basically I'm a manmoder and I used to be way more optimistic and kind and pleasant but lately I feel like I've been becoming evil and jaded and I just feel like manmoding is ruining my life but I'm too bricky to save myself. but I don't like the person I seem to be becoming
its not to late to change course
same, but it is kinda comforting to know there is another evil manmoder hatemaxxing just like me, so thanks for ur post anonette
>>43995954I was out earlier today and I saw trans women out and about and I just felt a general sense of hatred because they were living their lives and were beautiful
>>43995981advice?
>>43995954evil how?
>>43996055hating trans women who pass etc.
>>43995954you'll never be able to fully repress it. just do your best to pass and work towards that. it'll make manmoding easier. and one day you won't have to anymore
>>43996007if i ever left my house and saw a fellow troon this would be my reaction as well. but i try not to do that for obvious reasons >>43995981it is for me tho
>>43995954Go deeper into yourself and figure out your kink. I did the same thing and figured out! I could be gay and be content in a way I never imagined I could be as a crossdresser
>>43995954You need to actually transition, slowly. Like, buy a women's shirt or women's jeans and just get used to it over time.
>>43995954this has been happening to me too and I dont know how to stop, my own internal monolog disgusts me
>>43996156>Go deeper into yourself and figure out your kink>bug chasing sex obsessed faggot realizes that he can just get his asshole prolapsed in a gay way instead of in a trans way. how heckin wholesome. Very fitting post though tbqhh. Sometimes i wonder if maybe i could be happy being gay instead, gay men cant ALL be aids ridden orgy obsedded coom fiends. But thanks for clearing that up for me. You learn something new every day :)
>>43996180hey, either way, going in the deep therapy and getting in touch with your emotions really makes life easier.
>>43996159yepthis is a manmoding trap, where u are too dysphoric to actually learn presentation stuff while waiting for hrt to do its work.like, op, you are right that the manmoding is whats doing it. how long have u been doing it? when it goes too long it gets corrosive. like this person said, u need to take baby steps on actually presenting as a woman. First alone, then in limited environments, etc.
>>43996213life will never be easy. go get your ass blown out bitch.
>>43995954You alone can change the person you become, envy isn't directly an evil emotion to experienceI've tried to stay kind and nice despite my life by using it as both a moral philosophy and form of self flagellationnot to say that'd work for you, but you can change the way you act on feelings, but it's much harder to change the feelings themselves. Your actions define you and the person you'll be
>>43996214yeah, it's like once you've grown out your hair and your facial hair isnt visible after shaving, what's stopping you from pushing your boundaries at least a little bit?
>>43996290i did the “manmode at work most of the time but be a girl on the weekends” before i fully came out so i learned it pretty quickly. funnily enough partially because of brainworms from here and being worried about being seen as a sloppy babytrans larping as a woman
>>43995954same. I when I started hrt I feel like I actually had hope and tried a little bit. 2 more years of manmoding has actually sucked all the life outa me. Ive become such a recluse and when I do have to talk to people at work (the only thing I do with any consistency) it's painfully obvious how much of an anxious sperg I am. I just wish things would've turned out differently.
>>43995954ive been manmoding for ten years. please stop now. its too late for me. but u don't have to end up like this. wear something cute this week ok.
>>43996537>only 2 years>employedtheres still hope for you sis
