whenever i try and think about how i want to live my life as a man i think about becoming fred durst, tony soprano, conan the barbarian or some other type of caricature. meanwhile when i think about trooning im just imagining myself as the shy geek i typically am but as a woman. or maybe im overthinking and i actually found the cheat code to enjoying being a male.
>>44015071I do the same thing and it makes me think I'm male.I think of Henry Rollins, the lead guy from Entourage, Mike Ross from Suits ...but after a wave of larping and feeling cool or whatever, it just literally fades away when I look in the mirror. being female, a woman, a foid is inescapeable if you have the condition that plagues most trannies to become tranniesthis works, your self-image and true internal self eventually breaks throughand yes, you do enjoy being male with these aggressively male characters in mind, but it does fade and has diminishing returns -for my whole adolescence, sigma males, American Psycho and Don Draper from Mad Men were my "character copes." also didn't help that both of them were "men" hiding a deep, dark repulsive secret,now, these characters just don't work as they did when i was 18 and had no clue I had tranny syndromeyes its repper behaviorfrom personal experience, its not a cheat code
>>44015071Sounds more like bpd behavior but I can relate so maybe.
>>44015594>bpdi have that too
>>44015071I think most people do that to a degree without even thinking about itI skinwalked many men throughout most of my life, starting with my dad
Idk if this makes me faketrans but when i was a ftm repper i would attach myself to rly eccentric women and try and model my lives after them: emily youcis, patricia highsmith, etc like i had cognitive dissonance cause i knew deep down i didnt see myself as a woman so i would model my personality after other women.
>>44015071Wasn't this the coping mechanism the main character used in I saw the TV glow or something? I don't really remember much of the movie I was kinda high and sleepy when I watched it
Im just a loser tbhq
>>44015550yes, I've noticed the same in myself. it never actually translates to real life. looking back it always seems overdone and obviously disordered.
