Today I unfriended all my friends, after I had an argument with my best friend I realized I'm genuinely not suited for human interactions and didn't wanna hurt them more, I wanted to end everything as soon as possible before it could even get close to bad, just lost 5 people in one night and I'm lost now, I know I did the right thing but haven't prepared past that, I'm a neet and plan on getting some diagnosis so I can easily OD off what they give me because I'm too scared to jump off a roof or a bridge or hang myself, and I have no access to guns (EU) so i'll let 4chan give me some advice, what would you do?
>>44049012get diagnosed for autism, anxiety, and bpd. seek SSRIs, mood stabilizers, and clonidine/guanfacine for anxiety. stop rotting inside your room victimizing yourself, go outside, and meet new people. thats how you kill your old self in the most productive way.
How about you get whatever diagnoses you need and take the meds correctly instead of killing yourself with them? Talk to people. Make new friends. There are better ways to deal with this than suicide.
i'm sorry, i've done this same thing many many times and have lost almost every friend i've ever had because of it. it can be hard to believe and i dont believe it a lot of the time, but at least some of your friends will truly care about you even if you do silly stuff like this. it's worth keeping in contact with them and explaining why u unadded them i think. at this point i only have a couple friends but i know they actually care about me despite how stupid i am, and it has made my life a lot better
>>44049012I would go back and apologize bc this is the sort of thing you regret deeply in a year
>>44049064i started seeing a psychiatrist and got and alexythimia diagnosis from a neuropsychiatrist (she also said had a chance of autism and depression but sinxe it wasn't 100% sure i'm assuming it means i'm not diagnosed for those) my psychiatrist just does not care about me, i have to have my mom talk in my place because I'm pretty nonverbal when anxious (so anytime with ppl outside my family) if i even manage to get meds i plan on killing myself not getting better>>44049096this is a pattern i've gone through for ten years now: meet cool person, we get close, they say i'm one of the best person they've met and i helped them a lot, i open up, they get distant and eventually go mask off and just tell me to kill myself silently, i am done with humans and my mom is basically the same>>44049109i told them before unfriending them today, i plan on deleting my almost 10 year old discord account now so there's no chance they can come back but i wanna wait tomorrow at least
>>44049119no, i have been in this cycle since i've been in puberty, i'm breaking it today, i have never changed and don't plan on changing
ive been doing stuff like this since i was 14-15 with no issues lolei cut people off all the time i have 250 people blocked on discord and countless others on old socials
>>44049234point is i don't wanna go through people like a condom, I wanna stop hurting everyone I get close to, I want all of these people to be the last real human connection I had, I wanna end my socialization on this day and never look back
>>44049258take wellbutrin and adderall, they made me stop caring about everybody
>>44049268well i want medicine but Just so I can overdose since I do not help anyone, I have just been leeching off my mom have never had a job i am like a strawman made real and have no value to give
BPD moment
>>44049184discord gives you a 30 day wait period before u can delete ur account btw, without that i also would have deleted my account years ago lol
>>44049357i think it's more avpd no?
>>44049407avoidant attachment style
>>44049407they start thinking people hate them for no reason, def BPD.t. undiagnosed BPD haver (probably)
>>44049184get another therapist who is specialized in treating autism and social dysfunction PLEASE, youre floundering and need to change up your circumstances
>>44049357>>44049407>>44049412>>44049418my best friend does not like me and i had proof, even called them out on it and they just told me "I don't deserve answers" but i kno i'm the worst one mentally and whatever I do it'll get worse so I just removed all my friends before it ended the same
>>44049498im sorry nona, please do your best to disregard them and not let it get under your skin too much. this kind of stuff fucks with us bpd trannies heavily
>>44049485What do I gain from waiting months, probably years for a chance at getting help (which would then mean I'd have to spend around a decade talking to professionals who feel superior to me and don't take me seriously) when i can get one and just medmaxx and kill myself
>>44049514what do you gain by doing nothing for years, staying the same while getting older and less excusably socially awkward? at least try nona, its the only thing we can do in life
>>44049012Stop acting like jax and reach out to your friends and be brutally honest about your feelings
>>44049184>this is a pattern i've gone through for ten years now: meet cool person, we get close, they say i'm one of the best person they've met and i helped them a lot, i open up, they get distant and eventually go mask off and just tell me to kill myself silentlywhy the fuck are they like this?? please help i'm in the same conundrum why do they all end up treating me like shit??
>>44051258its happened to me tooive been told that i "helped" and "saved" people constantly but ive never felt helped or saved by anybody in my entire life. it sucks so fucking much
