I want to die but I also want to be lovedMy ideal outcome would be to die while in the arms of someone who I love and who also loves me
It's not so much that I want to die, I just want the suffering to stop, the endless blueballing that this year my life will get better (it keeps getting worse), the continuous blame on me for my failures when I did everything I could and more yet it still didn't help anything
>>44028096thoughts on a couples suicide? in the arms of your beloved, drifting off into a sleep from which neither of you will wakefeeling happy and content knowing you two will be together for eternity
I want to love and live.
>>44028096being killed by someone who I love is my biggest fantasy, unfortunately it will only be in the realm of ideas as I'm an unlovable fuck.>>44028988I wouldnt like it, I want the person that I love to live a happy long life, finding someone that they also love and forgetting about me.
>>44028096I got really scared because I know someone who uses that character as a pfp, but even though you're not her, I hope you feel better soon. I hope you can be loved and not wanna die soon
>>44029443i think, if someone earnestly loved you they wouldnt be able to let you die alone, and wouldnt be able to move on if they did live
>>44029528it's not something I think too much about,I'll probably never find someone who loves me. but if that would happen I would prefer for them to keep living.
>>44029732you can find someone to love you nonaits completely possibleit just isnt easy
>>44029784I dont think its possible, I'm too ugly too depressed and too annoying for anyone to take a liking to me, the only relationship I had in my life was a guy that felt sorry for me being alone and tried dating me to cheer me up and after a year he left me due to my personality being boring ass.
>>44029817i mean im depressed and ugly and a manmoder and ive still managed to successfully find genuine connection even if it didnt last foreveru just gotta keep trying
>>44029847>even if it didnt last foreverI dont think I would be able to stand another heartbreak, being alone hurts, but it hurts less than loving someone and not really being loved back.
>>44029874different perspectives i guess..for me all of my relationships have been better than the last, im gonna keep going until i find my one true person that i can stick with foreverheartbreaks hurt alot but i think the highs are worth the lows
>>44029894I wish I could see the world in a more positive light . but I hope you find your soulmate
>>44029911you too nona, theyre out there
