Annoying blogpost :3I truly don't know if it's this place that makes me regress so quickly, or if coming here is a sign of a inevitable downturn that would happen regardlessEvery single year I go through the process it seems, 4chan or not, so I guess it's really just inevitableStarting using 4chan and suddenly start cutting myself again, urges come back stronger and hard to ignoreBuy alcohol and want to go back to getting black out to skip the pain like I used to doHyper sensitive and emotional to a pathetic degree, it doesn't matter what the trigger is, but for here just nobody replying to my post or even being slightly mean makes me instantly start to tear up until I get to the point of wanting to sh againIt's a cursed cyclical pattern that's been repeating for over 8 years no matter how many times I "get better", I have a different suicide note for every year since 2019 and multiple attempts in that timeI just really wish that anybody cared about meI don't really know what to say about it all, just thanks for anyone who read this ig, I know I said it was an annoying blogpost so even if it's just a hate comment that's cool too
>>44042895You type like a normal person. Not overly-autistic or self pity seeking. Just keep putting yourself out there and you'll meet people who you can relate to and open up with. It's hard, and they're probably few and far between, but they exist. Involve yourself in a community like a video game, or art forum, etc. NEVER GIVE UP <3
>>44042970I meet a community every couple years or so with people I can relate to, but it usually ends in a year or few monthsUsually it's because of just drifting apart or the other people being busy because they're not as terminally online as I am. Sometimes it's because I fuck it up and they end up hating me for, to be fair valid reasonsBut thank you nona <3 I'm sure I'll atleast find another community some time this year, hopefully it'll last a bit to keep my spirits up
>>44042895*hug*
>>44042895I also do that cycle of coming back here whenever I’m doing worse. It’s probably not good for anyone’s mental state to spend much time here, but there is something cozy about hanging out here with all the other equally unwell transgenders
i love you nonny. life is hard, especially when you are alone.try to make time for little joys, if you can. heres a shiny ursaring i found earlier
>>44042895>I have a different suicide note for every yeari like that actually ima start doing that
>>44044857Why would you want to make a suicide note every year?
>>44044877to remind me what i got through that year
