I am severely mentally ill. like I don't know how I would go about fixing it. I'm sorry for everything I said, I just woke up and feel like a dumbass for putting my mental illness on you. I lash out at people when I'm having a breakdown and that's not good.I also woke up with open wounds in my thigh, so that's great. it's like I'm allergic to the concept of self control. I'm sorry tttt.
>>44027087maybe turn off that name and hsts flag for a start, fucking retard
>>44027100no.
>>44027105enjoy all the hate you get then!
Rest, Maple. Go for a stroll or doodle and do not view the board for at least a few hours, a day, longer.
>>44027087Girl go outside for a bit. Not to say touch grass but maybe a leaf or two?
>>44027114ok.>>44027119that's probably a good idea. I still have requests I need to do anyway. I'll post them here when I'm done.
are you opinionated, because you lose yourself in it and for a moment there are no other problems? Do you let yourself get heated for this reason?t. subscriber
>>44027195I'm not sure. I lose myself during periods of depression and end up schizoing out at everyone. I genuinely wish I could take back all that I said these last 24 hours, cause now everyone thinks I'm an unstable dumbass. watch, some Turkey tom or other YouTuber is going to make a video on me. it's going to be "the downfall of maple" or some stupid click bait title like that. It sucks too, cause a lot of people know my yt channel and I think I ruined my reputation again. idk anymore. I don't have self control.>>44027144sure.
>>44027319If I used the same name across all of my posts, I mean this, absolutely everyone here would hate me.
>>44027319I wish I could help you more.
>>44027319You have a youtube channel? Ill go check it out, i'm new here but you seem nice, just going through a lot. A lot of what you say feels very familiar. How would i find it?
what causes your spirals? do you have people you can talk to to get you out of those moods? t. mmg nona
>>44027545it happens when I let my depression build up and no coping skill I have works at that given moment. It's like when you pour water into a glass, and that glass overfills causing all the water to spill. Or when you put too much air in a balloon and it finally pops. Idk if that's a good way of describing it, but that's how it feels. A lack of sleep makes it worse too. I think I have an untreated personality disorder too, so that could play a part. idk.right now I feel calm and level headed, but unfortunately I don't know if that will still be the case in a few hours. my mood feels shaky, and instead of experiencung emotions like a normal person, it fluctuates between extreme highs, lows, and nothingness.I hope I made sense with this.
>>44027087*hug*It's okay.
