I dont want to be trans anymore. I hate my body. I hate my personality. The people I surround myself with hate me. I hate them in return. I am judged every day. I am too annoying. I am too erratic. I am too hyperactive. I am too open. I am too annoying. I could never be a trans woman, let alone one that passes and is just a "woman". People lie to my face. They say my body is "tea", that I'm a "luckshit", that I'm on the road to being a "giga-ultra-whatever-passoid". All it does is give me honfidence, where I embarras myself. The worst of all is that I don't fit in with trans woman. I don't fit in with the transbians, I don't fit in with the passoids, I don't fit in with the normies. I don't fit in with any of them. I've been taking estrogen for well over a year now, and yet I am not a trans woman. Sometimes I feel like I fit in with cis women better, but they too reject me because of my inherent maleness. I am used by everyone. If I don't offer sex or money or some other obvious external value, I am not considered. I could never be loved romantically. I could never be considered "The One" by someone else. I have never inspired awe in another human being, and never will. I am a wretch.The best course of action is to detransition and slowly rot until I die. Better that than to continue up with this facade.
>>43996472Kinda cute except the beard shadow
>>43996472girl ur literally cute… sorry dysphoria (and what sounds like some social isolation) is kicking ur ass so hard…
>>43996472I’m sorry you’re suffering so much right now. You’re gonna be okay, please don’t detransition, it isn’t going to fix anything, it’s just going to send you into a worse spiral of self loathing.
>>43996511Agenders don’t bully
girl just get ffs you're almost there
>>43996511being mean to others is sad and pathetic
>>43996472Kinda sounds like everyone else in your life is the problem. I would continue transitioning and keep my nose in a passion that keeps me to busy to interact with people. Usually people attract like minded individuals. Your neuroticism is attracting losers and fake fucks.Don't search out friends/lovers. Let them find you. And be very discerning when allowing them in your world.
>>43996472top half passes. bottom face not so much. but your overall body passes and you have feminine hands. also you seem shortbut why tf are you so pale??? are you a vampire
>>43996472Best option is to repress. coming from a miserable boymoder being trans alienates you from anyone you ever love or care about so may as well have that as a pro than never looking like a real girl while losing everyone
I'm a pooner and your face honestly looks exactly like mine did pre-transition. Like, it's creepily similar. You facepass, at least. If you don't pass, it's probably something else, like your voice or something.
>>43996472i will never understand the trans experienceyou look like a woman.. thats about it. if i saw you in public i would just think you're a woman.
>>43996546show me>>43996552i do not get gendered female in public4chan thinks my post is spam... i dont know why
>>43996647i think if u just did more classic woman stuff (makeup, jewelry, more obviously feminine clothes) most ppl would start gendering u female
>>43996647You could pass in UK
>>43996647bride potential
>>43996703my face is beyond fucked. no amount of girlmoding would save me.>>43996716please just call me a man>>43996754no one ever says this to me in real life. in real life i am obnoxious, annoying, and uncool.
>>43996472youre literally a passoid fuck off. imagine being a GENUINE FREAK
>>43996768forgiven if you accept that you are just a submissive girl who tried too hard to be a man
>>43996647>>43996472i think i am in love bros <3
>>43996805dont get it twisted bro she doesnt pass because... SHE JUST DOESNT OKAY???
>>43996771>>43996552if i am a woman, and i pass, then why do all the cis women i go on dates with ghost me after the first date?what's funny is that i have more luck with them than actual trannies. trannies i feel so alienated by.>>43996543i am anglo-jew
nobody wants to fuck me, nobody wants to love. if they do want to fuck me, it's fleeting, based on fantasies of me that do not live in reality. nobody ever wants to love me though.i dont know what sin i committed, but evidently it cannot be forgiven. what else am i to do?
linux using transbian having a melty because stacey doesn't want to fuck her LOLyou transitioned to have sex with lesbians omg
>>43996973i use mac
how long have you been on hormones. be honest
>>439970131 year, 2 months, 26 days.why?
>>43996968you're beautiful. i hope you can find someone that loves you.
>>4399702115 months of HRT and you're already giving up? christ. lock the fuck in. you have years of development changes to go, both physically and mentally. this is like getting pissed that no one wants to eat your turkey dinner that you cooked for 15 minutes in the oven.
>>43996968If u gonna give up trade bodies, you can keep your head tho.
>>43997048please dont speak to me in that harsh tone.>>43996973i actually originally transitioned to be accepted by transbians, but now i feel alienated by them and feel more similarity with cisbians.>>43997042for me? impossible.
>>43997057what do you gain from being an asshole?>>43997061dont want to invalidate you but you're better off than most, dont lose hope in yourself
>>43997061whats the big thing with transbians thats making u feel alienated?
>>43997061>please dont speak to me in that harsh tone.you haven't earned being hugboxxed you dipshit. stop trying to find ways out from your transition because it didn't immediately turn you into your bimbo of your dreams swear to fucking god you're probably not even 25. your brain isn't even fully developed regardless of hormones
>>43997069thank you. you're nice. i like you>>43997070they dont accept me. cisbians are at least nice on the surface. i feel judged by transbians, othered.>>43997071im 21
>>43997080>im 21you are barely more than a child. you will be fine. you are going to make it. yes shit sucks right now but this will feel like a blip on the radar in a decade. take it from an old anon
>>43996472Lots of women have square faces. You're doing find bitch, stop overthinking shit.
>>43997109i am upset about the horrid acne scaring, the acne itself...
>>43997109forreal. chill lady
>>43997121wow just like cis women get
Going by your pictures I'm really surprised you don't pass irl. I feel like it has to be your voice or mannerisms or something
>>43997121Have you tried retinol? Retinol is really good for both acne and scars.
>>43997168I've found that voicing is one of the biggest factors to gendering. You gotta voice train.
>>43997176she's 21 and only 15 months into HRT there's a million things she hasn't tried
>>43997168i do not voice train because i am not comfortable doing it where i live right now. also these pictures are cherry picked, in reality i look horrible.>>43997176cant use retinol since im going to start doing laser soon.
>>43996472You should probably date men
>>43997217>cant use retinol since im going to start doing laser soon.then start it after, idiot >>43997217>i don't voice train so you're boymoding every day then? u are a literal baby trans who can't see the forest for the trees
>>43996472how tall?
>>43997217Voice train in your car, do whispering exercises, etc.
>>43997217I'm sorry it's not that feasible for you right now but I really do think voice training would solve all your problems
>>43997080can i ask what it is they dont like about u? like political, or ur interests dont match up, or they falsely assume ur judging them? sorry to pry, im just interested. especially bc u say u wanted to fit in w them at first
>>439972455'7>>43997246dont have a car>>43997256i dont know. i can just tell. i'll never be friends with the pretty girls.
>>43997273> i'll never be friends with the pretty girlslife is not a high school slice of life anime
>>43997281what is slice of life? i dont watch anime
>>43997273ok wait now i dont trust u… i bet you could integrate. transbians can be cliquey and lookist but u truly are just cute so u could probably get accepted by at least same of the pretty girls in ur city. maybe not the super clouted up super gorgeous ones. i want to help u socialize w transbians now lol. there are a lot of annoying ones but many are great. and they tend to be more accepting than average people of social awkwardness
>>43997273Even without a car, there are still whispered exercises. You can also just tell people you're doing vocal exercises for singing. There are tonnes of excuses and ways to hide it if you don't want people to know.
>>43997308i do have a core set of friends, who all pass i think, but it is small. also i have not been in a relationship in like 8 months and i am very lonely. i cant have sex casually, and so i am lacking in that fulfilment as well.
>>43997324damn. and ur 21ur literally so completely fine lol. i was repping in a relationship with a cis woman at 21.hormones will keep doing their work. i also really cant recommend makeup enough. it sucks that its kind of required of us, but it makes me feel a lot more confident and pass more consistently
>>43997308if you, or anyone else for that matter, actually don want to help me i guess u could add me on discord...my handle is "occidentaldiaochan">>43997361makeup is bad for my skin, maybe. i use it when going out and it makes me feel more clocky
>>43997373hmmm… this might be related to the primer ur using. the makeup thing. sadly i cant add you on discord. too busy to help beyond this thread. but ill be around here for a while longer
>>43997392everything i use is from elf. i feel like i locked more clocky when i didnt use primer . it cant be the powder, as that blends eveything together and makes it look soft, which i like.
>>43997373you're on tagmap still with your pre-transition description from 2024. ygmi youngshit idiot
>>43997402if i am going to make it, then why does no one love me? every trannie i know has a girlfriend or boyfriend except for me.
>>43997400hmmm hard to say then…tell me more about how u dont get along with most transbians please. Im still intrigued and u only gave vague answers. can u be any more specific (or tell me to fuck off lol thats fine too)
>>43997414girl…. Because your actually pretty lucky compared to most trannies and still doming. people find that offputting
>>43997414People do love you and care about you. In this very thread you've talked about socializing frequently, having a solid circle of friends, and being in a relationship just months ago. Your crippling dysphoria has rendered you blind to the world around you
>>43997414i am in my 30s and happily single after a few relationships. you are young enough that you are mistakenly tying your self worth to whether or not you're involved romantically. when you learn to love yourself good things will come
>>43997424i feel out of place. im not into the usual shibboleths. im not into video games, or anime, or whatever. im not into having casual sex. i find sex to be very personal and vulnerable and not something to be given away easily. i dont know.
>>43996472semipassoid if not for the stubble
>>43997524all very fair. and yeah, i get how not being into the “common culture” would be isolating. especially the casual sex part.
>>43996472Jaw and chin surgery and you're unclockable, keep a workable goal in sight and life will become easier once you've a light at the end of the tunnel, you're so close! Don't give up :)
>>43997538im bpd as fuck so i cant do casual shit or poly stuff. im strictly monogamous. but apparently that makes me too cishet coded or something. i dont fucking know. i want to be stealth so then i can be with a cis lesbian, which sounds easier at least from the expectations of romance.
>>43997600its not impossible to find a cis lesbian who isnt shitty about tw. its also not impossible to find a transbian who wants to be monogamous, there are fuckloads
>>43997640in my city? who are on par with me in terms of attractiveness?
>>43997144yeah, facial scarring is pretty regular and should never qualify as an immediate hon factor.
>>43996472You look like mina
>>43997662i guess maybe not, i dont live there. But probably!and see how the goalposts have shifted? its not that ur actually unlovable, and unknow that deep down. but u want to be a knockout smokeshow with a gf who is also super hot. That should be a goal for like 2-3 yrs from now. Youll get there. but now u just look bratty and ur honlarp is revealed. you look fine. you are just a femcel who cant find the perfect partner of ur dreams but ur dramtizing it. woman moment.
>>43997698who is mina?>>43997704then what am i to do?
>>43997797idk. learn to slow down and appreciate what u already have, as corny as that sounds. and orient yourself towards ur friends, and toward the bright future ahead of you. stay off this board. do things that make u feel happy. Etc etc.
>>43997547my jaw and chin are not as clocky as u think they are.>>43997675the facial scarring on my jaw and chin area specifically are clocky though. women dont get it there. they get scarring on the cheeks.
>>43996911you look pretty here
>>43996472>I hate my personality. >The people I surround myself with hate me. >I hate them in return.>I am judged every day.find different people to be around>I am too annoying. >I am too erratic. >I am too hyperactive. >I am too open.>I am too annoying.agreed, so just stop
>>43997217>>43996768>>43996716Pass as what? Freddy Mercury?
>>43996534HOW IS POINTING OUT SOMEBODY HAS THE WORST HAIR STYLE>THE HAIR FLAPBEING MEAN? WE ARE TRYING TO FUCKING HELP
>>43997144Problem is it doesn’t read as beard shadow on a female skull.So back to square one.
>>43996472your writing is beautiful. sorry you’re so lonely, it sucks
so true
