Every time I see a normal cis woman I feel no sexual desire towards her just a burning desire to immediately kill myself in an extremely painful and horrific manner because IWNBAW.I think when I was developing, either in the womb or at onset of puberty, the metaphorical wires for "sexual attraction" and "self identification" got crossed.Fwiw I'm not AGP, don't get aroused by crossdressing, nor am I attracted to women or to men.I suppose I have a meta-attraction towards men in that being treated socially like a woman and fucked like one validates my sense of self image and makes me feel good.I tried transitioning many years ago got surgeries but ultimately it all failed, my skeleton was just too masculine and my body simply rejected the effects of HRT so now I'm back to boymoding and hiding my big ass tits.That's all thanks for reading my vent.
>>44046701https://youtu.be/Wb4lnDs1Ljg?si=g-mGNDnRJcnuPtTW
>>44046717Uhm thanks ig
