OP here from >>>44059138I went to bed after making that post and have been at work all day since.Main things people asked:>Who knows I'm trans?My mom, a few old high school friends I haven't talked to in 6 or 7 years really. A therapist I haven't gone to since 2020. Really, outside of anyone online, there is no one I'm super close to I am out to. I don't think I want to be. I think being out in my current state and job would make my life harder than it needs to be.>Why don't I pass?I keep cutting my hair short. I grow out my facial hair. I wear sports bras and patterned shirts to hide my fat fucking tranny tits.>The Future?Idk. My plans now are to keep working my current job and either get better at this field or go to community college. I have a meme 4-year degree (English degree) but idk what I can do with it. I feel like I can't find something I like and that pays well with this degree. Right now, I'm doing a non English degree job. I feel like a STEM associates degree would open some doors to better paying jobs. As to why I want more money, idk. I'm a eunuch right now (orchie in 2020) and I don't have any other real goals. A house I guess. I think having a nice job that I don't have to take home with me or constantly upskill for would be nice. A job where I can afford a home, my own home, and then I could go home and crossdress and watch anime all that. I think that would be nice.And while no one asked, I typically like more masculine anime, like DBZ and Naruto. DESU, I don't even know why I am making this thread. I'll probably go to sleep again and not reply at work, and it will die before I reply again.
>>44071926>>44071926Today at work was OK. It just felt a little busy, and at the end I just felt really tired and really sad and all I wanted to do was go home and cry and hide from the world. I don't know why. I think a mix of:>sad I'm not a woman>sad I have to work a job at all>sad I can never be a woman>lonely, no friends or gf>felt like an annoying autistic loser tranny freak, unloveable abomination, rotting away until he diesOK, goodnight darlings