I have a bunch of outings planned over the next week, and someone even coming across the country to see me... slight problem erm. I'm a total and complete hon. Whenever I think of myself next to literally any of my irl friends, it's like night and day. I tower over all of them, I'm wider than all of them, just overall look more manlike. I can't see myself as a woman next to any real women either. And that's not even a cis vs trans thing, it's an ugly vs pretty thing. I keep having to pussy out of going to the beach or clothes shopping because I'm too humiliated to go to those kinds of places. It's really awful.
