What is your repper masturbation experience like? Whenever I crank my shit, the best way I can describe it is like "trying to get the poison out". Like vomiting out of your dick instead of your mouth.u guys feel me on this one?
I now practice full abstinence from such things
>>44070789I try to interact with it as little as possible.
>>44070820impressive desu>>44070828I'm averaging a little less than one nut a week right now. I don't feel the same type of visceral shame/disgust with myself afterwards at all like during my religious youth, now it's just this general feeling of "I'm glad it's over with", which feels weird and contradictory with being horny in the beginning.
>>44070789It was like I had to drain my balls constantly or else I’d be really sad and anxious
>>44070789the mind is an incredibly powerful thing that can imagine anything, or sometimes nothing at all. I really hate feeling horny. Decreased libido would be a very nice thing, but oh well...>close your eyes and try not to think about anything at all>just let the stimulation flow through you like water flowing through a stream>as it builds, don't try to tense up and focus>stay relaxed, and let it happen at it's own pace>or if that's too abstract, instead try to think about sex in a kind of abstract way, totally divorced from your body>maybe it's other people fucking, or possibly just the concept of it all, but sex feels good, and right now so do you>there are so many things in this world that make you feel bad, but you deserve to feel good
>>44070789by the time I cracked it was 3-4 times a day minimum and I was just doing it to keep the hysteria at bay or for some temporary relief
>>44071006Used to do it like a few times a week, but since getting on SSRIs my libido's been nuked and I prefer it that way.
>>44071058>>44070820it felt like my skin was crawling if I abstained
i can't cum unless i crush my balls in a vice grip
>>44070789Yeah that feeling of relief comes from the drop in testosterone post nut. Completing a hormonal transition is like permanent post-nut clarity.
i would feel hollow and my sinuses would clear
>>44071161yeah i feel like that a lot but i just sit with it and accept how i feel
