I’m trying to figure myself out here, 21 AMAB.Since I was young I fantasized about being a girl, and since discovering jacking off at 14 I’ve ONLY been able to get aroused imagining myself as the girl.Outside of this though I don’t think I mind being a moid. I don’t feel the dread or whatever that others experience looking in the mirror; I feel nothing. If I look fem (even a bit) though it feels very nice.Do any of yall share a similar experience? What am I?
>>44030472I was going to call you a faggot but judging by your repressor flag and the woman sneaking up on the other woman in the photo you sent i'm starting to think you might be a tranny
>>44030472AGP with mild dysphoria if that from the sound of it.
>>44030472Are you uninvested in your own male appearance, or are you a generally inexpressive person who struggles with getting a solid read on what you're actually feeling?Some people get so "skilled" at aggressively dissociating from their desire for a certain presentation that they stop having strong feelings about basically anything if they can help it
>>44030489Maybe I’m both :/>>44030507What does this mean for me?>>44030552I am usually inexpressive and I struggle with knowing how I feel. I tend to repress I think but I don’t really know. Sometimes I get distressed about it but that’s uncommon.
>>44030854>What does this mean for me?Idk that's on you, think about where you'll be in 10 20 30 years from now, what goals you have, what life you want to live. Make an honest assessment as to whether you think transitioning would make your life better or worse.
>>44030936This is part of my confusion. In private I know I want to be a woman but in public idk. I’m definitely unsure about being fem around anyone I know. I would lose friends and my family would look at me sideways.I do triathlons so boymoding would be hard but maybe(?) not impossible.
>>44030472i think you already know what you are. you just have to accept yourself
>>44031280I know :(I don’t think I’ll ever be ready to start HRT. I’m scared to even tell anybody about this, even my closest friends.
>>44031455i know its really scary but genuinely the feelings ur feeling rn will never go away without transitioning. i hope you're able to get to a good point nona :) starting hrt will be worth it when you do it (hopefully sooner rather than later, trust me)
this is quite literally the textbook definition of AGP, just get control over your sexuality and be a normal man
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>>44031506Is this possible?>>44031491I appreciate it maybe (hopefully) I’ll stop being a wuss soon. How late is too late?
>>44031591first off no its cope. second off worrying if its "too late" will only delay you further. 21 is midshit, but it really could be worse. you should get on within the next year though. nobody will make you start hrt though, its something you have to and really should do for yourself as soon as you can
>>44031591>having to ask if controlling your sexual urges is possible
yep. trans. how old are u? Im down to chat on discord about it w u, i have a free night.its scary and fucked up and im sure u feel terrified rn im sorry. But it can be okay eventually
>>44031736>encouraging agps to transition
>>44031736I’m 21, you? I worry that I’m faking it iykwim.
>>44031665>>44031758
>>44031832>being a normal person who finds auto fetishists gross... is LE BAIT
>>44031824im 27. Egg cracked at 19, repped, transitioned ar 24
>>44031824didn't respond btw>>44031665
>>44030472I think you’re probably repressing your dysphoria
>>44031946I’m curious, what got you to stop repping?>>44031990Sometimes I feel like shit about it and I panic, then later I cringe at it.
>>44031990>you actually secretly feel an emotion that you don't know you're feeling so you should chop off your dick
>>44032003hmmm good question.i was rereading an “am i trans” type article for the 1000th time. and idk… it just kind of hit me…a few months before that tho. I had soemthing more concrete. My gf at the time was taking spiro for her acne. And i literally looked up if taking spiro would do anything to feminize me T.Tthat made it pretty clear that this is just a real thing and i dont have to question if my dysphoria is “legitimate” anymoreOh, another VERY important detail: i completely left this board. And just hung out in sneed spaces on trans reddit and discord and twitter. people on here will say shit that will traumatize u and keep u repping. Its bad for u
>>44032028I go through periods of time where I feel dysphoric (I don’t even know really if that’s right bc I can ignore it and it’ll go away) and periods where I don’t think about it at all. These periods last long though.I know it’s bad, I just like to have a place where I can say what’s on my mind without worrying that it’ll be found my people I’m close with. If I may ask, why are you here now?
>>44032058oh… im kinda here for sexual reasons, to flirt and send picsbut i get distracted when i see a repressor and want to help them bc i was stuck there for so long…also it lets me say my unwoke opinions w/o my sneed friends seeing
>>44030472sounds like you could be trans, but the dysphoria isn't super severe. probably worthwhile to weigh your specific situation before deciding to whether transition. would the people around you be supportive? does it feel like the dysphoria might be worse than you're aware of/worsen in the future? are you generally happy with your life as it is now?regardless of what you decide, I hope you find peace with it. dealing with any degree of dysphoria is awful and it can be hard to figure out the right path
>>44032028>gf>>44032101>sexual reasonsAGP. BRAINED. MEN
>>44030489>>44031491>>44031990>>44032123i could come onto this board and say i love being a man and sticking my dick into women and raping them BUT i wore a dress once and every one of you would still say i'm dysphoric and need to transition right away
>>44032101Lmao I see I seeI appreciate it though.>>44032123Thanks, logically the people around me would be supportive (I think).My family is supportive but stubborn with stuff they “don’t understand”. They might be disappointed and think I’m throwing away everything bc I’m big into triathlon, which I couldn’t continue to do.
I can't say for sure if you're trans anon, but I can say I relate a lot with what you're describing, and I became a lot happier and more comfortable with myself after starting HRTI can say for sure if you are trans and repress it for too long you will end up miserable, lurking in trans spaces, and projecting your inner turmoil onto others like>>44031665>>44031758>>44031924>>44032124
>>44030472>want to be girl>mentions masturbaiting same sentenceyou are agp, i don't need to read anything else you wrote
>>44032207yes, and AGP’s should transition to treat their gender dysphoria, according to the model itself. tourist.
>>44032183I appreciate y’all’s responses fr thank you. I’ll be doing some thinking for sure.That CANNOT happen I won’t let it lmao
>>44032183i don't lurk i haven't been on here in a thrembillion years. i just came here to post a thread encouraging people to detroon and i will probably be gone again tomorrow. also i'm not repressing, i just got past my dysphoria>>44032207tsmt>>44032213>-ACK
>>44032221>not repressing, just got past my dysphoriaLMAOOOOOOO THIS HAS TO BE FUCKING BAIT NO FUCKING WAY
>>44032221>got past my dysphoria
>>44031280why is this so hard
>>44032258because the consequences are immediately really bad and transitioning is really hardthe consequences of not accepting it are worse, but take a lot longer to get here
>>44032245i realized that for me and all non agp troons physical dysphoria comes top down from social dysphoria. you can't feel bad about your male features unless you are comparing them to female ones, and you will only compare yourself to a foid if you have some social reason to do so. ie guilt/shame over being a man, bullying, trauma, mental illness, isolation, etc
>>44030472you’re agp. probably best to just be a crossdresser
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>>44032258This person >>44032285hit the nail on the headbc its a weird curse we were born with, and everybody fucking hates it and wishes we would just stop doing weurd tranny shit.but its the only way we can be happy.
>>44032328its not the only way you can be happy, you can just be normal. in your case specifically you can just stop being an AGP freak
>>44032426unfortunately you cannot "just stop being an AGP freak"
>>44030472Some advice:Forget about>What am I?Instead, ask yourself these questions:>What bodily characteristics do I want to have? What would please me?>What do I need to do to acquire the body that I want?That’s all you need to concern yourself with.HRTGen is here: >>43972129
>>44032434literally no control over his own sexuality award
>>44032517yes that's rightyou think I didn't try? for so many fucking years?life isn't fair and you're made of chemicals
>>44030472you can be whatever you want to be, but if there's no dysphoria it would probably be easiest to just crossdress occasionally for fun or whatever>>44032298there are no non-agp troons (mtf) but there are non-troon agps
>>44030472Take yer pills, alice
>>44030472>>44032444>In my opinion, as important as it may be, tactically speaking, to say at a given moment, ‘I am a homosexual,’ over the long run, in a wider strategy, the question of knowing who we are sexually should no longer be posed. It is not then a question of affirming one’s sexual identity, but of refusing to allow sexuality as well as the different forms of sexuality the right to identify you. The obligation to identify oneself through and by a given type of sexuality must be refused.— Michel Foucault, “Wrong-Doing, Truth-Telling: The Function of Avowal in Justice”>… if identity becomes the problem of sexual existence, and if people think that they have to “uncover” their “own identity,” and that their own identity has to become the law, the principle, the code of their existence; if the perennial question they ask is “Does this thing conform to my identity?” then, I think, they will turn back to a kind of ethics very close to the old heterosexual virility. If we are asked to relate to the question of identity, it must be an identity to our unique selves. But the relationships we have to have with ourselves are not ones of identity, rather, they must be relationships of differentiation, of creation, of innovation. To be the same is really boring. We must not exclude identity if people find their pleasure through this identity, but we must not think of this identity as an ethical universal rule.— Michel Foucault, interview conducted by B. Gallagher and A. Wilson in Toronto in June 1982Source: https://autonomies.org/2022/06/reflections-after-the-stonewall-riots-michel-foucault/)
>>44034006This makes sense for sexuality, where “love who you love” would be a working approach and you could take a relaxed approach to it. For gender however, wouldn’t a more concrete label be necessary? Especially because of things like HRT which seem like a rather big deal.
