my girlfriend will sometimes beat me out of anger shes an unmedicated schizophrenic and i have bpd both of our lives are pretty miserable but we've known eachother since we were 12 and are madly in lovehave you ever been abused anon?
Thats not love nona and yes I have
you must be suicidal because you're going to end up dead by her hands
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>>44050037it actually really sucks>>44049988>>44049980i think i might be a masochist because one time i pushed her into doing it and deep down theres a part of me that enjoys it and thinks i deserve it
>>44049574ohhh my steak is too juicy, my lobster is too buttery.I was in an abusive relationship, it sucked, but now looking into retrospect I did enjoy getting beat up. the only problem is that it spiraled out of control and I almost got killed. I stil have some big scar in my arm from the attempt.
my boyfriend doesnt even hit me when i want him too.
>>44050248my girlfriend doesn't do it when i ask her to either so i have to manipulate her into hurting me
>>44050248There is a bigger difference between being spanked and choked and what's happening to OP
>>44050287how do you achieve this? asking for a friend :)
>>44050306she told me im a terrible person who is mean to everyone. i've fucked up every friendship ive had
>>44049574Every day I roll out of bed, not always, but often, with a smile, for I know that I am not you
>>44050366recently I pushed my partner a bit too much with my rudeness and she snapped at me in the way I've done it to others so many times I've never cried so much and felt so regretful I wish she'd hit me to reinforce it so that I could change :(
>>44050432i still can't change even though my girlfriend hits me. i cant stop making her angry im scared that one dsy she'll go to far and kill me. i already woke up choking on my own blood from one of her beatings
>>44050455Im so sorry nona I didn't realise it was like that.. I dont know you personally but from what you've said so far you dont sound like you deserve to die like me you want to change and be better. I hope things get better for you :(
>>44049574she also bit my hand until i was bleeding. she always tells me its my fault and thst i keep pushing her into schizophrenic episodes
>>44049574Anon, leave her and get medicated asap, it is not worth it.
>>44049574kill her
>>44050171Maybe you should explore that in a consenting scenario
>>44049574you need to get far away from her, behavior like this only escalates unless theres some sort of intervention :(
