i know this post is going to be pathetic but i really dont know what else to do rn. i think im just going to rope tonight. i was kicked out of school my final year and despite trying to take summer classes in order to get my diploma i physically havent been able to do it. there are 3 days left and so much work even if i neglected everything else in my life i wouldn't make it. i have no friends irl anymore, they all stopped talking to me when i had to leave school because of my grades. my only friends now are some people online that either dont care nearly as much about me as i do them, and then young teens i don't want to burden by talking about these issues. everything is getting worse in my area, and that combined with my awful fucking anxiety means i havent left the house in over a month. even the one creative outlet that helped me through this shit originally brings me no satisfaction anymore. i want to work on it so badly but i just feel awful when i do because i dont compare to those i look up to. i cant even do any basic self care shit anymore, even eating unhealthy stuff is too much effort.on top of all this, im nearly out of my E. im on diy but i cant find a reliable site to get more, and even if i DID find one i dont have nearly enough money to order a vial.This board has brought me a few bits of happiness in the past few months and im so grateful for that and anyone here who was kind to me, it really means a lot.
>>44040264love bump
>>44040264please don’t leave us, i know a site for e and i have like 90 usd left in my crypto wallet, if u promise not to rope at least until the vial is done i’ll pay for it
>>44040264o7 you tried your best soldier
>>44040967i would feel too bad taking money i dont know what good it would bring
>>44042465nta, but the act itself is its own goodness. i understand feeling bad for taking money, i can be the same. but freely giving and accepting kindness is its own good - it would bring about kindness. thats pretty good imoif the other anon is serious and still willing, consider taking them up on the offer.
These words are empty coming from a stranger and at the end of the day it’s your decision but it looks like there’s people willing to help maybe it’s okay to try a bit longer and see how things go. Sorry things have been so rough I hope you can find room to breathe. I believe in you
>>44043480>>44043842i’m extremely serious if giving what amounts to around 60 dollars might mean you can hold on for just a bit longer, not trying to pressure or offend if ur not ok with taking the money.
