If you're conscious repping, why are you on /tttt/? Isn't it tempting to give in when you're around a bunch of actually transitioning trannies? Is it meant to punish yourself or live vicariously through others?When I was repping, I didn't know the board or normal 20-something year old trannies existed until I was 20-something.
>>44094325I'm a NEET hikikomori. I live with my parents. I'm 35. Dropped out of highschool and I have zero money.I don't really care what normal people (you and everyone on this board) does with their lives. It doesn't tempt me like watching the olympics doesn't tempt me to win a gold medal. It's beyond the realm of what's possible for me so I don't even care.
>>44094325I think most reppers are new desu. When I was repping in my teens I didn't actually post and just lurked
>>44094325I check in every now and again out of curiosity because I was once attached IDK man dysphoria eventually numbs and I could browse daily although I only check perhaps once every six months
>>44094325Because 4chan is my only source of socialization and I have nothing better to do with my life.
>>44094325Oh believe me, I gave quitting this board a try. I actually went like 6 months barely using the internet at all due to having a sort of nervous breakdown. But basically that gave me a chance to see what would happen if I isolated myself from anything 4tran-y at all. At first the thoughts left, but as soon as I started to recover from the breakdown, they were back. Back, not because any external factor reminded me but because apparently this shit is buried too deep in my brain to ever completely excise. It's crazy, I basically forgot about the board and just focused on my day-to-day tasks, and even then I found myself dooming about my biceps and traps looking too manly. Even in total isolation I can't seem to get rid of the mind virus.So basically, I don't really know what I'm doing now. I remembered how much I missed commiserating with my fellow reppers about our shared struggles. I know that means I risk running into cognitohazards but apparently it doesn't fucking matter what I do, so I'd rather be with my repper bros.
>>44094325lol giving in is not an option at all it's hilarious to laugh at hons and bask in that repfuel but also hot to vicariously tickle your agp through some other passoid types and loose yourself in dreams and attain relief for a second or just plain critical think the condition then again don't hang here that much it sucks kinda anyway
>>44094325There’s a difference between being sober or not using drugs because you moved to a hut in the woods vs going to AA and living in a college town. The latter takes strength and is proof of my sobriety that I through will brought my self to this state.
>>44095133I would do anything for a hopeful repper story. Jax abstracting was a mercy killing stay strong anon you can be repchad
>>44094325I like the community, the content that is posted, the friends I’ve made, overall you can’t meet people that are retarded like this in any other place, and very often someone posts a thread about how pathetic transgenders are and how inferior they are. Which really just adds another layer to why I’ll never transition; why i’m a repper. I will Never be cis, I will never be remotely close to being or being perceived as cis. That’s why it isn’t tempting, the constant reminders help.
cuz I've been repping for 10 years and this is like the only place to talk about reppingand reading from people who want the opposite of what I want is validating somehow. like if there's people who genuinely want to be feminine then its not just something girls do cuz everybody else is doing it. It makes my "every girl secretly wishes she was a guy" delusion go away. who would want boobs? you all, apparently.
