I'm attractive as a man so it would be a net loss. I do agree that neverpassers shouldn't transition, there are enough hons in the public eye. the appeal for me is purely sexual though so I just need to get laid more frankly

I don't even know what I'll do this year, I mean, I know what I'll be doing tomorrow, nothing, but nothing amounts to nothing and life keeps getting more complicated, I don't know really, but I'll continue presenting as a man as there's not point in doing otherwise

>>44069720
Repping until my late 20s then killing myself.

>>44069748
I mean I've been "I don't know if I'll live another five years" since I was 10 and at this point I don't pass as a dude either...

>>44069720
well i planned on trying to make a life together with my bf of two years, but now we're moving out of the apartment we had, splitting up, he's on estrogen, my flight back to literally the other side of the continent takes off noon wednesday. i wish i knew, i'm trying to finally finish my college but i probably can't and if i fail like i think that's it. im in my mid 20s, ive been trying to troon unsuccessfully since i was 18 and i feel like that and covid completely ground down what little personhood i had to begin with idk. i wish i was one of the ppl who doesn't seem to just be ruined by this path in life

>>44069720
ffs, therapy and antidepressants, find a friend, start a new hobby, work on making a garden, finish my big painting project, go out to a club and dance

>>44069720
i dont know, im thinking about suicide more but im scared. i guess play video games and smoke weed and be a loser

>>44069985
Waiting on FFS but hopefully next year if insurance cooperates
In regular therapy but honestly it made me worse
SSRIs made me rep as a teen and also made me fat so not doing that again
Keeping friends is hard and I'm a worse friend than I was before HRT unfortunately
Working on the rest

>>44070139
I need to gain weight so maybe ssris will help with that.

nothing happens overnight. plenty of things take time, get worse, get better, repeat

>>44070169
I think if I never got on SSRIs I'd have trooned out as soon as I hit 18 and would have had a much better chance of passing >.>

unironically had shoulder growth after that

I remember googling if shoulders were done growing by then because I was insecure about it since I was in full rep mode