a fucking tranny.... the most lonely experience. if I ever try talking about my problems to my Micro friend group which is just like 3 people they dont care or try to avoid me. they want their idealized tranny friend. I know im not even an actual girl, nobody will ever care for me, and in the end ill die alone and forgotten. whats the point? why live? fucking bullshit life. why cant my suicides work?
guess ill keep attempting until it works
>>44032491get more/better friends
>>44032491Suicide never works and nonexistance isn't real. Hope this helps bestie
>>44032491You should hang on.
>>44034016why doesnt it work? wdym nonexistance isnt real?
>>44034832why? life is pain anyway theres no point.
>>44032491that's how it is
>>44036192well im gonna attempt again tonight. hoping to everything it works
>>44032491>is this the lowest level of hell?Being a tranny is definitely down there, but I wouldn't say it's the LOWEST form of hell. There are worse things you could be.
>>44036614like what?
>>44034016>nonexistance isn't realspook, imagine believing in the metaphysical just because you're conscious
please don't kill your self and get better friends.
>>44036791A poor kid in a developing country getting bombed to distract from geopolitical issues and farces across the globe, for one. Fuck your fake friends, go find new ones. Go find something fun to do, create the small piece of freedom and happiness you want with the privilege you have. What else do you have to lose, your life?
>>44036885I live in a failing country in a town that will kill you for being the way I am while being poor and having no one. I dont have anything. what I have to lose is the ideal self I put out for my only family my dad.
>>44036880what will I get out of living if ill die anyway? I live in a heavily conservative area that will kill people like me.
>>44036945So you want to transition? Then move away to whichever place you can safely do so.
>>44036945I do too, I know it's hard but life is still worth it.no excuses
>>44037108I want to repress id do anything to make my dumbass brain be ok with it long term.
>>44037129I have nothing and any time i try making a friend we distance or they try to make my life worse. my family but my dad ditched me and the only reason my dad didnt is because he doesnt know
>>44037221Repressing will kill you before anything else you can do to yourself. From what I have seen you post your family is really transphobic as well. That's why I recommend moving away to a better place where you can be loved and have friends. I won't say that it will be easy or that it won't hurt but you can make it happen.
Regardless of everything just know that I believe in you annon! I'm sure that if you try you can make it!
>>44036838americans got me so fucked i cant tell if this is serious or not
>>44037860100 percent serious, why would you choose to believe than you go somewhere else after you die? what kind of cope is that?
>>44036137you will be reborn as a hungry ghost for 35748 lifetimes and then eventually manage to scrape up enough good kamma to go to heaven for 1 lifetime, spend all your good kamma being reborn in heaven, and then be reborn in hell again because you're a kamma brokiewelcome to samsara bitchassthere is no other explanation because the concept of suicide for means other than base escapism is incomprehensible to eastern philosophers
>>44037281im probably too far gone to repress i have been on Estrogen for 2 yeaes. wish I could but cant. also dont have a job rn i turned 18 in april. Idk how long i can take this.
>>44037367ive been broken for so long idk if i can ever be happy with myself or be myself. I would rather make everyone around me happier than myself idk I just dont care about myself at all:/ I never really thought of myself as a real girl either because I just think im a cheap copy lol
>>44039797You don't have to do something big just take small steps! Just find somewhere to work and you can start saving from there.
>>44039819I can't help you with this anon... I can only tell you that getting a therapist might help you. But I do know this one thing: Yes you can learn to love yourself! Even if you don't see yourself as a "real girl" you can still learn to love yourself.
>>44042053Real woman = womb
>>44034016> nonexistance isn't realThen where were you before you were born, oh yea that’s right, the void. And that’s where we will all be returning to when we die. The sweet relief of nonexistence, true and final rest.
>>44042027im looking. but to be honest i probably have to boymode all my life lol
>>44042053too expensive, disingenuous feeling, and had bad experiences with them. also I havent loved myself for longer than i have. ive always been treated like shit so hard to see myself as anything but lol.
>>44042084yeah.... ihmfl why am I a fucking freak
>>44043104there aint no escape from life. just gotta hope the next life will be better
