It’s been a few years since I’ve really thought about it. Now I’m going to get no good sleep tonight and I’m probably going to waste all weekend doing fuck all moping around. I’m just so tired of this shit coming back.
>>44032838I mostly just wanted to respond saying kek because the pic you chose with this thread title is hilarious... anyways as an ex 3 year repper I saw it this way: be miserable, troon, or rope.
>>44032838>>44033576The thing that is probably going to finally crack me is that i just can't rule out the "mental benefits" aspect until I try it myself. I feel like shit all the time, I would like something that makes me feel less shitty, many people who report extremely similar experiences to mine say that e helped them a lot. How can I really discount it until i try for myself?Will I be a "woman"? Whatever, don't really care anymore
>>44033617It makes you less aggressive, more hopeful either because you think change is starting, or it just make depression better, but it also make you a bit delusional, like I'm unironically developing honfidence.
>>44033617I tried it before and it didn’t do anything for me mentally
>>44032838>wanna avoid tranny thoughts>watches the tranny showReppers are so funny
>>44034636How am I supposed to know it’s a tranny show before watching it
>>44034709I didn’t watch it and I could tell it was a tranny show before I was even aware the creator was a trans woman. It has tranny vibes. Also it seems kinda juvenile and being emotionally stunted is something every trans woman has to get over
>>44032838>a poorly rendered 3d rabbit has made me question my sexuality and life choiceswow
>>44033617Ex-repper here. Estrogen didn't magically fix all my problems but it did make it easier to start dealing with the ones that remained.
>>44032838just transition doggg holy fuck "but wahh i wanna be an afab not a tranny" yeah retard we all do still beats repshitting come ON
>>44034709is it not created by a transwoman???
>>44034922No, it was created by a trans woman
>>44034894>just transition honFuck off youngshit retard. I've been on this board longer than you've been sentient.
>>44032838It did the same thing to me, god i completely fell apart. Been in the closet almost 20 years, avoid the hell out of anything tranny related as much as possible, wasn't doing "fine" exactly but there's zero chance for me transitioning so i've just been a manic depressed asshole for almost 20 years! Since that show i've been so fucked up in the head. I liked the show a lot and i honestly wish i hadn't ever watched it. Gooseworx did something to a lot of us with that, maybe she knew?
>>44035467this is bait
>>44035467> i hid from my problems and they didn't just disappear> shocked pikachu face dot jpegWhy is it that you say there's "zero chance"?
>>44035503don't troon out>um you need to troon out even though you look like shrek, hondo troon out>lmao what a fucking ogre, you don't pass because you didn't try hard enough
>>44035471No, just self pity posting.>>44035503A lot of factors, location/life structure/mental illness. I'll end up roping soon. There's a lot more wrong with my life besides being a closet tranny.
>>44032838>>4403361720 year unconscious repper here, wore my mom's dresses and her high heels when I was <10 years old. Only connected that my very trans thoughts were trans after seeing discussion of it about 5 or 6 years ago.It never gets better if you don't do anything to change things. I can't and won't promise your problems will be solved by taking a couple blue pills every day. But for me, just taking a low dose of estrogen has done wonders for my mental health. I'm more active, feel like a living human, able to focus and work extremely hard for the first time in my life, and I did get some physical effects which I really enjoy. It didn't break my dick, it didn't make me a woman overnight, and it certainly didn't solve my problems like the light switch in your picture. But damn it helped me alot.If you're consciously repressing, stop it. You'll be paralyzed by the desires and expectations of others your entire life, as you have been thus far. Let go of their judgements and accept yourself and who you are, whatever that means to you, and the path forward will reveal itself naturally. It's not easy, but it sure as shit beats the alternative of permanent depression and the end of a long rope
>>44035620You can move to some other place, and your mental illnesses don't prevent you from transitioning. I'm mentally ill and dysfunctional too and I'm transitioning.
But like, how do you know when it's time to transition? I've repressed for at least 6 years, too scared to try.
>>44035792Thank you for being optimistic, and i'm glad you found a route to what you need. I don't want to be difficult, i really appreciate your encouragement. My life is extremely fucked up and complicated... like a lot of other people's lives.I'm really hoping reincarnation is a thing, sometimes the save file is too far gone. I've creatively found solutions to a lot of problems in life up until these days.
>>44035920Just take hrt and manmode, it's an easy compromise you can make with yourself and there's no pressure for you to run out in public and tell people
>>44035939I hope things get better for you, nona <3I hope you can continue finding solutions, too!
how do i trans
>>44037248go to doctorget hrt
Why not stay in the closet forever? It's not that bad if you don't think about it
>>44032838>>44035467I'm perma-manmoding, but I feel the same. It feels good to have some actual representation of avoidant reppers. I kinda just want to try coming out to my friends now :/Scary
>>44034709Sis, look at the fanbase...
>>44037661exactly what i do
>>44033617Just start it, there’ll barely be physical changes first or second month worst thing worst some nipple puffiness. Play with it in your head call yourself she/her and if things feel nice or affirming just keep going and if nothing feels different at all or things feel worse just stop, no real harm done lol. Would be ideal if you have a friend or two you can trust completely and tell them that your experimenting and if they’re accommodating ask them to try to use she/her to refer to you and see how that feels as well
The thing about it to me is that I somehow hold a positive connection to masculinity while also feeling like there's a fucking woman inside of me somewhere. I'm too mentally fucked up to even be a damn tranny right, how the fuck is that possible.
>>44043937Just take some time to meditate on it and try to imagine what you would want, I mean if you wanna be non binary or gender fluid or explore your female side that’s always a thing just don’t get stuck feeling like you have to be a guy if it’s been bothering your whole life. don’t think so much about the labels and performing them just think on what you want and then experiment to see if you feel better
>>44032838I was depressed for days after this damn movie.
>>44044313same, plus i coincidentally was fired from my job the day after i watched it. fuck my stupid repper life
>>44043930this, find yourself some retard like me to tell you how obviously you were always a woman because of how retarded you are but its ok because you're a woman and then it's adorable etc
