>around 11 years old>start looking online about trans people, obsessed with trans timelines, reading posts about transitioning, crossdress sometimes>live in a shithole where you can't transition before 18, no one would support me, so I feel hopeless>start reading online whether these feelings will disappear>I read that most trans people after puberty grow out of being trans and just remain gay men>I was told my brain doesn't stop growing until 25 so I should wait until thenI believed this and so much other propaganda. Now I'm a 6'2 hon manmoder (HRT at 19 kek, right after puberty). I was so retarded, why did I believe them.I really want to kill myself knowing what I did to myself.I was so retarded. I ruined my life for nothing
>>44010124sorry to hear that nona>crossdress sometimeshow tf do you crossdress at age 11(or any age rlly) without being kicked by your parents
>>44010140in private?
>>44010140My mom even saw it, I guess she didn't think that it means I'm trans or gay and that I would grow out of itI stopped later though when I obviously couldn't fit my size 10.5 male feet into high heelsI need to die
I’m 5’6 but my shoulders will always clock me
>>44010168Try being 6'2 with broad shoulders
the joke is i'm horny
>>44010124I believed a lot of retarded shit about trannies and even gaslit myself into believing I just "wasn't like them" or it "wasn't for me" as I learned more and had no problem accepting or supporting them, but it took chud anti-tranny propaganda getting so over the top that I started learning more about hormones and how transition worked to push me into realizing it wasn't just a fetish for being a girl and I had a real issue to deal with>>44010176>filenamebased alert
>>44010124what dwarf country is that?
>>44010124similar boat, hrt@22
>>44010309Tell me why I shouldn't commit suicide when I hate my body and I know I will never, ever have a normal female body?
>>44010124>I read that most trans people after puberty grow out of being trans and just remain gay menthis was kinda sorta true in my case. still got on hrt at 23 because while i finally enjoyed (and still do) being a dude, i still wanted a more feminine body and a different aging pattern.so chud propaganda both helped me (i probably would've been in a much worse place if i had trooned at 16) but also harmed me (i should've gotten on hrt at 20 and not buy the "ruin your body" exaggerations).
>>44010322i mean how long have you been on hrt? i thought it was joever for me but 3.5 years later my bones are fixed enough that i pass irl. like i might get a BA at some point and i've booked FFS but realistically if you cover my face and dick in a photo only 4channers could tell.
>>440103372 years and 10 months. I don't pass and don't malefail everYou booked FFS? Wow, I'm so happy for you that you can afford a surgery that costs 50k like it was nothing. I mean, I will probably have to wait like 10 years to have the money and then I would still be a 6'2 gigahon
>>44010357insurance
>>44010362Lmao. Go fuck yourself
>>44010357its more like 25k and took me 12 years to save.
>>44010383I still don't see why I should live for 12 more fucking year as a hon
>>44010386we were born poor, thus born to suffer more than the youngshits with supportive wealthy parents, trans or not.
>>44010124>6’2 hon manmoder started at 19literally me nona..i feel ur pain im sorry
>>44010413So why should I live again if every day is agonizing and if there is actually no hope?I will literally NEVER be stealth. This is not a life worth living
>>44010151>implying children have privacy
>>44010462nta but they do in most of the world.entering in your son/daughter's room without knocking after puberty is something that's considered a bad thing to do for a parent here in europe.
>>44010124>>I read that most trans people after puberty grow out of being trans and just remain gay menSame LOL i even bragged at other trans people that my body was going to stay intact while there’s were being ruined
>>44010449no one is stealth now that bigtech outs people with data sharing and linkage. we are all fucked. and what do you mean live again, you were living before? maybe return to that then if you can. anyway honmoding isnt the worst, you just have to give up the pride that you might feel this website and some irl peers pressuring you to have. whats the point of dignity when nothing means anything and everything is fucked.
>>44010492those who laugh early cry later lol
>>44010504yeah i deserve what i got
>>44010494By again I meant something else, not like live again, but "again, tell me why I should live"Even if no one is stealth now, which I don't believe, I still hate being a hon, I still hate being so extremely tall and there is nothing I can do. I don't like being a man and I hate the idea of living as a man until I die
>>44010514so do i, but i have developed special dissociation techniques through substance abuse to guide me towards funds to shift towards a more tolerable appearance. leverage the psychedelics.
>>44010529I don't even know where to buy drugs
>>44010168i saw somebody on sneedit that had a scapular reduction or something and honestly it looked really good
