Recently ive had some revelations and after a particularly bad depressive episode decided to stop repressing and transition(and also try and become a less miserable person). Since doing this Ive felt this strange sense of calm and so much of my anxiety is gone, Ive been researching HRT and im very close to buying some DIY but now im not sure if I actually need it or if I am actually trans. I dont think I have much dysphoria at the moment and for once existing doesn’t feel excruciating, I almost feel like I would be fine just existing as a man.I dont know whats going on but its really nice actually. Im sure atleast my depression and anxiety will come back but I really have no idea if im dysphoric anymore. Has anyone else experienced this? am I a fake tranny?
>>44030748yes, you're fake. now please leave the board and don't look back
>>44030748Most people are okay with just being fine for many different aspects of their life. If you found out you're more gnc and don't require any forms of transition, perfect. No notes. For many trans folk who aren't truly happy as their assigned birth gender, just being fine isn't good enough. It might be deemed fine for others looking at the person and deciding what fine should be for them. However for the individual, it's often disassociation, repression, and a form of distress that can affect many different aspects of their life. That's ultimately what trans is about once you cut through all the noise. Being more than just fine. It won't solve all the trials and tribulations. someone might experience be it personal or systemic, but for most it's a step towards a greater happiness that certain others can't stand to let people have for themselves.
>>44031103That makes sense. I wouldn’t say im “happy” as a man and I think I would like to be a woman still. its a probably more just a sense of clarity and acceptance and what I am after struggling for so long
>>44031286There are certain people who will relish in setting your tail on fire and watching you run in circles for no rhyme or reason other than their own sadistic pleasure. In the end we're all equal once returned to dust. Make your own truths and learn to accept yourself
had a similar (?) moment of calm in the middle of absolute hell when i committed to starting hrt. actually moving in a direction i wanted after completely neglecting myself for years was a big thing.
>feel bad>realize i'm trans and make a plan to transition>feel better>oh no i'm not trans.You don't have to be in constant suicidal agony to have dysphoria and you don't need dysphoria in order to be trans. Just do what you want.
>>44031286you won't "be a woman" doe you will be a weird looking man
>>44031459This was my ex. When he actually wanted to do something, he would do it and there was absolutely no stopping him at all no matter emotion, logic or what I or anyone else said. Sorry but I refused to play his game of treating enby as a shameful taboo while he brow bashed or outright hated any of my own or others expressions of trans
>>44031459oh…>>44031495maybe, but maybe that wont be so bad
>>44030748You are not trans if you do not have dysphoria please stop this
>>44030748Dont listen to the haters nona, if you think being a woman would make you happier, then go for it.
>>44031459>you don't need dysphoria in order to be transwhat happened to this board bro
>>44033550definitionally you don't, though. dysphoria inheres psychic trauma but transition just inheres doing the transitioning. eg getting on hrt or whatever. they can each be independent of each other in the case of repressors or transmaxxers, respectively, for example
Sounds like you are.But i have to point out to you that hrt is optional. There are side effects, it's inconvenient, the whole thing is contingent upon politics not randomly deciding to revoke our human rights.
