I wish I was a rape victim so badly. Its not only the trauma most associated with womanhood, but also the most cared about trauma in society. Dare i say its the only trauma society cares about. Nearly everyone universally acts like rape is more evil than even murder. Tv shows and movies can freely make fun of other traumas, but the moment one makes a rape joke theres massive backlash, because rape is the only trauma that society takes seriously and sees as valid. The pain of my trauma will never be recognized or taken seriously because i wasnt raped. If i was raped then people would actually care about me and feel sympathy for me. Its so unfair.
>>44062312lowkey same. i also wish that i were groomed or molested as a child so that i could feel more valid in what i’m putting myself through
>>44062312i was raped and it feels terrible. happened all throughout my life. I can't feel pleasure physically, I can't really be in a relationship, I am hypervigilant and paranoid constantly, I have nightmares most every night. but the worst is the stain of victimhood. how people pity you and look down on you. the disgust in their eyes. especially when it's incestuous rape, because then it's in your own genes. I've had people tell me it probably wouldn't be a bad idea for me to kill myself because statistically it's more likely for me to become a child predator. I hate the pity. i hate feeling like nothing anybody ever does or says is real
nobody is a materialist, arguably least of all the materialists. so you've got to work with lies and implications. to rape is to sully, to rape is to take away from those that deserve it. so go and make it real, and you will be sullied, and you will have been taken away, and if you are lucky, a few men may show you pity in possession....All the world will be your enemy, Prince with a thousand enemies. And when they clock you, they will kill you. But first they must clock you; larper, editor, lurker. Prince with the swift warning. Be cunning, and full of tricks, and your people will never be destroyed.
>>44062312the status of being raped isn't worth at all the way it fucks you up in your head, no matter how strong of a person you arei was raped and didn't even feel bad from it right after it happened, i didn't exactly understand it. for years i even blocked out the memory from my mind and couldn't remember itearly introduction to sex like this made me become hypersexual at 12, it lasted until 18 when my memories uncorked themselvessince then if i wanna trust somebody, stop dissociating constantly or get sexual it requires enormous effort from me and the person interestedsometimes i will catch myself dissociating in the middle of sex because of it, i don't want to be asexual, i don't think i am, but it's the weird invisible mark it leaves on you. it feels debilitating because sex is such an important part of life, the pinnacle of showing care and trust and i am just unable to do it like a normal personnona, even if you think you would thug it out or that it would be worth it - i can assure you it's a big burden and you don't exactly know what it entails
trust me you don’t. you can’t live as a human being after experiencing this shit. you’re a zombie walking around, people see you like a dead body once they realize, or if, dear god, you tell them yourself.
>>44062427forgot picrel
>>44062385Im sorry that youve gone through all that and i mean no disrespect towards your suffering in what im about to sayThe purpose of your reply is to show me how awful rape is, but you only do that because you automatically assumed that the trauma i went through cant possibly be any worse just because i wasnt raped. Its literally this exact mindset that makes me wish I was a rape victim, you and everyone else cannot fathom that other traumas could ever be anywhere near as harmful or psychologically damaging as rape is. Thus downplaying all other traumas. Im not saying my personal trauma is as bad as yours, but it comes a lot closer than you instantly assumed. I share a lot of the same everlasting effects that you mentioned. Im constantly hypervigilant and paranoid. I have frequent nightmares. Im incapable of having any relationships, whether they be romantic or platonic, and i also feel like nothing anybody ever does or says is real.
>>44062312>>44062351>i wish i was raped>i wish i was molested>i wish i was groomedNo you don't, the only thing which springs to mind when you say this is that you have no consideration nor empathy for victims
>>44063133Literally almost every single fucking person on earth has immense consideration and empathy for rape victims. Rape is always treated like the most sensitive topic that must be treated with upmost respect by all of society. Nobody has any consideration for the things im a victim of.
>If i was raped then people would actually care about me and feel sympathy for methis is not true. rape is not taken seriously, only the 'idea' of rape is. as in, you describe how people react to the image of rape in shows but this is not reflected in how people actually treat you irl. you are only really afforded that kind of sympathy in the most extreme violent edge cases - being pulled into an alley or something, a cartoonish idea of the most extreme sort of assault. but most of the time thats not what sexual assault looks like. if you talk about being assaulted people are more likely to attack you for it, or distance themselves from you, or otherwise treat you with less respect. as with all traumatic stuff it doesn't make your life better it just makes you more ostracised. also it is a horrible thing to experience.
>>44062312>waa waaYknow this issue could be easily fixed by simply going on a stroll in your city's culturally enriched quarter while wearing nothing but booty shorts and a crop top
>>44063156I relate to the desire for others to be mindful of the unspoken trauma left by dysphoria but it's no justification to downplay rape, which you ARE doing with the "everyone acts like it's worse than murder" thing. Which it is.
>>44063156>every single fucking person on earth has immense consideration and empathy for rape victimsTheoretically yes, but whenever it's about a family member who's a rapist, or a friend who's one, or a woman who is a molester, everybody turns the blind eye.Besides, even if people had immense empathy for rape victims, it doesn't mean that it would resolve their trauma.>Nobody has any consideration for the things im a victim of.What are you refering to, beside dysphoria?
>>44063156Then why is Trump president???!!
no you dont
you are saying rape is good? wtf???
>>44063201Exactly this. Pedophilia and rape are only widely lambasted because people imagine they are only done by hobos in the street
>>44063219pedophilia is only seen as done by hobos on the street? in 2026?
>>44063201NQbQdy car3d 4 1t, btw if that matters
>>44063279uniroincally yes. or not literally but yeah people still think sexual assault (not even just peado stuff but all SA) is cartoonish. it happens by drunk homeless people in alleyways or by billionaires on cannibal islands or whatever. if you experienced the more common sort of SA people straight up do not believe you and it often ends up hurting you more to talk about it.
>>44062312you don't want itat least once a week, if not more, i question whether my entire identity isn't just a construction to cope with being a victim, and whether i'm not just trying to push that happening onto another 'person' by claiming a new name and identitypeople have 'empathy' for victims in that all but the worst people will feel bad for you, but you'll be permanently treated as fragile and broken and othered
>>44063179No its fucking not. If you genuinely believe rape is worse than murder, then why dont you go around telling rape victims to off themselves? If rape was actually worse than murder, then death would be a mercy to rape victims, afterall.
>>44062312No amount of pity points from people is worth the permanent damage to your psyche and feeling of violation.
this is the same stupid masturbation fantasy people have when they fap to sibling porn but are an only child
>>44063531This is the most retarded redditman shit I've seen in a whilePlease KYS
>>44063186>Besides, even if people had immense empathy for rape victims, it doesn't mean that it would resolve their trauma.i never said it did. I dont think the way rape victims get treated is perfect, but when compared to how lowly other trauma victims are treated rape victims have it the best, hence why i wish i was one>What are you refering to, beside dysphoria?A long series of emotional abuse and neglect from my mother that occured throughout my life, and my mom killing herself directly infront of me right before my birthday. ontop of that was the immense bullying ive experienced all my life that was also highly traumatic for me aswell.>>44063201societys treatment of rape is far from perfect, but still much better than how other traumas are treated. If trump had beaten his kids to bloody pulps instead, his supporters probably wouldnt even deny it but instead say its nothing worth caring about or that hes a hero for disciplining his kids.
>>44062312No you do not. People really don't understand how bad it is until it happens to them. It never goes away you have to live with it forever it will ruin you. As for sympathy, this is what people give you when you tell them:>It's not your fault>You're not alone>It's not your faultStuff like that doesn't make it feel worse, but it won't make it feel better either.
>>44063563You are mad because im right lol. You only say rape is worse because it makes you more emotional than murder does, since youve been desensitized to murder through the media, your opinions are dictated entirely by emotions rather than by any sort of logic. keep coping lmfao
>>44063531ntarape leaves the victim alive to deal with the aftermathi agree, murder is outright worse, no contest, but rape has ongoing and intense complications for its victim beyond the act itself>then death would be a mercy to rape victimssuicide probability goes up rather dramatically following traumatic events, rape included. many rape victims themselves think death is preferable, or post rape at least see it as the only out. see also the suicide rates over time of any mental health condition that has or can have a traumagenic component (BPD, PTSD, OCD, etc)ask someone who's survived a murder attempt, or even suicide attempt - no one gets out this bitch alive, which means putting up with the bullshit in the meantimeagain, murder is obviously worse, but it's more complicated than that, innit?>>44063294yeah - i told my parents who are otherwise supportive that someone at a party they hosted (a plus one, essentially stranger that no one knew) raped me, and their response was outright hostile and abusive. not even skeptical, just blatant hostility. people don't like imagining rape as something that anyone could do, that every bit of harm can be forecast and avoided based on stereotypes and such in their head
>>44063611well its better than getting told>its about time you get over that>you need to stop letting it haunt you>theres other people in the world you have it way worse than you do!
>>44062312>thinking that trannies who are raped are given any sympathy you overestimate cissoids
If society cares about rape so much, why do so many rapists get away with it, especially if they're rich, even more especially if they work for Israel?
>>44063677for the same reason they get away with every crime under the sun. Society still cares more about rape than about other crimes.
y'all arguing that murder is worse than rape are fucking retarded. Rape is so much worse. I would rather die than be raped again.>>44063642Sure, getting the standard issue post-rape sympathy talk is better than being blamed or shamed for it, but it will not make you feel any better! You cannot be un-raped! You are hurting yourself to receive attention that you will not care about after the fact.
>>44063648this. the US government literally encourages and causes the rape of trannies through V codingpeople don't care about trannies, because they see us as mentally ill men. as soon as we transition we're no longer people and just become a statistic and part of a collective to beat down on. it's better to be a tranny with less trauma than it is a tranny with more
>>44063709death forecloses the possibility of recovery. that's why its considered worse.
>>44063709Now I almost kinda want to get raped just so I can prove my will to live is superior and can't be shaken by being raped or tortured.
>>44063752Please, share for us how this 'recovery' is obtained. Right now. This instant. Tell us.>>44063779Go for it.
>>44063779>I almost kinda want to get rapedNo you don't, retard. Just be thankful you've never had to go through that shit.
>>44062312if you were circumcised, you were raped as an infant, and then groomed into thinking it's normal and okay for people to touch your genitals because "boys always want sex," whether you want it or not.
>>44062312I would rather be friends with a 100 murderers than 1 rapistbut ur right, i think its b/c americans just want to push seeing ur kids as property. so it's somehow not ur fault however they turn out, but abuse would break that premise. if they kill themselves at 19 well ur a loving parent for not kicking them out at 18.
>>44063786>right now fix my traumadawg you're not gonna like - long term therapy, medication, lifestyle choices, there's a lot of things that help. hell, go to fuckin church, try praying about it. try drugs, who the fuck knows what works for you. they don't have a perfect success rate, but they can help. you can't go back to pre-rape state of mind, but you can move out of permanent "i want to die right the fuck now" and still live a meaningful life. amputees aren't getting their legs back, but they can still be happy. note how in my original post, i said "possibility", not "single perfect method with 100% success rate". your exact mindset is how people end up offing themselves, or living so miserably that they constantly wish they killed themselves. i've been raped, and yeah, it's still devastating, i'm still suffering, but i'm glad i'm still here, because i want to keep living. i have shit i want to do. if i'm suffering, i do it while suffering. we all die eventually, so isn't trying to find a way to live like this preferable to outright opting out?
>>44063752nta but why is it that when you point out a problem, any problem, particularly one people havent noticed before, even if they have no stake in things, they have to go 'ERMM ERMM ITS BECAUSE REASONS AND HECKIN SCIENCE ACKSHUALLY' and never ever, not once, go 'yeah it sucks and ppl messed up making it and/or are retarded' when the answer is the latter. the only variation you can get is by framing the question slightly differently like the answerers are fucking AI. why does everyone imagine the world is just solved and problems aren't actually real.do you actually think the avg person has a well constructed paradigm of morals. not b/c death is easier for them to imagine, or b/c they got taught that when they were 5. no yeah all people are fully aware of how trauma works and are 100% certain of total annihilation upon death because they just are
>>44063709you are just saying that out of emotion, but if you were actually raped again you wouldnt kill yourself.>>44063786>Please, share for us how this 'recovery' is obtained. Right now. This instant. Tell us.get therapy and ACTUALLY try to recover instead of wallowing in your own pity like most rape victims tend to do
>>44063818get real challenge: impossible
>>44063846>why is it that when a person asks a specific question that has uncomfortable answers, the question is answered with uncomfortable answersi'm also a rape victim - you think i ain't got a fuckin stake into how i, and toher people, understand rape and morality? you think because i gave a concrete answer to a direct question, i don't understand or care about the emotions behind it? you think everyone that doesn't give you softball answers must be a chatbot?you can barely read and want to be mad at strangers on the internet, probably because you are a chimpanzee mad that the zoo visitors have not been flinging peanuts at you as much lately. i hope you get more peanuts soon, and in the meantime your handlers should take your ipad away from you, for your own good
>>44063746Being raped as a tranny just means people weaponizing it against you.
>>44062312>the only trauma society cares aboutonly if youre a perfect victim with a perfect perpetrator. if youre drunk or your skirt is too short or you were in that oart of town or if you talked to him and "les him on" or any number of things its your fault. also youre presumably transadditionally if he is attractive, a "good christian", has some promising career to sob to the jury is ruined, or if he just says "it was an honest mistake" convincingly enough then suddenly you arent a victim or your own person but just a little roadblock in this kind young man's journey and you need to shut up because its basically your fault isnt it?also good luck telling a partner any if this, especially if youre attracted to men.this is assuming it even gets as far as the cops testing your rape kit, which they usually dontpeople care more about rape in theory than in practice. a woman who hasn't been raped is pure and needs protecting, but a woman who has been raped is gross and used and why dont you think how hard it is for the MAN? if youre not the perfect victim, pretty and pure and white and christian, with the perfect perpetrator, an antisocial guy that literally looks like a dirty pedophile stereotype, you wont get very much as far as sympathy or empathy goes from the average person.
>>44062312I thought like this to the point that I actually went out of my way to put myself at a higher chance of it happening (i.e. getting too drunk, leaving the club and telling my friends I got an Uber, but walking home instead - that kind of stuff). Eventually it happened and I got raped by a guy who led me down an alleyway when I was almost blackout. It was horrible and I immediately regretted ever being so stupid as to actually want to experience rape or sexual assault. It's not worth it :/ I couldn't go out at night for several months afterwards and I'm still super cautious and hypervigilant even in the day now
>>44064107Im sorry but the only way i can stop thinking this way is to get raped. I need it to happen to me so i can get through this and end my jealousy for rape victims and finally feel valid in my suffering. I dont even know if any stranger would want to rape a tranny like me though
>>44062312umm this isn't true at alli literally got made fun of by a doctor when i tried to get a std test afteralso you can't talk about it with anyone ever and that drives you crazy not to mention it just makes you feel totally worthless which is reinforced by the way society treats it as something so dark it can never be mentioned
>>44062385you know what, i was with you at first, but then I read this post >>44062472and I finally understand what they mean. Being raped is like having a golden badge stapled to your chest that no one can take away from you and everyone MUST notice and in some small way consciously or subconsciously treat you differently. therefore if you are the type of person who in times of dire need can only get comfort from seeing other people acknowledge and give space for you, then that is absolutely perfect. You don't understand how valuable this is to those people, because you live every day with this privilege and it doesn't seem useful to you. Also being raped is not as traumatic as severe child abuse like getting your fingers smashed with hammers until the bones are broken more than once etc
Its like you are fundamentally allowed to force people to be different around you, and that's extremely rare in general
>>44062312Yeah I feel the same way, tho the other people are probably right in that that actually experiencing it would not help, but I get the desire
>>44063709>y'all arguing that murder is worse than rape are fucking retarded. Rape is so much worse. I would rather die than be raped again.this is actually a really harmful idea to perpetuate for rape victimsrape is awful, but most rape victims recover and are able to live normal lives. Acting like it's worse than death makes recovery harder.
>>44062312>i wish i get afflicted with the worst traums that issis, don't.....
>>44065370i don't really want to be noticed in person or in any of my personal relationships as a victim of rape. I hate feeling like people pity me. sorry I was tired when I wrote that. I wasn't really thinking. i understand what they mean and it isn't an unfair criticism or observation. I don't think ranking the severity of types of abuse is particularly helpful but. idk. I was physically tortured beyond being raped, I was beaten, had cigarettes put out on me, I was forced to cut myself, I was forced to eat shit and bugs and locked in a box with live insects poured on me. When I feel bad I just want to be alone I hate people being like "aw that must be so hard for you" I don't like anybody I actually know acknowledging this stuff at all. idk. I get what they were saying. rape isn't uniquely worse than other forms of trauma I've had em all and the worst of the worst by a long shot is male puberty because that really steals your entire future while the others you can heal from with physiotherapy and time. I guess I just reacted badly because I don't want society to react to my trauma because I hate feeling pitied and looked down on. I hate the word victim
>>44062312rape trauma is cared about in the same way people calll trans women the "most visible" of the trans community. all it is is a strong word people use to further their own ideals while never once actually giving a fuck about the victims. the grass is dead on either side, but i understand why its nice to imagine a world in which its greener. me perosnally i cope with my rape trauma by imagining im a war vet instead, so we all have our things to get us through the day ig
>>44066955exactly, well said. nobody actually cares about Rape Victims. I can understand the desire for recognition of ones trauma but when you get it it's just disgust and pity and loathing masked with politeness and "concern"
>>44062312>If i was raped then people would actually care about me and feel sympathy for meanon after I admitted I got raped my parents wouldn't let me alone with my siblings anymore
>>44062312such a shame you won't, because who would want to do that to you? it would be better sticking your dick in an anthill kek
most women lie about being raped so you could literally just do that lol
>>44062312>its the only trauma society cares about.kek
