i need to stop doing opioids before i develop a serious addiction but they make me feel so safe and warm and i instantly start age regressing and feeling happy and childlike... i'm not sure what to do.. i just love regressing and feeling safe like a happy kid so much
>>43997839stop just smoke weed a lot. went down that road caught a pretty bad criminal case and ruined my life its not worth it.
>>43997839opis are nice but the abdl stuff is creepydesu reprasent tho so props
>>43997916why is it creepy? i just like feeling safe and like a kid again, i got molested not thst it matters i guess but i am always wanting to recapture a safe happy childhood... i find it kinda weird how in our community it's normalized to wnana get beaten and choked or assaulted but if you want to be coddled and loved like you're a child it's creepy and weird, not that i mind bdsm but i feel like being coddled is very psychologically intuitive >>43997903yeah ok i will just try to stay sober i guess im trying my best im not very deep into it right now so hopefully i can quit now
>>43998060you are traumatised. you have been on edge your entire life since childhood, and when you take opis it takes away that feeling. you think it makes you feel like a child, but in reality it is just taking away your pain, and you haven't known life without pain since childhood. that's sad, im sorry.but it really doesn't objectively have anything to do with childhood, it's just your experience causing you to make that association. and well... a lot of pedophiles are people who have trauma based associations with bad childhood experiences, who deal with it in the worst way possible. that's why it comes across creepy i guess. not saying you are, it's just kinda a red flag.personally i like opis but i cant use them too often or for too long or it gets bad, like, the withdrawals aren't worth the high. like other anon said, it can get real badso be careful ok
>>43998060also wtf how you just betray suiseiseki like that damn i thought you were cool>normalised to wanna get abused etcyea mostly by people who never actually had those things happen. ppl are dumb
>>43998107i'm open to the idea that it isn't really about child hood, i mean to me it's complicated, cause it basically comes down to i feel like im delayed or stunted mentally when im like that and way more open, or less abstract and reflective and also more simple or straightforward, i don't really know. but the point is it's probably less like being a child and more like being regressed mentally in terms of my faculties cause i feel less like i have to have my defense mechanisms going on. but in the other hand i do enjoy being treated like a kid by people in the sense of being talked to carefully and like extra kindly like that, or maybe like im retwrded or whatnot. i guess the childhood thing just tends to encapsulate a lot like that symbolically. but i find it kind of sad the implication that wanting to be treated like im a kid by a lover for example (e.g. helping me do basic executive function stuff like brushing my teeth, enjoying things i enjoyed as a kid with me, just letting me function at a lower level around them and being delicate / cautious with that or treating me like i'm vulnerable and needy) has connotations that im predatory or creepy, i don't know, oh well... im trying to avoid opioids for now because i think defintiely id get unhealthily addicted. i find agere stuff really complicated and not as simple as "it's just like being a child" yeah but also idk it's hard to find good short hands for it otherwise, like it is kind of a state of lowered function for me i guess where i effectively am a lot more immature. it is really hard not to be attracted to opioids though because they do make you feel so safe and i instantly start acting more comfortable and less hyper vigilant / am very expressive in simple or regressed ways.. i definitely believe in psychological regression as in regression to more immature states with less defense mechanisms>>43998123i like both a lot they're my two favorites
