatigue tho>>43993447wasnt there that whole gender detection platform recently
>>43993503thanks i go here to be shamed out of bad behaviors so i dont do them again
>>43993549>Numbers like that tell you nothing.no they tell you how fucking skinny you arethere has never been a person with 20 bmi looked skinnier than one with 17 I fuckin promise you
>>43992847belly laughed at this, sorry frendo you ask AI to design your outfits
My mom got mad at meI was probably in the wrongShe asked me to go swimming with her this summer. She knows that I hate swimming more than anything, so she asked me to do it as a favor. I agreed, and today she called in the favor. I said I would go do it, but then she asked me which day I would rather go. I said it's better to do it today so it can be over and I don't need to be anxious about it. She got upset with me and said she was cancelling our plans and made it clear she thinks I am being selfish. I wish it wasn't necessary to fake enthusiasm in relationships, but it's still my fault. It's a defect of my character to always have to say what i feel when it doesn't do anything productive. It would have made her very happy but instead I only made her upset.
>>43993724I feel like you're leaving something out
>>43993701what! its a dress kms
>>43993724it's a two way thing. if swimming makes you THAT uncomfortable your mom and really anyone you're close with should respect that and go swimming with someone else and if she wants to spend time with you she should find a more agreeable choice of activity - and you could do the same, actuallysocial life is a negotiation
>>43993762i'm not really. i needed to think a little to be able to say that i could go today but that's it.
>>43993773>it's a two way thing. if swimming makes you THAT uncomfortable your mom and really anyone you're close with should respect that and go swimming with someone else and if she wants to spend time with you she should find a more agreeable choice of activity - and you could do the same, actuallyi did. we have been watching tv together. she told me she wanted to stop doing that after i rewatched two seasons of a show to catch her up on it and we could watch the new season together, which honestly hurt my feelings.she spends most of her free time sleeping and we don't get much time together. Sometimes it feels like she wants to like me because of our family relationship but doesn't actually like my personality, to be blunt.
>>43993768oh it's just bc of the blue makeup matching with the blue highlights in the dress patternwouldn't have thought an autistic tim would've intentionally done that no offense>>43993799maybe she feels that the anxiety is due to being with her rather than swimming
>>43993898i do regret the blue eyeshadow that was a bad call kekhru pooge
>>43993913surprisingly stable all things consideredgot an haircut lately, showed the hairdresser David Sylvian but I look like Lord Farquaad lolmentioned it to my dad yesterday and he was like oh David sylvian was VERY sexy which like what lolmy dad also tried, as a twenty year old, to have like styled hair but said it didn't work bc he's not a feminine looking man like I amhopefully gonna be able to reschedule to orchi soon
>>43993975>and he was like oh David sylvian was VERY sexythis is just princess diana pretran change my mind>bc he's not a feminine looking man like I amlmao>reschedule to orchi soonwill this be second date or third?should i do bangs
>>43993898>maybe she feels that the anxiety is due to being with her rather than swimmingthat isnt true though. i do other things with her and theyre fine
>>43993619>They tell you how skinny you areThey don't. "Skinny" is a judgment made by people and not numbers, you prefer numbers because of how you were bullied or some other tragic incident.What's more even if you are going to use numbers, BMI is a much worse one than something like waist-hip ratio is, especially if you're not a body-builder. A 17 bmi person has a clinical condition, a 20 bmi person is simply less likely to have one. But they typically do, as women tend to be much less healthy than men are. The difference you're referring to is that which is sometimes used to differentiate between disorders like bulimia, orthorexia, and more severe cases of self-starvation.
>>43994123no I prefer numbers because it is a useful fucking heuristic retard im tryna see ribs
>>43994139just get fat youll be much happier. eat the burger
>>43994139>I'm tryna see ribsYou can satisfy your perversion with pictures of ribs on the internet. I can see my ribcage at 22 BMI, I could see them at 19 too and it was not flattering. >but muh numbersLike I said, WHR is right there and says more about attractiveness than BMI does. You seem afraid of it for some reason.
>>43994171>You seem afraid of it for some reason.honestly I didn't read all of your post but that seems more annoying fair enough though
Oh man it's fucking coming out. Had too much Taco Bell last night. Bout to pay the piper and the plumber. It's about to get annihilated
>>439940082nd>bangs couldn't hurt>princess diEnglish genetics L
>>43994200>couldn't hurtam big scared that it willwhat if im only avoiding getting bullied in public because i just look like a regular moid and when i add bangs then everybody will realize oh wait this is a tranny and say mean stuff ; -;
>>43994217iktf
sighat least evil dead 2 is on
When is our queen coming home to rule on her throne?
>>43994359laf is dating clav behind the scenes
>>43994217just wear a hat for awhile if you botch it
Maybe I'm smug, but I've had a fucking rough god damn life. Divorced parents, physically abusive mom + her boyfriends, been to juvie and jail, felon for a crime I didn't even fucking commit, dead boyfriend, oh and unpassing tranny while working in the car industry where we say tranny all the time. And I'm a pretty fucking happy fucking person. I have my rough times but they don't last too long and for the most part I'm pretty happy with a dog shit job and a dog shit apartment cause at least I got this shit going for me. Then I talk to some people who I'm like, damn okay that's bad but like you can easily persevere, and they'll be the most miserable, self hating, depressed, suicidal people I've ever talked to. Most of them pass better than me, or have better jobs, or both, and I'm just like, damn I think you're just going to be stuck this way. Is it just brain chemistry? I feel terrible saying this about friends, but like why are they so fucking sad they really do have a lot going for them and not to be dismissive but their problems are pretty common. What's the secret I want to help my buddies
im brown
>>43994372yea.. thats truei have good hats>>43994400hey brownie
>>43994376a little bit of hardship is good for the soul
>>43994376It's not just *brain* chemistry. People regularly neglect their health in a myriad of ways, it leads to them being terminally sad. Those who care about being healthy are usually completely delusional about it.It's been helpful for me to realize that the personalities people wear are just masks that they use to have their needs met, and that they usually have no conscious notion of what those needs even are. I can't pretend to know what they are either, but I try to encourage people to be more honest with themselves and they seem to like my advice.
>>43994400eww yucky gross!
>>43994410Hi........................................................................................ "Lia">>43994439Im sorryithappened because i ate too much chocolate
>>43994463brown people are just so ewwwwww tho like ugh go back to south america or ur sandbox w/e shithole u crawled out of u kno? ew ew ew
>>43994439Go back
>>43994484more like go back to africa lol
>>43994376i've had it pretty easy but ime it's difficult to let happiness in while you're resisting how things are>>43994439>>43994471>>43994529samefag moments
>>43994471
>>43994572reddit moment
"yiff"
>>43994376depression is the rich man's disease, always has been. lots of people depressed these days aren't rich, but have all their basic needs taken care of and always did, which is where depression slips itself inin conventional terms I bet there are exactly 0 minutes during our mutual times on this earth at which my life has not been better than yours but I'm still a sad miserable fuck for no good reason
>depression is the rich man's diseaselol
Would you fuck me? I'd fuck me...I'd fuck me hard...I'd fuck me SO HARD...
>>43994471trip on austin
if ur brown just be transwhite and dai jou buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
>>43996024why is the sun flaring as if there's an atmosphere
>>43996036they're on a film set in new mexico
>>43995670
>>43996072passes better than me
I was a little molested.
>>43997286samei dont let it get to me thoughi deserved it for being a piece of shit kid anyways
Do you think Gooseworx posted in /mtfg/ back in the good ol days?
>>43997780No fren
>>43997824She was definitely a /tttt/ poster at least
>What's the most you've spent on an outfit/garment? What is it?I thrift the majority of my clothes, even the ones that arent thrifted are just like $50 or cheaper typically. Think the most I've spent since transitioning is on a skirt that I've worn maybe 4 or 5 times in 3 years, it's a half-plaid half-black pleaded skirt that was around $70-80 iirc, it's actually cute but I just tend to wear pants or shorts 99% of the time, so.I'm sure one of my hoodies cost more than that but I can't remember for certain
>>43997837>She
>>43991782>qottprobably like 300 for a dress , i dont wear it very often as its quite formalmost of my stuff ranges from 60-100-ish , i like allsaints clothes a lot so get quite a few bits there. Failing that Disturbia has some nice stuff even if its chink manufacture slop
Listen you girls probably get that every week but help me out here. Genuinely, what do I do about being textbook dysphoric and yet not wanting to transition? Does it get better?It's not the hate or money or whatever; my friends family and SO would be super supportive and it wouldn't touch my career. Most of them know I feel like that and are fine with whatever I pick. If I had to explain it i'd say it's the same pain I feel about knowing I'll die one day. I dont repress that side or anything, but I just don't wanna be someone who is/has transitioned. It is womanhood but it's also one earned through a process that leaves metaphysical scars I wouldn't be happy with to begin with. I just keep circling the fact that I want something that's only actionable through one avenue, which is not only one I do not want to take, but that would also leave me unsatisfied. I wish I could just "be cis” without the weight, which I assume to be common, I wouldn't want to be a woman if I had to work it. Hell, I wish I were born rich but that doesn't mean I work my ass off trying to become affluent, especially since I'd have no guarantees on success. That's what transition feels like to me.I guess I'm asking it here in case someone has had my pov but transitioned either way. I'd like to know if it was worth it, or if I should focus on accepting that which I can't change.
>>43998581Well in my case I figured it out around 22-23, figured iwnbaw so I just repped and cross-dressed on reddit for the attention as a femboy. Around 27/28 I started to dip my toes into socially transitioning (basically just nonbinary/genderqueer shit), kept wearing my hair long instead of tying it up, started doing makeup and actually taking care of myself. It wasn't enough as from 27-30 I saw the early stages of twinkdeath and abandoned ship, with the support of my trans gf I got onto hrt right before my 30th birthday, I'm now 31 and 1.5 years on hrt and pretty happy with my results all things considered. My only regret was not starting hrt as soon as I began to figure myself out in my early 20s (would have been sooner but I grew up in the sticks where gay people are beaten and trans people don't exist)Do what you want to do!! But in my experience, repressing and putting it off by being a fuckboy did me no favors. I got plenty of action before my transition as a decent looking guy and it didn't help one bit, which is why I always hate the "you were a Chad why did you troon out" argument lol
bro i ain't trying to read no blogposts shut the hell up with your paragraph postin ass god damn
>>43998581You know it strikes me that it might be hard to find examples of the null hypothesis here in the form of dysphoric people who never transitioned. Might be hard to find them in general since there's probably not a ton of communities of them. In any case...Speaking just from my experience and those of trans people/queer people I know broadly, it's just hard to imagine this going away once it manifests in an adult. Whatever the spiritual/metaphysical underpinning to dysphoria is it doesn't just flip back. Some form of it is something that exists in you and hounds you your entire life.Because of my lifestyle and work and hobbies I tend to find myself in spaces that really combine like, an overwhelming cishet male presence with a robust population of pretty universally accepted queers and we speak about the difference sometimes. It's amazing how often other transgirls I'll meet will just bring up a sort of absolute psychic bewilderment about how their cis male friends think and act. Whatever the psychology of cis men fundamentally is, it is and has always been completely inaccessible to me, and every interaction and performance of life as a cis man felt holistically incorrect. How is that feeling something that could go away? If your cisgender socialization has so thoroughly failed to take as an adult, what exactly is going to change?These are just my thoughts on the spiritual side of the question. The practical and aesthetic is a whole other can of worms but it sounds like those are less your trouble right now.
>>43992982side swept yup
>>43998581well you gotta be fine with not knowing because you will never know. I think it's possible to just never troon.
>>43998581gender and the hormones that run through your body should not be held to the same equivalent as man made money. your hormonal state and body are reflections of your soul. if there is a mismatch you will be perpetually unhappy.
>>43992240Hush your furfaggotry.
>>43999806feel like replying to a furry post from 14 hours ago that hasn't metastasized further is just asking for more furry
>>43996072lmao
>>43999924actually im all 8 of these things at the same time
>>43999924
Someone do something interesting
>>43998061>Disturbiawhat are the fabrics like from there? i brows their website sometimes and like some of the woodland/floral looking stuff
cums
>>44000329https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1mU6h4Xdxc
>>43992982Curtain bangs. Propper bangs are giving off full karen.
>>44000329it varies, its not the best quality. eg the jeans have polyester/cotton blends. Stitching is fine though
>>44000366i think i prefer the karen ngl>>44000306idk how
>>44000570>i think i prefer the karen nglarguing back already huh? ok... ;)
>>44000668:p gotta get in character heh
I'm a cis het male but I really like my boobs and I wish I had bigger boobs because they look cute and I get jealous of all the girls i see irl in summer with cute boobs because I wished I looked like that.
Down to 142 after taking a dump and I'm seeing some nice ribcagery this morning feeling just groovy
Bee update: bumblebee friend died ;-; found them outside their home, I guess they just couldn't fly, rip fren, it was nice to know you.
>>44000757taking a shit doesnt count as weight loss anon.
>>44000822Anything that makes my broken fucking brain feel better counts to me.
You freaks really need to be more ashamed of yourselves.
how come
Freakishness is a profound moral failure innit
You're fat, you're disgusting, and you're a freak. Have a little shame, be better.
seems kinda like projection tbbh
I am all of those things...................
im currently fucking this girl and the sex is great but she basically has a unibrow. and she just doesnt care that much about grooming so wouldnt be receptive to me helping her wax it. she would instantly be 85% prettier without it
>>44001200>girlLmao, I can't, the lack of self awareness you autistic freaks have is hilarious
its weird seeing kali do so many personas
>>44001218Is this time well spent for you going into the tranny thread and pointing out that trannys are trannys?
im currently replying to this shitposter and the posts are mid but she? basically has schizophrenia. and she? just doesnt care that much about medication so wouldnt be receptive to me picking up her prescription. she? would instantly be 85% more tolerable without it
forever yearning for a cute trans girl to be my devoted maid
Just went on tagmap for my city and both the tgirls I talked to were emotionally constipated and talked to each other in vc while ignoring me. Why can't people just be sincere? Where's the sisterhood?
>>44001469tried to record a cute voice note for this as a maid but remembered a tripfag saying my voice was male earlier and now it sounds gross… cognitohazardous board as always…
>>44001511aw... you certainly don't have to do anything that would make you uncomfortable but I'd love to hear your pretty voice!
>>44001511say goshujin sama when you do
>>44001528https://voca.ro/1o1gbL5eSZT8heehee ok nice lady…
Christ on a cracker just tried on the ol' swim trunks first time in 2 years since before hrt and took my shirt off and nope ain't know going back now until the good lord call me home and call me a faggot besides it's o v e r
>>44001791beautiful girlfag voice keep up the good work
>>44001800Titties too big? Nice digits tho, if you got two 8's it would be a fun set.
>>44001791eeee!! you are so precious!! that's exactly what i want to hear every morning
>>44001697I was told to meet up with >>44001312 here! Are you still around?
>>44001826>>44001866T.T T.T tyyyyyhttps://voca.ro/13YHCx6Cjvbf
>>44001899> I was told to meet up with her here> has been told she's banned> asks her a question and expects a reply from someone who's banned> mfw
>>44001858>Titties too big?Oh yeah. That train has sailed. I'm in the black hole zone where when I want titties to be visible in girl clothes it's impossible without the fucking excalibur of pushup bras but if I take my shirt off it's weewooweewoo alerta de troon. C'est la vie.
>>44001979whats ur bra size out of curiosity?
>>44001966>>44001899> she's awaiting your contactaccording to >>44001697 all you can do is post your discord and hope she is indeed watching this thread and messages you
>>44001490people use that? good place to make hon friends?
>>4400200436A
>>44001929i pat your adorable head. sweet girl. you will be doing my laundry soon enough
>>44002513hnnnngh mistresss…. It would make me so happy to serve u @//////@
>>44002539>>44002513gb2reddit or discord or wherever the fuck you niggers are from
>>44002553teehee :3 are u upset anon… do u think im some kind of agp pervert or something?? Are u gonna hit me? :333
>>44002553see, this is why she's cute and you aren't. that sour attitude and hatred doesn't look good on you! maybe one day you'll grow out of it :)
I'm trying to cultivate an umami attitude personally
>>44002655I'll "hit" you. where do you live?
i applied a little aloe vera on my face, chest and belly and now my chest and belly have a slight rash and are a little itchy but my face is fine
>>44002863i know this is nomral but i wanted to say it anyway cus am borrrrrrd
anyways 2 days until vacationyea booyeee
>>44003004are you going to visit me?
>>44003108wat
>>43999791I meant it in the sense that both inform a good chunk of my material reality and both are either only attainable through birth or a hard miserable gamble that leaves you forever scarred no matter how well you roll. Even climbing out will forever leave you as someone who climbed out, it lacks the levity.>>43999622I guess. Most non transitioners are weird transphobe reppers tho. And there has to be people who think like me and took the gamble either way. I'd like to know how they feel about it, if anything.>>43999568I assume it's not going away. I'm fine(?) with it in the same way I'm fine with dreading that I'll die and yet not going full brian johnson on myself. Standing still feels about as horrible as it is to think about growing old and dying but I feel that the alternative would lack the exact levity that I already feel like I'm missing.With age, I've accepted it better. I take care of myself but I still eat tasty stuff, laze around on weekends, etc. I wonder if that too is just cope.>The practical and aesthetic is a whole other can of worms but it sounds like those are less your trouble right now.Yeah, for sure. I'm sure if I went ahead with it I would spend one or two years brainwormed out of my mind but I'm not worried, it's natural. >>43998704>in my experience, repressing and putting it off by being a fuckboy did me no favors.Oh yeah finding human connection didn't do much for stopping the feeling. I'm married and have lots of good friends, which is a great network for a 24yo. None of that really made it go away, and I've had it since I was a kid. Like I said, I'm not gonna pretend I'm blind to the fact that I'm simply living as a man. It's more about squaring that circle with that my one avenue for change would not give me what I want.
>>44003260ig not u_u
>>44003335There is at least one significant difference between gender dysphoria and the fear of death, and that is that no matter what happens, you're not going to spend the rest of your life wondering how only it would've been if you'd just had the philosopher's stone. Fear and dread of dying is the most universal human universal there is. It's at the heart of all religion and philosophy. For those of us who don't struggle to survive in our own time, reconciling ourselves to death is very often the most important and difficult thing we will ever do with ourselves. All that is to say, do you really want to struggle with something that is THAT existential to you on two vectors at once? Because the point is that you just don't have to live with that. I can't relate to your experience entirely but I can say that I'm older than you and transitioned later than you are now and leading up to that moment, the feeling got much much worse. I've never heard of it going the other way.Weirdly enough, I myself am less afraid of death nowadays.
>>44003562>Weirdly enough, I myself am less afraid of death nowadays.How oddly beautiful. >Because the point is that you just don't have to live with that. I feel like this position is what made me come by and ask. Don't I really? I don't wanna be a weirdo downer but doesn't the feeling of it being something fought for and earned stick to the back of your throat like an unscratchable itch? Because no matter how successful you are, you're always gonna have to deal with your body and past. I'm not trying to convince myself that it does, I just never see girls talking about it and it drives me insane.Granted that even though one's forever trans, she'll also always be a woman, which is good ig. I just worry that'll never be enough and I'll still have to learn to deal with it, but then I'd have set myself up for failure, as I'll have to deal with that and with the continuous reality of transition.
>>43991782>garment$200 for all-red jordan dub 0s
>>44003744>I don't wanna be a weirdo downerNot at all, these are good and interesting questions and they're important to ask, transitioning isn't some frivolous thing.The answer unfortunately is rather less interesting. You can't change what you can't change and you can change what you can, and every one of us carries every single thing that's ever happened to us forever. We can sort of return to the death thing here in that that is simply something I can't change, just as I can't change the body I was born into or the way I was socialized almost my entire life. In my lower moments those things hurt me deeply, and whether from transitioning or just simple maturation they don't much bother me any longer. There are enough things I have that I can change and that I can make better to dwell on.
>>44003562>less afraid of death nowadaysCall me edgy, but I stopped being afraid of death around the same time I stopped being suicidal after two decades of this bullshit with one half-assed attempt during childhood. I already died in my head too many times, so I got tired of it. Occasionally I still have those thoughts, but they don't affect me anymore. All that without therapy.In general, death seems to be just a concept that doesn't bother me much nowadays.
God wants me to spread the Gospel but it makes me a little sad and embarrassed because nobody will respect me because I'm trans. I don't know why it has to be me that does it.
your god is dead and your faith is death, cultist
i believe in wieners and macaroni cheeseyou cant takethat a wayyyfrom meee
>>44003875Thanks for being graceful about me going on and on about the type of question this thread probably gets all the time, sorry for wasting postcap lol.I guess it's a matter of choosing the animal I'm comfortable with. I hope I'm able to accept myself, whichever path I decide to take. It's interesting knowing you fear death less while having so much more to lose, and that the material weight of transness relents. I'll keep it in mind.
>>44003919Matthew 10, sister.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBxuq_eWW94
>>44004021No worries, these threads aren't so fast.>It's interesting knowing you fear death less while having so much more to lose'Tis better to have loved and lost. I think sometimes fear of death is really something like the fear of dying without having first lived.
I love when people a decade older than me attack me and call me insecure and unable to commit to anything because I deleted my discord server and feel no connection from online interactions. It’s so great! Like I’m 21 lmfao get a fucking life
im two decades older than you really !
>>44004058Yeah. God made me realize that I had faith in my heart but I was keeping it hidden out of shame and fear of reprisal. I guess this is my penance. If I truly believe that being trans isnt incongruous with being Christlike, I have nothing to be afraid of by living this way. God gave me the gift prophecy and I'm not sure how I'll be able to live with it. Probably not for long, but that's okay. There are no more contradictions inside to hide from. My family will probably think I'm insane but they said that to Jesus too. Please join me in sharing your light with the world, and helping the hearts of the lost and sinful. Especially those of us who are trans, that have been spurned by those institutions that speak of us as if we were abominations or demons. They lie about us, but we have Truth on our side.
So I was gooning and I was trying to goon to the idea of fucking a girl for a change but then against my will i just went back and gooned to the idea of getting dicked by a man deep in my neopussy that i dont have and filled with cum.
>>44004289You’re the only other granny than Kira to actually be likable. I don’t know why everyone else is so bothered by me
>>44004274>claims to not be insecure>vagueposts in thread for attention
>>44004319oh no dont get it mixed up im an asshole
>>44004325>expects a 21 year old to not be batshit mental
>>4400434321 y/o tranny is just a particle accelerator for fucking nutso
>>44004325Do you want me to tell you exactly who I’m talking about? Because I can and will>>44004332Maybe, but you haven’t shown it yet. Unlike Nobi and dadcrusher fucking psychologically analyzing a fucking 21 year old.>>44004343I’m so crazy, it’s insane.
damn maybe im getting soft..
I love farting around others. Just knowing I'm forcing them to breathe in the remains from my butt oven vaporizing a turd, and then they have to she/her me afterwards too? You talk about power & control, god DAMN I love being a fart tranny.
>>44004368not reallyyou're boring npc
>>44004368>I’m so crazy, it’s insane.really? what's been bothering you?
>>44004392You’re npcs, you’re all nobodies! None of you will amount to anything.
>>44004368oh, are you that EZA (or something like that) person or whatever?
>>44004384>forcing them to breathe in the remains from my butt oven vaporizing a turdpoetry like this is why I post here
hey now i have a nice potato truck business i run i amounted to something
>>44004384LIA SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU'RE FUCKING GROSS BRO
do i need to remember this newfag or is this another retard child passing through?
>>44004383name one asshole thing you've done this year.
>>44004429naw my ironic brap era is over anon this is a new artiste fresh to the scene
>>44004410A lot, but it’s fine I wouldn’t want to waste your time.
>>44004438if you need to try and remember them they're not significant enough.
>>44004416I’m Tiffany/Claire/Ohiocel
>>44004424lia, can u make me a southern fried chicken and American white gravy baked potato?
.MUTÆNT TRANS EXCLUSIVE SERVER WITH VETTING SYSTEMhttps://discord.gg/NXdyWeGvNW
>>44004442I shot a man in Reno
>>44004464who?
>>44004438Retard child, I won’t waste your precious time or space in your helmeted mind.
>>44004464..ok not a clue.
>>44004482Cares
>>44004473i could for sure do the sassage gravy, fried chicken gonna be a stretch tho iv not done that beforei shud tho thats prob worth practicing..>>44004484why wud you bully helmet wearers i thot you said i was nice
>>44004513I’m upset
>>44004479just to watch him die?
It's okay the T rage gets easier with time
>>44004530anon probably doesnt even wear one and you're splashing damage onto me for nothing ; -;
>>44004274I don't think it's really an age thing thothere are ppl that have to be dependable and fend for themselves at 15some aren't dependable like that even at 60all time really does is make other ppl feel like they just want one true thing iunno
>>44004537Are trans women just never allowed to be upset or something? I’m genuinely tired of the “t-rage comments” I see all the time you’re just retarded and annoying>>44004543I’m sorry
>>44004536when I hear that whistle blowinI hang my he-ad and cryyyy
>>44004558its ok im sorry too for not being enoughhh for youuuuu
>>44004553Being dependable is something that I am in real life. I don’t want somebody I hardly know on the internet to think they can depend on me, and I’m sorry if that’s some kind of like evil revelation
I like cis lgbt people but trans people give me the ick
>cis>lgb"T"lil bro?
can depend on you being a twat
you ever watch house tours for ideas https://youtu.be/7tQfbYGd_Bw
BLT drop the G
>>44004637hecking dabbed on!
>>44004558>Are trans women just never allowed to be upset or something?Yes. We exist within society in a class similar to untouchables or slaves. It is not our place to be in anger.
Bee update: I found another dead bumblebee :( but it's not all bad there are some other bumblebee friends around including one that looked like they'd scarface'd a pile of cocaine because they were so covered in pollen!
bacon lettuce tomato (with garnishes)
>>44004558if people keep claiming your t raging maybe look for a common denominator
>>44004637That’s fine>>44004659I guess that’s true
>>44004646That's a fucking shed. I'd let my dog live there. I require style AND comfort.
personally I inject T directly into the hole the E goes into but only once a monthgotta keep my edge y'know
>>44004701My T is nuked completely, I gave myself hypothyroidism. Like that’s not the problem lol
>>44004720omg your dog gets 10 bedrooms 6.5 baths mogs me
>>44004665>I found another dead bumblebeeStop killing them?
>>44004720trumpcore aesthetics I'm afraid
>>43994400Haven’t seen you in years brownon
>>44004753Poorfag cant cope with my expensive taste? thought so.
gooner?
Why does food truck food suck so much. It tastes so bad.
>>44004735I'm not
>>44004783unironically I am too poor to appreciate this kind of living spacethink this anime is the only time I've felt like 4 poster antique luxury felt cozy to me
Do you think money can actually buy happiness?
>>44004872no but not having any can sure ruin it
I crave having my nipples played with the for an extended period of time
>>44004975I crave it for like 3 minutes at a time then I just want him to cum so I can go and play video games
>>44004975Real>>44004994Also real
pressing bottle caps hard into sensitive skin is a cool way to give yourself little red marks without hurting yourself too badly kinda a for beginners thing but also good if you're out with friends and there's drinks but you need just a little bit of pain to fix your mind up it works in a pinch
>>44004783if u sleep here somebody will shit on ur chest
I wish someone would just cut me all over my body and let me bleed on them romantically
>>44005100>friendskek
>>44004994Can’t relateNot that anyone has ever actually taken the time to play with my nipples like that
>>44005152you may come to find that a lot of sexual fantasy doesn't quite live up to the reality of experience
hot take jeremy clarksons beer tastes just like bud heavy
>>44005136schizo
well. time to retransition...
>>44005378drinking beer is pretty honnish hon
>>44005447i dont think anybody is surprised by that are they lol
>>44005583hontouni hon dayo
>>44005607what language is that
>>44005626
>>44005320Nobody has even tried
>>44005643lmao
>>44005647virgin ka?
>>44005691I’ve had plenty of sex nobody ever tries to make me feel good though. My life is pathetic.
>>44005806there's a certain something to being a neglected cumdump too, makes for a good background story
>>44005892It makes for a depressing and shitty life
I’ve fallen so far and I don’t even think I’ve hit the bottom yet
>>44005933when you fix your life up though the lore will be great
i tried so hardand got so farrr
In the endit didnt even matter
placebo are british??? that voice is so fuckin american whinecore wow how about thatit's not coming home also
>>44004772Can't keep a good brownie down
Spending the day crying because I’ll never experience having a boyfriend
>>44006162same (can't digest chocolate)
>>44005933that's what the wand is for dumdum
>>44006197just get a boyfriend??? it's not tha hard
Mike Jones
wtf don't deadname
>>44006318Yes it is no man has ever reciprocated my interest and the men on dating apps don’t see me as a real person.
>>44006370what's your social life like outside of romance? do you have hobbies that get you outside and around others?
https://textboard.net/now/1878
im not clicking ur phishink link nigtard you won't get my placenta
>>44006404Yeah I do, I have friends and hobbies where I meet people. Men simply don’t show interest in me.
>>44006370find a neet
>>44006428what kind of hobbies? is there a fair density of queer people in any of them? cishets generally aren't gonna date a tranny unless you're the strongest passoid this side of the mississippi
>>44006433I dont deserve that!
>>44006462neets are the best bfs
>>44006456I have good hobbies where I meet plenty of queer people. I go to parties with diverse populations and I make friends and people like talking to me. But the only people who are interested in me like that are other trans people.
>>44006485I don’t see how that could possibly be true.
>>44006505they can't cheat on you and they cook you meals. sometimes they're good in bed too.
ame desu. kyou tenki ga ii ne? hai, ame ga ureshii desukirei na...
>>43992847You look very nice. Naturally feminine, keep going.You look better in bangs. The wispy bangs are nice and so is the layered cut on you.
>>44006490so what, you got a trans, no chaser situation, to plagiarize the great monk?
>>44006555uhhhhh hyugbox??
>>44006596Yerp precisely
Last time I beat off I was suicidal the rest of the dayToday, my dick is hard once more
I’m going to read yuri the rest of the night and cry if I feel like it!
>>44006798very nice very nicegive us a title then
https://youtu.be/YHwzPIJh5FM
I think it was wrong to tell my therapist about detrooning because now it got me rethinking everything again for the 1000th time and just wasting my life thinking about trooning when I already thought out it entirely too much and came to a final decision
ackshually now that I'm thinking aboot it I nyever had a boyfriend as a trans womanhad several before transitioning including one who clearly knew I was eggful before I did, and wanted me to transition since he was basically cope-straight anyway, but since transitioning I've only been with my (also trans) gfI wonder if that not having been the case I would've wanted a bf just for the experience of a more conventional womanhood but I think I just had my fill of cis masculinity and ran into too many things in it I didn't care for
>>44006798>>44006822yuri is cringe shit for perverted straight menon second though, no wonder it's so popular amongst transbians >>44006843just bee urself
>>44006866your tim bf counts as a boyfriend
>>44006871>yuri is cringe shit for perverted straight menyou say while posting what is clearly yaoi from tongari boushi no atelier which is a v yuri coded mango? we should surely be fwens, no need to squabble
Paige can you just find a man to fuck already
>>44006910>yuri coded mangouhhh extremely not it's deeply homosexual between men>>44006914I already did that Thursday and it didn't help
you can u fags shutup? anyways i'm goin to taco bell you want me snag you anything faggy?
>>44006936it's both. mangaka is indubitably expansively queer as all great artists at last are. open your heart to elegant beautiful sublime fictionlove>>44006952uhhh yeah I want some baja blast to poooour wodka in
>>44006952I would but I am too fat so I am not eating dinner
>>44006980now we're fuckin TALKING anonlemme see your disgusting muffin top so I can bully you and get you to keep fasting
>>44006972yaoi > yuri sry it's just true
>>44006988no need to apologize sweetpea I have a preference also but I love and always will love both. I even like a little bit of hetslop now and again
>>44006871i need to catch up on witchhat>>44006988i dont really have a horse in this race since i consume exclusively bwno sissy bybnosbut isnt that kinda just saying boys gay is better than girls gay
>>44007037>i consume exclusively bwno sissy bybnosthis is like the media diet equivalent of supersize me
>>44007037>but isnt that kinda just saying boys gay is better than girls gaynot necessarilyyaoi has thought put into it and characters and plot, whilst yuri is just like uguuuu sis let's have sex but oneesan what about the school swim meet oh no oo
>>44007050who could say no to a big mac
>>44007065i wouldnt know i dont read chinese and im too old for cartoonsbut im sprised theres a whole genre thats bad and a whole genre thats good thats so weirdforeigners amirite
>>44007066me which is why I'm model skinny!idk iven't mcdonalds since college for me it was mostly the fries, if im actually hungry give me literally anything else bro>>44007065yaoi is like ughghghgh bro ur so good at this thing i also do lets have sex
>>44007066at these prices?
Actually had a healthy dinner tonight (avocado/raw tuna/tomato salad, side of some moroccan carrots) and now it's the evening and I don't feel terrible? Why does it work that way? I want to eat big macs.
>>44007090the fries outside of us desu not that enticingits just tato and salt>>44007099real>>44007127i had a white bread mayo and ham sammich 6 hrs ago and 1.5 brewskiesnow im having a fruit pastille
>>44007065that's definitely true. in terms of story yaoi is peak
>>44007154>>i had a white bread mayo and ham sammich >6 hrs ago and 1.5 brewskiesthis is grim at least finish the other beer 1.5 makes it sound like you just gave tf up
>>44007162reta is weird anoni just dont really want it
>>44007174POUND IT LIKE UR BACK IN COLLEGE YOU PUSSYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
that's why people headcanon nana to be gay because actual yuri doesn't have a good story
>>44006871Yuri is nice because they’re cute and tender towards eachother. In most smut they just fuck but in yuri they *make love* and I like that. I hope somebody will treat me that way some day!
https://youtu.be/s50vvwTystAugh i want to pat a lamb so bad now>>44007180meh
>>44007182the real fact is that the overwhelming majority of yuri/yaoi and even het manga that's somewhat sexual has a kinda mid or worse storyit's much more satisfying to take a really good story where those elements may or may not explicitly exist and read them in because we inevitably attach more strongly to a good story than to one which happens to target us personallythe other thing is there's a certain something to implied and incomplete romance that's intoxicating in a way that proper smut or even just a consummated relationship can't truly be. it's like existing in the eternity of the pursuit stage. it's unfortunate that it's like this desu (since it is also relevant to how peoples' real relationships go sour very often) but it's hard to write a good compelling story about a healthy relationship between two people who love and enjoy sex with one another because that is just boring to our sick sick brains
>>44007196sweet, tender, romantic, and caring lovemaking is irrefuckingplaceable. I didn't even know it was something that I wanted until the first time I was with my gf and despite long ago losing my virginity and experiencing any quantity of iniquitous fornication in my time I was anxious and afraid and with the lights off she crawled on top of me and kissed me and slipped one hand up my shirt and the other down my panties and just made sure I felt both good and ok and I've been helplessly in love ever sinceI miss her so fucking much fuck meI hope you get that someday too. you can't go back after
>>44006936Asexual?
>>44007816more like too traumatized to enjoy sex
>>44008226so not asexual. Got it
Hope u all had a very comfy and epic day :)I've been playing Elden Ring and watching X-Files...
im listening to talking heads and trying to avoid having a second cigarette
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