I feel like I was way more fembrained before starting hrt. Since taking e I’ve developed an extreme aversion to anything remotely feminine. Kinda ironic bc the whole point of doing this to myself was to make me more comfortable being feminine but the opposite happened.
>>44049316>Since taking ehow long? idk it does this. I craved being female until I started HRT and on HRT I had more interest in getting on with life rather than just spiralling about not being fem. But i thought I was cured and I imagined the whole thing, I stopped HRT, but then the dysphoria came back.
>>44049359I think it’s bc I kinda regret it. I now see anything feminine as contributing to me ruining my life
>>44049661>I think it’s bc I kinda regret it. II mean you can stop if you want and see how you feel then? But the HRT craving will come back.
>>44049788yea I guess that’s why I’m scared to quit, I feel like I genuinely don’t want to be female or feminine for the first time in years and I really prefer being like this and don’t want to relapse
>>44049316i only take e to manage my dysphoria atp. seeing fem women/clothing just reminds me of what i'll never be having tried for so long. i also have bpd and went through some uncomfortable manic phases where i'd obsess over girly culture or w/e because i was still self conscious of my identity that i'd rather put behind me. it kind of feels like the femininity was beaten out of me and now i just want to exist in peace
>>44049316being fembrained is a cope
